Alexys Marie: Poems

Alexys Marie Jan 2019

i thought about you
when you werent around
but missing was my heart
never yours to be found

i spoke about you
with words sounding proud
but pride was a river
that ran dry in a drought

i looked at you
with both eyes closed
because my feelings were a lie
that the light had exposed

i listened to you
in my attempts to care
but my love was broken
beyond your repair

underdog

Alexys Marie May 2019

underdog

the world weighs heavy on my back
so i try to carry it in my palms
i take one unbalanced step then fall on both hands and knees
searching for answers in the sky, i plea
for the strength of a God whom i don’t believe

the simple truth is
i just want to be
brave
the girl who saves the day
but maybe
i’m just not that heroic

Unsettled

Alexys Marie Jan 2019

Unsettled

he once told me
the truth is funny
“but” he says
the truth also hurts
so I’m left to wonder:
do i laugh in its face
or weep in the mirror?

Untitled

Alexys Marie Nov 2018

Untitled

i think there's a genius within all of us
some of us are born with it
some of us develop it over time
and the rest of us spend our entire lives looking for it
in all of the wrong places

Untouchable

Alexys Marie Dec 2019

Untouchable

i want to touch you
in more ways than one

run my fingers through your hair
then trace them down your spine
gently pressing my lips
to your manly divine

but it’s never enough
there are still parts of you
I cannot grasp

like the memories of her
embedded in your brain
and the scars on your heart
that resemble her name

these are the untouchable places
that i will never reach
these are the insecurities
that i will never speak

Weight of A Feather

Alexys Marie Jun 2019

Weight of A Feather

Do not hand me a feather
And expect me to fly .
For feathers feel heavy
When I carry so many .
And I know I should be stronger
Because others carry more .
But my body’s grown weak
and
I will

drop
them .

Whatever it is

Alexys Marie Mar 2019

Whatever it is

it’s in the way that your eyes flutter just as you wake
it’s in the way that your smile hints that there’s more to say
it’s in the way that you hum as you drift off to sleep
and it’s in the way that you love me each moment between

it’s there.

Wind(ow)

Alexys Marie May 2023

Wind(ow)

the window was left open again.

so the mid-winter wind blows,
taking all senses and sanity with it.

in my right mind, i might close it.

but she’s gone with the wind,
leaving me to make peace with the breeze.

Words Hurt

Alexys Marie Mar 2019

Words Hurt

and your words cut
                                                           deep
i press my fingers to these ****** wounds
and i run straight into your arms

because it’s the safest place to
                                                          weep

Wrecking Ball

Alexys Marie Apr 2019

Wrecking Ball

it seems to me that maybe
my entire life I have mistaken
pain for love because truthfully
i don’t know the difference
when those i love are
pushing me to do better
and laughing as i fall
allowing me to foolishly believe
that love is built with
bandaids and a wrecking ball

and the pain feels nice sometimes

You (almost killed me)

Alexys Marie Apr 2020

You (almost killed me)

i was never taught how to swim
and always struggled to stay afloat
but that didn’t stop me
from diving headfirst
into the depths of a lustful hell
so with eyes closed and breath held
i sank to the bottom
because i couldn’t save myself
from drowning in the toxicity
of a body called
“You”

but i’m still alive.

— The End —