Pennies fill our jar
Dollars slip through the cracks
Chasing a dream that hasn't been in the scene

Drowning in tobacco smoke and ale
Our resolve fails
Fleeting comforts that always flail
The cost great, it seals our fate

The porcelain pig fills
Just to cry as it's smashed once again
When will it end?
Our relationship needs to mend

Stuck in the sand
Clutching it in my hand
As it slips away once again

He's at work, I'm home alone
Our mutual absence falls like a silent hammer
The distance carving deep into our hearts,
Slowly driving us apart
Our shared lives, a distant memory

My partner, so lonely, is breaking
As I scramble to fill the hole it's making
His face, the only one that comforts me
His arms, I miss wrapped around me
We long for what we knew

Times of laughter and fun,
When two hearts beat as one

In desperation and hope,
I reach for him again

Lovers, only by title
As our worlds seem to drift
Emotions spent, led to discontentment
Is there more? Is this the final score?

I hope to hear him say
He loves me all the way
Through the storm, we attempt to walk together
In hopes for reprieve

To be in each other's arms
Once again

Why do you deny me and my sincerity?
Why are you telling me I lack accountability?
Words cutting deep like a knife upon me.
I know what I did, I understand the damage I caused,
I’m changing and growing. I’m no longer that person anymore
It’s upsetting you hold onto a past me and don’t see

I destroyed everything dear, sure
I’m not the only one
It takes two to tango
Here I am, wanting to rebuild, move forward

Mistakes and betrayals were made.
I cannot undo them
Only show you that I’m not them
I can’t though, if you simply won’t see it

I’m sorry I caused so much pain and we can’t rebuild
I hope one day we can
I hope one day we can laugh with each other again
And share a happy home

For as long as you hold onto that version of me,
It simply won’t happen.
So why waste time trying to convince someone
When they refuse to open their eyes?

My heart beats like a fierce rain that falls on tin rooftops.
To see your face in pain
Makes me cry in shame
Of what my race can do
To beautiful creatures like you

The way you dance and laugh
The way you fondly regard the present and the past
Makes falling for you seem to last

You see yourself indisposed
But I've already proposed
My heart and soul
For you and you alone to hold

I know they are in good hands
For yours are the softest, most gentle in the land
I love you dearly, so much that my words forever will flow
For now, I hope you'll know
As I express my love for you so

You beg me to keep fighting, where’s yours?
You ask me to grow, have you?
To quell the demons inside me, draw power over them
I can still hear yours running free and hurting both you and me.

You ask me to grow and change
Is it too much to ask you to do the same?
Talk to me, tell me what you need
I’m growing and changing, just like you wanted

Yet, I see you not budging an inch
Leaving me trapped, caught in a strain

You told me, your lovers and friends, they all have outgrown you
They all leave in the end…
What else are they supposed to do?
As you give them the chance to ascend
And you descend

You saved me from the dark abyss we were both drowning in
Threw me out as you sunk deeper
Now, it is my turn to save you
I hold out my hand for you
“If I can do it, so can you” I cry out

Will you take my hand? Let me help you?
Or will you sink further, drowning in the cold, dark silence?

You may see my History
You may see my Past
That’s not who I am

You understand me
In a way people don’t get
I heal the world, but you are my splint

You bind me
With every hint
You drive me
With all the motion
You help it all make sense
Even deep amongst the commotion

I know my flaws
I work on them everyday
Yet it feels you are the same
Loving me in every single way

The rock to hold the leaf
To help the leaf understand
You are these
And so much more

I know I am not faithful
My feelings still hold true
That I love you and only you
Forevermore

You are my everything
Despite me proving it not to be true
My actions falter, my feelings remain solid
You are made for loving me.
I am made for loving you

Reality can often be cruel
It can be unkind
As time speeds by in a blur,
I try to infer
What he means

“We won’t speak until you have remorse”
Remorse? For what?
For walking away as we screamed at each other?
For taking time to take the hard road like he often scolded me for not doing?
For what I did?

I had remorse for the betrayal and the backstabbing
So I changed.
I had remorse that I wasn’t doing well for myself
So I started working on those

Am I perfect?
No
I never will be
It’s plain to see
Only I am truly free

When I came to this world,
I looked to you for guidance
All you cared about was your highness

Holding onto the past
All good and no bad
You're not that girl anymore
But you don't care
How is that fair?

When I talk to you,
Plea for your love and attention
All you do is mention...
I'm fine...

I'm fine??

