I’m a freak, I’m a ***
I’m a boss, I’m a *****, I’m a goat
I’m a freak, I’m a ***
I’m a boss, I’m a *****, I’m a goat
I’m a freak, I’m a ***
I’m a boss, I’m a *****, I’m a goat
I’m a boss, I’m a *****, I’m a goat
And id go anywhere you go
Follow you till the end like a ***  
Cause pretty boys make my world
Cause pretty boys last all night
Cause pretty boys like to fight
Yeah ***** I said it
Take your man if he’s pretty got vet him
Then undress him let him take me in the back cause I want to impress him
Just met him but they that we **** is impressive
If he’s your man come get him cause when I’m done take him back I’ll redress him
I’m a freak, I’m a ***
I’m a boss, I’m a *****, I’m a goat
I’m a freak, I’m a ***
I’m a boss, I’m a *****, I’m a goat
I’m a freak, I’m a ***
I’m a boss, I’m a *****, I’m a goat
I’m a boss, I’m a *****, I’m a goat
I’m a boss, I’m a *****, I’m a goat
Ima ima ima ima ima go anywhere I want
Ima ima ima ima ima smoke these trees don’t judge
Ima Ima ima ima ima work these stupid jobs
Ima ima ima ima ima **** any man I want

I was right I was right I was right yeah
Took a few times to get this **** right yeah
I was right I was right I was right yeah
Could talk about how I **** em in the night yeah
My mom was right my mom was right my mom was right yeah
Don’t be excessive with your feelings if your feelings aren’t right yeah
I was right I was right I was right yeah
Took a few times to get this **** right yeah
I was right yeah
could start a fight yeah
but I’m to ****** and
I’m so basic-******* getting face lifts
but I can’t afford it
so I stay basic-******* change their faces
and I don’t fit in
cause I’m not wasted
or drugs now
I stay home wow ***** I’m watching fallout
but you are just a fallout
on Hollywood you’re so stalled out
I’m watching fallout
while you’re a fallout
So I was right I was right I was right yeah
Took a few times to get this **** right yeah
I was right I was right I was right yeah
Could talk about how I **** em in the night yeah
My mom was right my mom was right my mom was right yeah
Don’t be excessive with your feelings if your feelings aren’t right yeah
I was right I was right I was right yeah
Took a few times to get this **** right yeah
I was right I was right I was right yeah
Could talk about how I **** em in the night yeah

Ill never be like her and it’s okay
I’ve accepted that I’m not enough
To be enough for myself is enough
To be the expectation that you expect me to be
I’ll never be her and honestly it’s okay
I could treat myself horribly and say hurtful things to myself and believe that they are the truth because you don’t see my worth I’ll never be enough but your wrong because quite frankly I am enough
I am enough when I’m feeling ugly
I am enough when my clothes are *****
I am enough when my clothes get tighter
I am enough when I’m depressed
I am enough when I act crazy
I am enough when I’m stressed again
I am enough even though I still make minimum wage and I’m almost 28
I am enough even though I’m bad with money and spend more money than I should on ****
I am enough even when you’d say it’s an addiction id say it’s my only medicine
I am enough even when I can’t pay my bills and no matter how much I work I still can’t catch up
I am enough even when I was working and still living in a hotel because I lost my home
I am enough even though I went crazy and tried to **** myself
I am enough even though I was crazy angry and got arrested and put in the mental hospital for my suicide attempts and blatant psychosis
I am enough but I won’t forget
The pain I feel so I take all these meds
It’s still the voices that are inside my head
I feel so voiceless so I put down my head
More annoyed that you think you’re my friend
Both of you could learn to wait for me instead
More annoyed that you think you’re my friend
Both of you should go be with your ex
Cause you say to wait for you but you’re at events
Festivals how could you forget
The walls are talking but it’s not you instead
it’s my self telling me to just let go and forget
Cause you’re with your wife and she’s your best friend
So go perform I know you’re missing it
But I’m not sure I’m even feeling it
cause singing holy don’t make you my friend
Should be embarrassed you think you’re the best
A broken man I don’t think I could forget
Wasn’t a fan so I don’t know your past
But I heard your choices weren’t always the best
Still it wasn’t me who went and made your bed
It’s was yours so go and lay in it
or ask your wife to lay with you instead
I’m not holding on for any man
or waiting for him to choose me again
So go and Grindr on your boy again
at least I know your wife don’t give a ****
Cause if it was me I’d be embarrassed and
I’d just laugh cause you think you’re the best
I’m not like her so you won’t string me along
I won’t hold on cause you wrote me a song
Think you’re my justice but you’re completely wrong
If it was for me it wouldn’t have taken so long
I got depressed and I turned off your songs
If it was for me it wouldn’t have taken so long

