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Sep 9 · 122
Stuck .
Alexys Marie Sep 9
it’s tempting
not to love you .
with the way you love
its so hard to love back .
because you’re set in your ways
leaving me stuck
between your love
and a hard place .
Aug 17 · 43
Light of Day
Alexys Marie Aug 17
i make my bravest promises
under the shade of night fall
and wake in the morning
just to see my fears dancing
in the sun,

chasing down the light of day.
& breaking promises.
Aug 6 · 39
I (don’t) hate you
Alexys Marie Aug 6
I hate the way you make me feel
like I fall just a tad too short
in every one of your god forsaken standards.
I hate you for the past
that can never really be left there
for it follows like a shadow and you love the company.
I hate so many things,
but most of all
I hate that none of it matters
when I’m so helplessly in love with you.
Jul 5 · 50
Sweet Sundays
Alexys Marie Jul 5
We go together like
coffee, sugar
and *** on Sunday mornings.
#explicit
Jul 4 · 135
High Stakes
Alexys Marie Jul 4
life is a high stakes game and
you’ve always gambled with consequences
I used to love that
you paid no mind to the risks
you weren’t afraid to lose
until I realized
I was no exception.

so tell me,
was the jackpot worth it?
Jun 30 · 845
Mountain Man
Alexys Marie Jun 30
I fell in love with a mountain man
with an insatiable hunger for beauty
in search of never ending views
on summits shaded by cloud sewn blankets
just beneath the stars and blinding sun
always en route to greater peaks
with each new sight prettier than the rest
he met me in the Rockies
then left for Everest.
Jun 24 · 28
Castaway
Alexys Marie Jun 24
Where do I go from here?
Each direction feels so wrong,
When lost at sea.
Clinging to a buoy of hope,
Admittedly struggling to stay afloat,
In such troubling waters.
Looking to the sky for answers,
Perhaps the stars will point the way.
To place called home,
Where I'm not alone,
Where I'm not,
A Castaway.
Jun 19 · 30
Learning (Love)
Alexys Marie Jun 19
we’ve learned a lot
in what it means to love, Love
that gives me hope
hope that we continue
to learn
to fix
and to mend
we will learn to love, Love
learn to love again.
Jun 19 · 49
black
Alexys Marie Jun 19
i like comparing emotions to colors
they’re simple, sweet, and succinct
but those colors fade
and the memories made
are quick to follow
they fade to black reminding me that
shade is full of sorrow.
Apr 3 · 54
All Aboard!
Alexys Marie Apr 3
i can hear the wheels turn
between your ears
as your train of thought departs
down stubborn tracks
taking you far away from the place that i have brought you
only to realize upon arrival that
you can’t outrun them
for there are problems at every station
but i will be there waiting, love
wherever your destination.
Somewhere along the way this piece became a self projection, and we’re still chugging along.
Alexys Marie Apr 2
i was never taught how to swim
and always struggled to stay afloat
but that didn’t stop me
from diving headfirst
into the depths of a lustful hell
so with eyes closed and breath held
i sank to the bottom
because i couldn’t save myself
from drowning in the toxicity
of a body called
“You”
but i’m still alive.
Mar 20 · 43
One More Time
Alexys Marie Mar 20
beauty is pain
and the truth is ugly
so I beg you
to tell me one lie

please

make me feel pretty
just one more time.
Feb 12 · 47
Lies & Other Drugs
Alexys Marie Feb 12
you sold your lies
but i bought them
and the love died

so who should be sorry ?
the dealer of sin ?
or the willing ****** ?
Jan 27 · 58
My Little Sailor,
Alexys Marie Jan 27
You’ll be the captain of your dreams,
And I’ll be the waves that set you
                                                             ­       free.
You’ll never weather a storm alone,
For I’ll be the tides that carry you
                                                                ­ home.
Jan 9 · 76
Smoke Signals
Alexys Marie Jan 9
most nights my sanity evades me
in the thick forest of nightfall
so my insecurities set up camp
pitching doubt filled tents
as the worry fueled fire burns
illuminating my deepest fears  
until the early sun rises
and the smoke signals can be seen.
maybe help is on the way.
Jan 8 · 215
Pain Relief
Alexys Marie Jan 8
in my past life
i had made peace with pain
finding comfort in the suffering
and relief in the darkness
as the deafening silence
lulled me to sleep
and there i would dream
until you came along
ridding me of all inflictions
and awakened my soul
from such bittersweet slumber.
Finally, I am alive.
Dec 2019 · 87
Reminder
Alexys Marie Dec 2019
salt crusted lips
kiss ****** wounds
just to remind us
that love hurts
and only time can stop the bleeding.
Because bandaids don’t heal heartbreak.
Dec 2019 · 406
Untouchable
Alexys Marie Dec 2019
i want to touch you
in more ways than one

run my fingers through your hair
then trace them down your spine
gently pressing my lips
to your manly divine

