through the eternal dark I flee
while the monsters chase me with glee
through the shrubs I run
hoping they don't make fun
of my staggering gait
long have I fled
far too much have I bled
I know now
the end is near
everything I held dear
will not matter
log after log I cross
they are slippery; covered with moss
my feet splash in the blood red waters
my spirit shatters
as I near my end
I try to mend
my soul
but it is too late
the demons, they are my own
I must reap what I have sown
a cold wind has blown
through the eternal dark I flee
hoping to jump in the inferno

every day I put on a fake smile
hoping no one will notice
hoping there's enough in me to make that extra mile
my smiles are just masks
I hope no one comes and asks
"you okay?'

because I'm not okay
and I fear I'll just break
all those emotions shall break forth
I keep my secrets so no one knows the monster within
I am tired of the din
that goes on in my mind
I keep my secrets
so everyone thinks I'm okay.

You were my light
Now your gone
Nothing's bright
We were happy
Or so I like to think
I was too busy for you
Now I regret every moment I didn't pay heed
You were my light
Now you're gone
You left, crying
I was just standing, and I let you go
Now I regret that decision
I should have gotten on my knees  and told you how much you meant to me..
Now you're gone.. I'm in the dark..

we are beggars
we feed on scraps and wear tatters
we have nothing that matters
in this world
we cannot be bold
they say
"beggars can't be choosers"
we can prove them wrong any day
we didn't choose to live like this
we were forced to do so
corruption and lack of proper governance
we were the first to burn in the furnace
of human misery
no government makes us their priority
please pay attention to us
even we want to see our kids
board a school bus
and make a fuss
on which phone they want
even we want to flaunt
our cars and houses
we are beggars
and we want to live better.

As you left me standing in the cold,
I started thinking about memories old.
They... Once made of gold
Now hold...
No value in my heart.
You have taken my heart apart.

I am but left...
To scramble for scattered remnants.
A vessel bereft,
Of its erstwhile tenants...

On my knees...
Picking up pieces with sombre gait.
Mind only sees...
An fallen dance with the ghosts of late.

As I begin with a clean slate,
I can't imagine so much hate.
For someone who I loved...
I try and push your memory away
But in the effort I sway.
It is too much to bear...
I'd give anything to hear...
Another I love you,
From you.
What happened when we were together
Our bond...
Was supposed to last forever,
But now it's just an echo of memories fond.

These young initial steps that I take...
Will eventually hasten in pace.
Leaving behind the scars that ache,
And embrace the new breeze that cradles my face.


Vardaan Nayar
**ryn

Mother
You were always there for me
When no one else bothered
When I was smothered
In grief
You came and made it brief
You always find time
Never never expect a dime
In return
You're the best
Forget the rest.