It used to be melancholy
Now it’s mania and adversity
Melancholic madness
Sadness exemplified
Ticking timebomb
Explosive behavior
Raging moods
Crashing highs
Burning lows
Bipolar woes

Let it go
Let it be
Find inner peace
Find stillness
Be like water
Enjoy life’s freedoms
Be willing and determined
Dedicate yourself to your craft
Let it go
Let it be

Insanity with brief moments of clarity
Polarizing polarity
Distant from reality
But so close to a clarification
Define your feelings
Draw them
Can I scream instead
No
You can only hope and give your life to Jesus
Please don’t give up hope god is the way
Crisis mode activated
Decided to give up religion a long long time ago
Never wanted to dance with god
The devil is my only god
Not a evil satanic creature
Cult leader or fictitious monster
Missing a piece from the puzzle
God is the devil
The devil is god
Duality and mathematicians would agree
It’s the same side of the coin each version is a different perspective
You see evil I see hope
I see evil you see reality
Disaster is beautiful
Crisis mode aversion
What a way to view the world
Letting go of what’s normal
Alice in wonderland find a new view
Life is a journey not a destination
Let the last breath of your life be with the things you love
I’m ready for a new life

Badass ******* go to school and do their homework
Badass ******* go to school they know their own worth
Badass *******, move, just learn to read the room
Badass ***** that’s why I said to ******* move
I don’t **** with other dudes when I’m with you know I’m with you
Badass ******* go to school and do their homework
Badass ******* go to school they know their own worth
Badass ******* go like zoom cause they always on the move
Try to catch her feeling she’ll eat you up cause shes never in the mood
Go hit up Becky with that good hair cause when I want it boy I choose

He is doing anything cause he’s popular
Maybe make me go and sing cause he’s popular
Maybe make me buy ring cause he’s popular
All the hoes be like ring cause he’s popular
And he is doing anything cause he’s popular
Oh he’s popular yeah I heard that he’s popular
Make the hoes scream yeah I know they want his ugh
Yeah he’s popular ***** I heard he’s popular
Make them hate me cause they know that’s he’s popular
I wish I could hate him but I know that he’s too popular
Make my day when he says he wants to be my doctor ugh
Got a hard fetish but I’m not a prima donna
Why don’t you pull out your long hard stethoscope
Choke me hard boy put it around my ******* throat
Got a hard fetish but I’m not prima Donna
Make my day when he says he wants to be my doctor ugh

And I’ll never be the pretty girl
And I’ll never have diamonds or pearls
And I’ll never be the skinniest
And I’ll never be the best one dressed
Just know I’ll always be the messiest
Just know I’ll always be the opposite
Just know I’ll always be the ugliest
And I’ll never be the one-the one who’s the best
And I’ll never be her
And I’ll never be the pretty girl
And I’ll never be the skinny one
And I’ll never be her her her
And I’ll never be enough
Enough for you want to love
And I’ll never be her
So I guess its time-time to move on
Yeah
I just wish I could wake up and be the prettiest
I just wish I could wake up and be the best  
So much pain because I am unfortunate
Can you relate or are you self obsessed
And I’ll never be her
And I’ll never be the pretty girl
And I’ll never be the skinny one
And I’ll never be her her her
And I’ll never be enough
Enough for you want to love
And I’ll never be her
So I guess its time-time to move on
Just know I’ll always be the messiest
Just know I’ll always be the opposite
Just know I’ll always be the ugliest
And I’ll never be the one-the one who’s the best

I wish I was pretty to you
I wish I was skinnier to
I wish I was cooler to you
I wish I fit in with your popular crew
I wish I was enough for you  
I wish I was just like her too

Somedays I can’t explain
It’s just this aching pain
Can’t take this pain
I think I’ll run away
But in the end-
there’s no escape

I wish I was pretty to you
I wish I was skinnier to
I wish I was cooler to you
I wish I fit in with your popular crew
I wish I was enough for you  
I wish I was just like her too

I always wished I was pretty enough
I always wished I was skinny enough
I always wished I was cooler too
I always wished I was popular like you
I always wished that I was enough for someone like you
I always wished I was like her too

But I’m not okay
I’ll fake it but it’s pain
you say my name
But I don’t feel the same
I’m really not okay
I’ll fake it but it’s pain