but it’s never enough
there are still parts of you
I cannot grasp

like the memories of her
embedded in your brain
and the scars on your heart
that resemble her name

these are the untouchable places
that i will never reach
these are the insecurities
that i will never speak
Alexys Marie Nov 2019
“sticks and stones may break these bones
but words shall never hurt me”
and so the saying goes
failing to acknowledge  
just how hurtful words can be
when left unsaid

as if twigs and pebbles weigh more
than the burden of the
“i don’t love you”
hidden in his eye.
Nov 2019 · 111
A Short Story
Alexys Marie Nov 2019
write your story as you will,
and read mine just the same.
there’s a war of words and hearts,
between the lines of fear and blame.
Sep 2019 · 94
A Series of Stories:
Alexys Marie Sep 2019
i read and then i reread,
every word you’ve placed upon these pages,
describing lovers of your past
in the most perfect of ways,
in sentences i only wish could contain,
my name.
reveling in all of their sin and glory,
because the two seem to go hand in hand.
and though i shouldn’t,
i continue.
i read and then i reread,
your ****** tellings of beautiful women with bodies incapable of imperfections,
with characteristics that unmistakably contradict mine.
truthfully it hurts in the most painful of ways,
but I’ve learned better than to ask,
and i no longer question why.

i just read and i reread,
picturing your hands,
on her thighs.
They’re Not Mine
Jul 2019 · 807
#2
Alexys Marie Jul 2019
#2
i could give you life.

offer all my love.

never do you wrong.

it still wouldn’t be enough.

and i hate to have to say it
but these words are ever true
I will never be the one
because I’m always number two.
Jun 2019 · 166
The Divide
Alexys Marie Jun 2019
there is a fine line between,
what is real and,
what is a dream,
it is just
the unjust divide.
———————————————
and i’m on reality’s side.
so i’ll whisper my goodbye
with a peck upon your cheek
because i can’t force you awake
when you would rather be asleep.
i was never good at division anyways.
Jun 2019 · 140
Born to Love
Alexys Marie Jun 2019
Born to love
Oh, but cursed to feel
The pain that comes accompanied
By love lost and time spent
Wasted, waiting for reciprocation
That will, truthfully, never make
it’s way back
home.
Jun 2019 · 260
Weight of A Feather
Alexys Marie Jun 2019
Do not hand me a feather
And expect me to fly .
For feathers feel heavy
When I carry so many .
And I know I should be stronger
Because others carry more .
But my body’s grown weak
and
I will
                        

drop
them .
Jun 2019 · 77
See Through
Alexys Marie Jun 2019
staring in my eyes
relentless in pursuit of understanding
the answers to every unfavorable question
searching, though he may never see
transparency is a fatal weapon
for a girl like
me
May 2019 · 159
underdog
Alexys Marie May 2019
the world weighs heavy on my back
so i try to carry it in my palms  
i take one unbalanced step then fall on both hands and knees
searching for answers in the sky, i plea
for the strength of a God whom i don’t believe

the simple truth is
i just want to be
brave
the girl who saves the day
but maybe
i’m just not that heroic
May 2019 · 154
Floral Encounter
Alexys Marie May 2019
If we compare ourselves,
To flowers, that is,
I’m suppose I’m more of a rose.
Which is quite disappointing,
As I’ve always preferred daisies,
And you couldn’t love my
t h o r n s .
He loves me. He loves me not.
May 2019 · 281
Fire Hazard
Alexys Marie May 2019
burning your candle at both ends will never
lead a blind man through the dark
so be weary, sweet girl
when you see the fire in his eyes
for the flames will fade away
and once they do
he will be just as lost
as you are dead

and it will make no difference.
you are only a fire hazard.
Apr 2019 · 825
Love Notes
Alexys Marie Apr 2019
kisses like the softest
  
    n    
         o    t  
                    e    
                       s

off grand piano
  
     k
          e    y
                    s

play my foolish heart
like your piano

     p  l   e   a
                       s  
                          e
Apr 2019 · 203
Girl On Fire
Alexys Marie Apr 2019
memories ignite like matches
emotions reek of gasoline
thoughts soaked in kerosene
fill my head
then set it aflame
crippled by the pain
choking on inferno haze
leave me here to burn
I’m just the ******* fire
Apr 2019 · 600
Dancing (on my own)
Alexys Marie Apr 2019
In the middle of your bedroom
Hand in hand
Nose to nose
I followed your lead
Swept away by the grace
In the steps of your two left feet
Just dancing to the sound
Of our rhythmic hearts’ beat