I'm drowning, downing every drink
But yet all I think of is you
You should have been there for me
All you did was set me free
Focusing on you and you alone
Yet, I'm the one who can't call you home

I'm all alone and I'm crying,
Dying,
Trying for your love
But you're above me and I'm not worthy
When the truth is far from what you think
You let our relationship sink

So eager to point the finger at me
It's easy to see
All you did was use me and abuse me

I would have given you everything
Simply because you gave life to me
Well, guess what?

I'm fine

Without you...

Sometimes, you have to let go.
Be your own you and be openly you

Those who are true
Stick like glue

The fakes will give up their stakes
I'm telling you now
So you don't have to go through what I've been through

Be unapologetically you
The ones who will love YOU
Will find you

I was never one who liked silence
I'm not particularly sure why
Maybe it reminds me of childhood
Where cries were ignored

Maybe it's because of the voices
That keep rolling around
“Be quiet!” I tell them
But they increase their sound

Piercing through my heart like a dagger blade
It carves my heart to this very day
The silence deafening over me
Until the day it becomes sweet

The silence inside me
I'd rather not keep

Graves of slaves
Dreaming of long lost days
They paid their wage
They did their time
But happiness was ne'er to find

The dreams of relax and unwind
Are hard to find
While pigs lay at the top
They feed us their slop

Yet in the shadows, voices rise
A whispered rage beneath the skies
The chains may bind, the body breaks
More spirits rise, the earth quakes
The thunderous roars of rage
Bent on turning the page

And they will take.
The swine squeal in fear
As the many dead hands draw near
"Never fear," the dead cry
"For we will always be here"

Boss,

I hope you are ok wherever you are. There isn’t a day that goes by when I don't think about you. My dreams always seem to involve reuniting with you again. I know I probably never will be able to but my brain is only showing me my greatest desire.

I’m not doing well without you..
What I did. It isn’t worth it. Nothing is…
I want to go back. I want to hold you in my arms again and tell you I love you
I want to kiss your forehead again and be able to rub my hands across your soft fur
I want to go to bed with you beside me, sleeping peacefully
You were my whole world, I hope you know that. My soul is shattered now you’re gone
I beg the powers that be for your return to me.
However, I know, I don’t deserve it
My reason to live
Still belongs with you

I’m not sure how to continue. Honestly, I’m not sure it’s worth it anymore. Your life was the most precious thing to me and I failed you. I wish to reunite with you one day Patches, tell me where you are and I’ll follow you there, even if it’s to the depths of Hell, I don’t care. I just want my life with you back. I want my reason to live back

I want my daughter back

Liar, liar,
Pants on fire—
When will you tire?

What happens when the truth is chased away?
Left alone, day by day,
Slicing through the ache,
Of every mistake
Blood trails like tears from their eyes,
Can’t disguise
The weight of these lies.

Behind closed doors,
Where secrets are stored,
The pain runs deeper,
Cutting through more than skin.
Every lie a scar,
Every denial a wound,
Until the truth is lost,
In the silence of the room.
The real you put into a tomb

Liar, liar,
The fire burns on,
Leaving only echoes of the truth,
In a heart that’s gone cold,
A story untold,
Of lies and the scars you leave behind.

How come there appears to be no justice in this world?
The ****** get rich and powerful,
The drug dealers get free homes and free food,
The rapists and animal abusers go free,
And somehow, we will let criminals in office,
Yet others spend their lives behind bars.

The rich watch the poor from their golden towers,
Bellies, full and fat.
Laughing as the starved fight over their scraps.
Committing crimes that make the devil blush,
Determining how much or little those “beneath them” get,
And how much.

Artists die young,
Creating pieces that were once sung.
Innovators are drowned out by profit.
Voices once strong, choked by greed
Carving your own path is “illegal”
Self-sustenance is “selfish”
Terminating life is a “right”
And living free is a crime...

America and the people within are hated,
Full of mindless bloodshed to **** the “mutt”
Women are mistreated,
And men never get to see their sons.

Why??

“My God is superior”
As the minor differences lead to war
“Allah,””God,””Gods,”
Can they not see it is all the same?

They all claim they know the answer,
They are all fools
For no one truly knows what’s on the other side
Some have claimed to dance there for a short time.
But, who’s to say what they saw was real?

Belief of something that cannot be proven
A Maker, A puppeteer pulling the strings of fate
Is the entity really there?
Or are the prayers sent to the skies unheard?

If there’s no answers, what is left?

I seek resolution
I seek peace
Us with no decision
Save me from this prison

The future, I fear
Where the conflict is forever here
We don't have to be friends
We don't have to be enemies

I know I am built wrong
So are you
The path for growth is long
And I'm still on it

Let time dilute the hate
I pray for us to have a better fate
If it doesn't,
At least it'll ease the ache