Somedays are all the same
I hate myself it’s never changed
I always wish that I could change
I don’t deserve a ******* thing
I guess it’s what I deserve
Karma served and it burns
What did I do to deserve
Karma served and it burns

I wish I was pretty to you
I wish I was skinnier to
I wish I was cooler to you
I wish I fit in with your popular crew
I wish I was enough for you  
I wish I was just like her too

I always wished I was pretty enough
I always wished I was skinny enough
I always wished I was cooler too
I always wished I was popular like you
I always wished that I was enough for someone like you
I always wished I was like her too

I’m still picking up pieces of my broken heart my broken heart
You left me alone back then and I fell apart I fell apart
But overtime I learned how to push restart how to push restart
I shed some tears under the milky stars the milky stars
My biggest fear was that it was my fault I know I’m not enough
If I could change one thing it be my looks I know that they are all prettier
But still I dream of only you and me it’s just both of us
If I could change one thing it would be my looks I know I’m not enough
And it’s insane cause if I changed my looks you’d say that Im prettier
So who’s to blame for all this wicked love it’s just a toxic love
I feel ashamed I think I’ve had enough
I think I’ve had enough
Why should change just so I’ll be enough
Just so I’ll be enough
So who’s to blame for all this wicked love it’s just a toxic love
I feel ashamed I think I’ve had enough
I think I’ve had enough
Why should I change just so I’ll be enough
Just so I’ll be enough
I’m still picking up pieces of my broken heart my broken heart
You left me alone back then and I fell apart I fell apart
But overtime I learned how to push restart how to push restart
I shed some tears under the milky stars the milky stars
I shed some tears under the milky stars the milky stars

Lately my mind has been racing
I’m so full of hesitation
But I still want to let you know
You got that open invitation
Boy you got me sitting waiting
How I just can’t get enough of your love
You got that bad boy swagger
And you like to flaunt your power
How you got girls ringing up your phone
Well I’m just so sour cause in another hour
If you don’t lock it down I’ll move along

He got that bad boy swagger
How he likes to flaunt his power
Another girl another hour
Turning me really sour
But I am still gonna let you know
I like your bad boy swagger
And I want to feel your power
Come on and show me how you really love
Lately my mind has been racing
I’m so full of hesitation
But I still want to let you know
You got that open invitation
Boy you got me sitting waiting
How I just can’t get enough of your love

FaceTime, no Wi-Fi
Let’s hook up in real time
I don’t need my phone right now
It’s our time-get ****** up now
Face time, no Wi-Fi
Let’s hook up in real time
We don’t need ours phones right now
It’s our time-get ****** up now

Lately my mind has been racing
I’m so full of hesitation
But I still want to let you know
You got that open invitation
Boy you got me sitting waiting
How I just can’t get enough of your love
You got that bad boy swagger
And you like to flaunt your power
How you got girls ringing up your phone
Well I’m just so sour cause in another hour
If you don’t lock it down I’ll move along

I’m hella zooted mega faded
La la la la
And you just hate cause you’re a hater
La la la la
So spread your hate but I’m just saying
La la la la
That Im not that rude I’m not that jaded
La la la la
So you stay mad and I’ll stay faded
La la la la
This ******* got me feeling angry
La la la la
La la la la who
La la la la me
La la la la friends
La la la la were enemies
Just playing my cards rolling my dice and I’m
Seeing how far that hate pushes me this time
And I’m staying so strong cause if I let you win I’d be in bar fighting demons with alcohol again
Being this crazy just isn’t easy
I fight these voices like I fight for peace
And everyone thinks I just want it easy they blame each other but they don’t realize they are just puzzle pieces for the corporations it’s the corporate greed and I’m pretty sure that you still don’t believe you’re just puzzle pieces for the our corporate greed and it’s just evil.
Speak up for the poorest for once.
All I ask is what did you pour in that cup.
A shot of whatever who gives a ****.
You rely on materialism and greed
I rely on my strength and inner peace
I’m strong independent ******* kind of person
And I think that I might speak out of line in all of these verses
and my rhymes don’t fit it and they dont sound right
and politics always makes you mad you call me crazy cause I ******* care selfish vanity got you twisted I rely on my strength and my ******* vision. A burden to society is the label you would place on me like I’m not trying but when I was you still hated on me and I gave up and you just kept that hate on me couldn’t see yourself you put that blame on me and I’m so sorry that you have no feelings
Well that Louis bag I know you must have millions still you walk around like life is just material
you have no love cause you buy all your feelings
So I’ll stay hella zooted mega faded
La la la la
And you just hate cause you’re a hater
La la la la
So spread your hate but I’m just saying
La la la la
That Im not that rude I’m not that jaded
La la la la
So you stay mad and I’ll stay faded
La la la la
This ******* got me feeling angry
La la la la
La la la la who
La la la la me
La la la la friends
La la la la were enemies
La la la la were enemies
La la la la were enemies
La la la la were enemies