Now when you’re away
And I feel alone
I find myself dancing
Just dancing on my own.
Apr 2019 · 306
in(finite)
Alexys Marie Apr 2019
others pose dreams with unending possibilities
while mine are seemingly limited in numbers
i guess
some infinities just hold less than others
Apr 2019 · 258
Wrecking Ball
Alexys Marie Apr 2019
it seems to me that maybe
my entire life I have mistaken
pain for love because truthfully
i don’t know the difference
when those i love are
pushing me to do better  
and laughing as i fall
allowing me to foolishly believe
that love is built with  
bandaids and a wrecking ball
and the pain feels nice sometimes
Apr 2019 · 136
Hourglass
Alexys Marie Apr 2019
the sands of time are passing,

and as every grain I have

knowingly yet

wrongfully

given

away

collects at

the bottom of the

hourglass, i begin to wonder

just how much time is left for myself.
Alexys Marie Mar 2019
if emotions are colors
love is a burning red
sadness the deepest of blues
so i painted seven oceans on fire
and named it after you
Colors are easy. Words are not.
Mar 2019 · 203
Lifeguard
Alexys Marie Mar 2019
the waves still crash
the tide still pulls me
and when I’m drowning
he still holds me
refusing to let go
whispering the air to my lungs
he breathes

“hope floats”
Mar 2019 · 47
Marathon and Sin
Alexys Marie Mar 2019
my demons
they walk with me
so i quicken my steps

but they match my pace
now i am running

and with each purposeful step
in the wrong direction
it’s becoming clear to me

that i am losing
an eternal race
Mar 2019 · 89
Whatever it is
Alexys Marie Mar 2019
it’s in the way that your eyes flutter just as you wake
it’s in the way that your smile hints that there’s more to say
it’s in the way that you hum as you drift off to sleep
and it’s in the way that you love me each moment between
it’s there.
Mar 2019 · 147
Eleven Ounces
Alexys Marie Mar 2019
That is the weight of the average heart ,
And admittedly,
Mine probably weighs more.
But if not,
I still wear it on my sleeve.
With eleven ounces off of my chest,
Why does it feel so hard to breathe?
Mar 2019 · 89
Colorful Words
Alexys Marie Mar 2019
I'm so sorry
I wish to love you better
To make up for all the wrong words that I've said
And I know that I'm sorry's don't suffice
That you prefer it black and white
But this heart still bleeds red
Mar 2019 · 185
Breathing In & Out
Alexys Marie Mar 2019
I breathe in
I breathe out
I don't miss you but
You've missed out and
That's okay
I have a true lover now
He's my breath of fresh air
He's a comfortable breeze and
He welcomes me
For all that I am and
All that I can be
Yet I can't be when
I'm lying here
With damaged lungs
Making it so incredibly hard
To breathe in
To breathe out
But still, I try.
Mar 2019 · 309
Words Hurt
Alexys Marie Mar 2019
and your words cut
                                                           deep
i press my fingers to these ****** wounds
and i run straight into your arms

because it’s the safest place to  
                                                          we­ep
Mar 2019 · 261
Drinking Problem
Alexys Marie Mar 2019
You could never be his cup of tea
Nor his last shot of whiskey
No, he had acquired tastes for
Luke warm dirt water
And bottom shelf gasoline
Mar 2019 · 157
Sleepless in Seattle
Alexys Marie Mar 2019
Walking the streets and passing time
No particular place in mind
Simply searching for my peace of mind
Proving it’s hard to find
So tonight I’m
Sleepless in Seattle
Mar 2019 · 82
Airplane Mode
Alexys Marie Mar 2019
i think i like the view better
Up here at 37,000 feet
where stratus top dunes create an endless sea
washing over my past life
mopping my conscious clean
Up here where the moon may listen and stars shall sing
and the sun sets within arms reach
and on the horizon
the gates of heaven glow
casting my shadow over the hells below
Feb 2019 · 255
Soul Searching
Alexys Marie Feb 2019
That beauty that you’re searching for
It won’t be found in me
At least not where you’re looking
It won’t be found in my eyes or my smile
Nor will you see it in the curves of my  
    hips or the arch of my spine
But Maybe
If you close your eyes
You might catch a glimpse
Here, listen
Listen to me
Focus on the words that I say and the way  
   that I speak
Hear the steady rhythm of this lonely  
   heart beat
This is the beauty that your eyes may never see
What?
You can’t hear it?
Well maybe
You can feel it
Here, come close
Oh, but keep your eyes closed
Feb 2019 · 114
Solar Sentiments
Alexys Marie Feb 2019
I let solar winds carry me
Wherever they blow
If I get caught in the currents
Do not give up hope
Shine your light, my beloved star
I'll follow you home.
Feb 2019 · 99
Chop & Flow
Alexys Marie Feb 2019
i cut up my mind with the
sharpened edges of my emotions while
        tears
            flow like
   mighty
           rivers
carving the names of every sorrow
into the depths of the
                   skin
                          on my
                     sunken        
                               face
then staring into my water’s reflection  
i start to question
                                     why
                                            i am
                                  bleeding
                                                 out
Feb 2019 · 518
Acrylics
Alexys Marie Feb 2019
Painting with depressions
Forces us to see
Even the sweetest blues
Bleed red
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