Dollar dollar bills
Dollar dollar dollar bills *** (x3)  
I like the way you move so go and drop it on a ***
Money money money
Got acting me funny funny
The way they love up on me and turn around and call me slutty
You trying to lock it down but I’m always on the move
Your ***** just a **** so where’s some other dudes
It’s just the name of the game I got him singing again
And when he come around I know he’s bringing his friends
Dollar dollar bills
Dollar dollar dollar bills *** (x3)  
I like the way you move so go and drop it on a ***

Ima bad ***** and I know it
I’m going to flex this ****
I’m going to show it
I’m bad ***** better know it
You like bad ******* on your instagram
They got a skinny waist and a big ole ***
That bbl I ain’t got none of that
I’m so plus size I got all that ***
Fat people you won’t **** with
I’m not starving but you still want to **** it
I’m eating like I’m veteran you'd still touch it
And if you don’t like all of me then **** it
Don’t take my plate I’m eating all of that
If you can’t handle my talk then there’s the trash
Have them take you out like you are a garbage bag
And when the come collect take you to the garbage can
There’s a ***** in this house but you won’t get this *****
Better act like a gentleman to get this cookie
I want a Bentley and a Rover and the keys to your safe
Also a Louis bag for the cash I’m gonna take
The down payment for a ride and lll clean it up really nice
Take the keys you can drive like Bianca Ill go down on you in the ride
Make you feel real nice
You like to feel the high  
I spit it out just like my pride
It’s in my eye so I blink twice

You must be tripping I can see you’re playing on me
You run around singing holy and then you play them games on me
I’m not deaf I can hear what people are saying about me
I’m not enough of the type of girl that you usually choose to be with  
I’m not a model or a instagram pretty girl-my ******* sag my *** is fat and I got stomach rolls
Ignoring Lizzo but boy just know that I’m built like that girl
Im socially awkward and I’m always ****** I guess you could say that’s why I’m always so poor
And you’re so cool I hear all the girls want to be your girl I guess we live in two different worlds
You’re so iced out and your style is super fancy
You’re at nobu eating so nice boy you’re so bougee but your little lady stays classy
I can’t pretend like you for a music video
I’m always struggling sometimes I wish you knew what it was really like to be poor
I can’t even afford food without food stamps anymore
But it’s all my fault though cause society would place the blame on me cause I’m poor
I gave up and choose this life I didn’t try enough so they don’t waste their breathe on me anymore
They don’t know the context of homelessness and how anxieties flood my mind and it’s so constant and how I’m insane most of the time
I’m bipolar so it kind of makes me always go crazy all the time
Sometimes I want to pull the trigger and end all of my pain-you’re so deluded but I think that you’re my only friend
I guess that’s why it’s easy for you to sing about it but do nothing
Stalker ring my bell one more time so I can ignore you like you’re nothing
And I’m in hell cause if you showed up again I’d forgive you like it was nothing
You broke my heart but I still love you forever so its something
Guess she wasn’t lying when she said she had to lose you to love me
You weren’t there so I grew stronger and I stopped the overdosing and cutting
The hospital always felt like a jail cell and they all loved to make jokes making fun of me
And you sing about how you’d be there but how can I hold on with nothing
He says changed but he’s still playing
He thinks he’s winning but I’m not staying
He stalked me back then and it made me go crazy
Shaved my hair off cause I thought you replaced me
Hurt myself and got arrested
Hospital stays they felt like prison
Overdosing cause I missed him
Hospital stays they felt like prison
He might be older but I’m wiser  
He thinks he cooler but I’m kinder   
He might holy but I’m a sinner
He might be king but I’m the holy Mecca
He might be everything that all these stupid hoes want
To all these basic ******* I guess he really is god
But they don’t know him like I do that boy has so many problems
A broken man with such low standards and so much built up karma
I feel like he wants me to come in and solve all of his problems
Make him feel like he’s accomplished
Like he finally did someone justice
Status got something do with it
Singing his blues like a stupid kid
Still he haunts me every night I swear these walls must be talking
Cause I hear him all the time I swear we always are talking
Is he my guy let me decide
If I choose him would he ride or die
Will he stay loyal, time will tell
He’s so spoiled that’s all I can tell
My best friend but is it all pretend
I hear him talking he says you’re mine again
And I want him forever so I let him in  
He is my friend so I write him again  
Okay I’ll hold on cause you are my only friend

******* ******* *******
And to all the ***** *** hoes
Let me tell you what to do
Don’t **** with me
And I won’t **** with you

Say something cause I’m poor
Does it look like I live in the dirt
Didn’t know you were the one
Paying me for my worth
And you think you really matter
That your opinion is god
Cause you pray to him
Cause you pray a lot
Well I won’t tell you twice
I don’t prey that nice
If I catch you in my web
Ima eat you up that night

And to all the ***** *** hoes
Let me tell you what to do
Don’t **** with me
And I won’t **** with you

And to all the ***** *** hoes
Let me tell you what to do
Don’t **** with me
And I won’t **** with you

And I would say I’m victim of your love love love
And you like to tie your victims up up up
Make them sip just from your cup cup cup
But I don’t care cause I’m in love love love

So go ahead and tie me up
Make me sip out of you cup
Guess I’m victim of your love
Guess I’m victim but in love

And I would say my love is true
My heart it beats just for you
And I know you’re just bad news
But I don’t care cause I love you

And I’m victim of your love love love
And you like to tie your victims up up up
Make them sip just from your cup cup cup
But I don’t care cause I’m in love love love

So go ahead and tie me up
Make me sip out of you cup
Guess I’m victim of your love
Guess I’m victim but in love

And my love is true
My heart it beats just for you
And I know you’re bad news
But I don’t care cause I love you

You must be tripping I can see you’re playing on me
You run around singing holy and then you play them games on me
I’m not deaf I can hear what people are saying about me
I’m not enough of the type of girl that you usually choose to be with  
I’m not a model or a instagram pretty girl-my ******* sag my *** is fat and flat and I got stomach rolls
Ignoring Lizzo but boy just know that I’m built like that girl
Im socially awkward and I’m always ****** I guess you could say that’s why I’m so poor
And your so cool I hear the girls see you and go crazy I guess we live in different worlds
You’re so iced out and your style is uber fancy
You’re at nobu eating nice boy you’re so bougee not classy
Meanwhile I’m struggling sometimes I can’t afford anything even the most basic ****  
It’s all my fault though cause society would place all the blame on me
I gave up and choose this life I didn’t try enough so don’t waste a breathe on me
They don’t know the context and how anxieties flood my mind and it’s so constant and I’m insane most of the time
I’m bipolar so it kind of makes me go crazy
Sometimes I want to pull the trigger and end the pain-and you’re so deluded and I guess I’m just crazy
I guess that’s why it’s easy for you to sing about it but do nothing
Stalker ring my bell one more time so I can ignore you  
And I’m in hell cause if you showed up again I’d forgive you
You broke my heart and you left me like I was nothing
Guess she wasn’t lying when she said she had to lose you to love me
He wasn’t there so I grew stronger and I stopped the all overdosing and cutting
The hospital always felt like a jail cell and they all loved to make jokes about me
And you sing about how you’d be there how can I hold on without a real ring
Says he’s changed but he’s still playing
Thinking he’s winning but I’m not staying
He stalked me so it made me go crazy
Shaved my hair off cause I thought you replaced me
Hurt myself and got arrested
Hospital stays they felt like prison
Overdosing cause I missed him
Hospital stays they felt like prison
He might be older but I’m wiser  
He thinks he cooler but I’m the winner  
He might thinner but I’m thicker
He might be king but I’m the holy Mecca
He might be everything that all stupid these hoes want
To all these basic ******* he really is god
But they don’t know him like I do he has so many problems
A broken man with such low standards and so much karma
I feel like he wants me to come in and solve all his problems
Make him feel like he’s accomplished
Like he did justice for someone
Status got something do with it
Singing his blues like a stupid kid
Still he haunts me every night I swear these walls must be talking
Cause I hear him all the time I swear we always are talking
Is he my guy let me decide
If I choose him would he ride or die
Will he stay loyal, time will tell
He’s so spoiled that’s all I can tell
My best friend but is it all pretend
I hear him talking he says he’s mine
I’m just for him I guess he decides
I let him in he takes control now we’re both laughing singing let’s take over the world
It’s all for jokes so don’t go clowning I’m just a muse whose always drowning
But don’t come save I’m in the shallow end
And know the water is my second best friend
He is my first I write a song ps I love you
Don’t take too long

Every night I lay awake and wonder where you are and if you still think of me and if I’m in your heart.
I know that it’s been very long and we both have moved on I wonder what your thinking of and if the next girl will hold your heart.
Even though you broke my heart I still wonder where you are and if she really loves everything you are.
I loved you truly I’m not like you I can’t play a part it’s really sad I’m so abused I’d still take you back tomorrow.

Don’t you want to know the price
Do I look like a prize
Put me up on your shelf
Momentary high
Don’t you want to know the price
Don’t you want to know the price
Don’t you want to know the price
I could make feel nice
but only for the night
Only for the night
Only for the night
Only
For
The
Night
And I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care
Just go and stare
Go and stare
Go and stare
And I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care
Just go and stare
Go and stare
Go and stare
Life is so much better on the other side
Why do you care how I go choose to live my life
Judge-mental judgements made by these *******
Why should I care, Im not like them, I didn’t grow up with riches
Matter fact I’m about to get down with the sickness
Burn the roof down like bloodhound *******
Matter fact I’m about done with all you *******
You go and pop off about how I’m still stuck in the trenches
But you don’t know me a hustler with visions
Paving my own path cause I’m young and I’m living
Even though I’m poor I got more love in my kitchen
So you can write me off but I’m a hustle till I die
Cause you don’t pay my bills or buy my food so don’t tell me how to live my life
Entitled little **** you like spit like it’s facts
You only know half of the story so here’s the rest don’t write me back
I’m stating facts
I’ve got my back
and here’s what’s sad
you pushed me down
I got up
Looked like clown
I wasn’t laughing  
But here’s the joke
Hey good luck drowning
I hope you choke

2024 and he hasn’t proposed yet
Feeling like he don’t care I was homeless
I’m too blame for thinking he’s changed
He might love me but now I’m sick of his games
And look I get I’m kind of ugly and I’m fat it’s not fetish
Supermodels bento boxes and liquor bottles
They do anything just to drown their own sorrows
THC Mushrooms it’s just another day hey homie don’t forget to try the *******
Really high and they’re all so vain I guess they’re too strung out to remember they’re on *******
Attention fame-seeking hoes
The type that’ll say I love you and **** your best bro
Attention fame seeking hoes
The only person that I want is married so I guess I’ll go
Wait never mind I’m win him back I guess Ariana now doesn’t look so bad
Homewrecker homewrecker in the house
Break up with wifey right now
Show up I know you always show out
Swagger boy I know you got some reasons now  
Hut one hut one two three
Through the ball right here cause now I’m in your league
Switch lanes I know they looking for me
Cops lights and I’m going full speed
Cops couldn’t catch up cause I’m need for speed
And for your loving I’m need a retainer for them legal fees
You’re just so Devine better know it I won’t say it twice
Sent from heaven I know that your mine
And I’m devil don’t forget I’m in disguise

Move on girl cause it’s been too long
Remember how he always led you on
Move on don’t hold on for love
Choose to love yourself for once
He’s not worth the broken heart
Self repair put on your favorite song
Sing and let the pain fade away
Or let him go some other way
Don’t waste a second hit replay
Don’t give him another thought today
Choose to love yourself for once
Cause you deserve to be loved

Provenance
I wish only for the best
Bad luck
I guess it was for the best
Heart break
It was just a test
Selfishness
I guess I needed some rest
Adversity
Why I’m in this mess
Duplicity
Hurt me again
Forgiveness
To let it go without resent

Internal pain
Lifetime warranty
Repossession
Internal combustion
I’ve hit hard times
It’s like I’m stuck
You moved on it’s fine
Choices we make
I’m not sorry I’m so angry
Try to let it go
Smoke another bowl
Dissipated
Remorse or regret
Lovely lies
The past can’t be reset
If I’m an adult I’ll learn to let it go
I’m not a child I’ve grown too old
Reset myself with no fear
Let go of the hell that I’ve endured
Maybe they changed and feel ashamed
Maybe they live with it every day
But I will always carry this pain
A hole in my heart that can’t be replaced
I drink so much soda to numb the pain
Cause binge drinking liquor was too ******* me
Anything to numb the pain
Smoke a bowl
Or eat something
Focus on my goals and dreams
But the demons always come for me
And make me angry for my pain
And so I’m left with a choice to make
To let it be or fight the pain

I feel so stupid
Will I be fine
I’m so hurt
Carve a line
Self destruction is such a lovely thing

Dollar dollar bills
Dollar dollar dollar bills *** (x3)  
I like the way you move so go and pop it on a ***
Money money money
Got acting me funny funny
The way they love up on me and turn around and call me slutty
You trying to lock it down but I’m on the move
Your ***** just a **** where’s some other dudes
It’s just the name of the game I got you singing again
And when he come around I know he got a ring in his hand  
Dollar dollar bills
Dollar dollar dollar bills *** (x3)  
I like the way you move so go and pop it on a ***

If it’s up then it’s stuck heard it in a song
Put on a Quentin Tarantino movie cause it turns me on
If it’s up then it’s stuck heard it in a song
Put on a Quentin Tarantino movie cause it turns me on
Put on a Quentin Tarantino movie boy get up
Put on a Quentin Tarantino movie boy let’s ****
Put on a Quentin Tarantino movie boy get up
Put on a Quentin Tarantino movie boy let’s ****
If it’s up then it’s stuck heard it in a song
Put on a Quentin Tarantino movie cause it turns me on
If it’s up then it’s stuck heard it in a song
Put on a Quentin Tarantino movie cause it turns me on
If it’s up then it’s stuck heard it in a song
Put on a Quentin Tarantino movie cause it turns me on

This *******-ignorance
I gotta learn how to stand up for myself
This *******-ignorance
I gotta learn how to navigate through hell
This *******-ignorance
I gotta learn how to let it all out
This *******-ignorance
I got to learn how to stand up for myself
This *******-ignorance
I gotta learn how to navigate through hell
This *******-ignorance
I gotta learn how to let it all out

I wanna rage in this hell
I wanna fight for what’s mine and
I wanna live for myself
I wanna rage in this hell
I wanna fight for what’s mine and
I wanna live for myself
What the hell
What the hell


Your ******* ignorance is bliss
The way you swipe your card is bliss
The way take it all is bliss
The way your hoard it all is bliss
But I think it’s all ****

I wanna rage in this hell
I wanna fight for what’s mine and
I wanna live for myself
I wanna rage in this hell
I wanna fight for what’s mine and
I wanna live for myself
What the hell
What the hell
What the helll

And I’ll never be her
And I’ll never be the pretty girl
And I’ll never have diamonds or pearls
And I’ll never be the skinniest
And I’ll never be the best one dressed
Just know I’ll always be the messiest
Just know I’ll always be the opposite
Just know I’ll always be the ugliest
And I’ll never be the one-the one who’s the best
And I’ll never be her
And I’ll never be the pretty girl
And I’ll never be the skinny one
And I’ll never be her her her
And I’ll never be enough
Enough for you want to love
And I’ll never be her
So I guess its time to move on
Yeah
I just wish I could wake up and be the prettiest
I just wish I wish I wish I wish I wish
I just wish I could wake up and be the prettiest
I just wish I wish I wish I wish I wish
So much pain because I’m so unfortunate
Can you relate or are you to self obsessed
So much pain because I’m so unfortunate
Can you relate or are you to self obsessed
And I’ll never be her
And I’ll never be the pretty girl
And I’ll never be the skinny one
And I’ll never be her her her
And I’ll never be enough
Enough for you want to love
And I’ll never be her
So I guess its time to move on
And I’ll never be the pretty girl
And I’ll never have diamonds or pearls
And I’ll never be the skinniest
And I’ll never be the best one dressed
Just know I’ll always be the messiest
Just know I’ll always be the opposite
Just know I’ll always be the ugliest
And I’ll never be the one-the one who’s the best

Cause now it’s like everyone knows me
Can’t lie cause I kind of miss the old me
Cause now it’s like everyone knows me
Can’t lie cause I kind of miss the old me
Can’t lie you’re putting pressure on me
Can’t lie you’re putting pressure on me
Used dream that I would be more than this
Cause now its like everyone knows I’m poor and your rich
Can’t lie cause I kind of miss the old me
Cause now it’s like everyone knows me
Can’t lie cause I kind of miss the old me
Cant cry cause now everyone knows me
Can’t lie you’re putting pressure on me
Can’t lie you’re putting pressure on me
Can’t lie can’t deny
All the things I feel inside
Say things sweet things
But you lie
All the things I feel inside
Can’t lie cause I kind of miss the old me
Cause now it’s like everyone knows me
Can’t lie cause I kind of miss the old me
Cause now it’s like everyone knows me
Can’t lie you’re putting pressure on me
Can’t deny you’re putting pressure on me
Can’t lie you’re putting pressure on me
Can’t deny you’re putting pressure on me
Cause now it’s like everyone knows me
And you always say it’s cause you’re lonely
Don’t lie I know you only care about your own things
Say you care but you left me scared and hurting
I tried but you only care about your own things
I tried but you only care about your own things

You buy a Rolex just to flex
So you can look rich to these *******
Then you put some money on your chest
Just so that you can feel the richest
Said you broke up now she’s your ex
And now I’m the one that you’re feeling
You bought a new life heard you’re living
But in the end you still want me in your kitchen
Said you wrote an album just for me
Just so that I would finally see
A special life just you and me
and some days we just smoke ****
But we’re both scared for some reason
Probably cause of the changing of the seasons
Heard you’re staying at the fours seasons
In Malibu at Nobu you’re always eating
All the gravity now got me singing
Cause now I want your love so I’m just ringing
All the gravity now got me singing
Cause now I want your love so I’m just ringing

You buy a Rolex just to flex
So you can look rich to these *******
Then you put some money on your chest
Just so that you can feel the richest
Said you broke up now she’s your ex
And now I’m the one that you’re feeling
You bought a new life heard you’re living
But in the end you still want me in your kitchen
Said you wrote an album just for me
Just so that I would finally see
A special life just you and me
and some days we just smoke ****
But we’re both scared for some reason
Probably cause of the changing of the seasons
Probably cause of the changing of the seasons
Probably cause of the changing of the seasons

You buy a Rolex just to flex
So you can look rich to these *******
Then you put some money on your chest
Just so that you can feel the richest
Said you broke up now she’s your ex
And now I’m the one that you’re feeling

Us girls and our shooters
We’re pretty and we’re clueless
We’re pretty don’t be useless
And I don’t know how I’m gonna make you understand that I’m not like those other girls I don’t need a man a million on your finger and your scared what’s the reason cause if I was a millionaire I’d be on jerry springer line up all my baby daddies in the screening room and have them boys ******* bricks about whose baby this is too but he got a million on his finger and acting like he do something wrong with this too cause when he pulled up last time where did he go he be like zoom you didn’t give me a chance to open up boy I’m a mute I’m super shy for some reason I get scared sometimes too
Us girls and our shooters
We’re pretty and we’re clueless
We’re pretty don’t be useless
We’re pretty don’t be useless
Useless useless useless useless useless

Everyday I think about you
What did you do
And what kind of people do you choose
Everyday I wonder what I should do
Do I move on from you
Or do I hold on for you
And every time I fall-al-al-al-al-al
Every-time I fall
Every-time I fall
And every time I fall-al-al-al-al-al
Every-time I fall
Every-time I fall
Every-time I fall
And I know it’s easier for you
To live life like you do
But for me it’s so hard
And I’m so far from you
And every time I fall-al-al-al-al-al
Every-time I fall
Every-time I fall
And every time I fall-al-al-al-al-al
Every-time I fall
Every-time I fall
Every-time I fall
And I wish that I could let you go
Cause it’s easier to forget then to know
And I wish that I could let you go
Cause it’s easier to forget then to know
Everyday I think about you
What did you do
And what kind of people do you choose
Everyday I wonder what I should do
Do I move on from you
Or do I hold on for you
Do I move on from you
Or do I hold on for you
And every time I fall-al-al-al-al-al
Every-time I fall
Every-time I fall
And every time I fall-al-al-al-al-al
Every-time I fall
Every-time I fall
Every-time I fall
Everyday I fall

If I’m too much go find less go find less
Cause I’m so broke and I’m a mess I’m a mess
And If I’m too curvy find twig find a twig  
Cause those others girls won’t hit it like I did like I did
And if I’m too much go find less go find less
Cause I’m so broke and I’m a mess I’m a mess
And if I’m too curvy find a twig find a twig
Cause those other girls won’t hit it like I did like I did
And if you still want me let me know let me know
Cause I’m done loving through the phone through the phone
And if you still want me let me know let me know
Cause I’m still waiting I’m on hold I’m on hold

I’ve been waiting anticipating for your love
I’ve been waiting anticipating for your love
And I’ve been waiting
Yes I’ve been waiting
Oh yeah
I’ve been waiting anticipating for your love
I’ve been waiting anticipating for your love

Melancholy
Dissipation
Gravity
Burning
Orbital
Longing
Tubular
Thoughts
Collision
Thunder
Lighting

When I thought you would try for me
The hurt follows the void
You’re there for her as if I could trust you when you say it’s just pretend
You’re you
And I’m me
I guess for now I’ll just let it be

I tried to be funny but it came out as a joke so I ended up looking crazy like the joker.