Sometimes we need to say goodbye
To people who have gone by
Hanging on will wear us down
We need to accept when all is done.

It will be hard... good luck. X

When my world fell apart

Yours appeared to start

Good Luck

You f*ck

I won't let you break my heart

I broke bread with you
But you ran off with the butter

That moment you feel your heart break
Knowing your life will never be the same

A heart breaks
When it is misplaced
Given to someone who didn't deserve it in the first place

❤Broken promises....

EQUALS

Broken hearts ❤

I felt cold after you left
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So I put another blanket on and slept

When the summer warmth cools by day
And the tan of skin starts to fade
When the nights start to chill
And the rain starts at will

When trees  start to shed their leaves
As though they cry golden tears
And the dawn wakes a little later
The nights draw close as we come into winter

Ice upon our window sills
Birds don't sing , it is quiet and still
That nip in the air as you look to the sky
And you can't believe that summer just flew by

Out comes gloves and scarfs and coats
As summers sweet kisses turn cold
You feel the chill upon your spine
When you finally accept its wintertime

When letting go means broken nails
Desperately clinging onto broken dreams
Bleeding knucking as you constantly fail
To hold on with all your being.

Burning tears flow down your face
A thousand knife wounds sting all the while
As your life ebbs to a desolate place
You still  greet the world with a smile

Hollow EYES see nothing
A hollow HEART stops beating
A hollow SOUL is unfilled
A hollow BEING is dead

Hollow EYES see nothing
A hollow HEART stops beating
A hollow SOUL is unfilled
A hollow BEING is dead

I wanted to go
Talons inviting me so
Claws grabbing my very soul
Tired of this world

From darkness came light
A hand that grabbed me tight
Pulled me from this plight
With all your loving might

Before I drowned in blackness
Before I fell into the abyss
With your tender loving kiss
You saved me from my self

.. and made me feel wanted again....

When the first tear falls, we die
When it dries
We live.

How do I piece my life back together?
Now that you are gone
How do I storm the weather?
Where the sun once shone.

How do I bring back my smile?
When all I do is cry?
How do I stop missing you all the while?
When your name is my every sigh?

How the hell do I carry on?
When I love you with all my heart
How can you leave me mum?
Losing you is tearing me apart.

❤Miss and love you mum .. ❤

Yesterday I forgot who I was
Today I don't recognise me
I have many different thoughts
But just one identity
(Just Me R)

Whilst lost through time, along with my identity, I lost my mind.
(Ryan Adler)

One light refracted into many
My prismatic soul, subdivided
Incandescent borne iridescence
I am transmuted stark incognito
(Bill Hughes)

I know I am 'YOU'
I feel you within me
Within my bones, blood, neurons, genes
I know I have lost 'ME'
Now my NEW identity is 'YOU'
(Melancholy of Innocence)

When you took your last breath
I died.

Mum❤

Shadows cast upon broken souls
By those who tread on tired toes
Who see nothing below their ignorant nose
As their own selfish ego grows

Shameful deceit they will feed
Beyond their own insatiable greed
Trampling anyone under their feet
Forgetting their maker one day to meet

When emptyness consumes me
I need to pull free
But she wraps me up in her arms
Tempting me with her charms

I torchure myself with this pain
Over and over, again and again
Punishing myself for what I don't know
Hoping one day to feel whole

But i feel nothing, no love nor hate
Wishing for some kind of emotional break
To feel something and not be immune
To feel that I am still human

I need to cry!

You wanted the Moon
I gave up my heart too soon
You wanted the stars
My love was all I had
You wanted the sun
Sweet kisses were not enough
You wanted the impossible
A quota which can't be fulfilled
Maybe one day you will realise you had it all.

My inner screams echo through my empty heart
Bouncing around no end no start
Will this deafening sound ever end
I guess it will when I'm finally dead.

Have you put on weight?
(I'm fat!)
Your eyebrows aint straight
(Oh drat!)
What are you wearing?
(I'm a mess)
Your hair is wavy!
(Birds nest)
Your teeth are crooked
(Can't smile)
Your nose is hooked
(Sh*te!!!)
Your nails are cracked
(Please stop)
Your face looks smacked
(I can't cope)
Your ears are too big
(I wanna cry)
I'm only kidding hahaha
(I wanna die)

Once I was your wife
I was your future
Now in your life
I feel like an Intruder

I sat on the edge of my life
Too scared to jump

Life can pass in a blink of an eye

... and we all got to blink eventually

I stole a kiss
Whilst you were sleeping
It was dangerous
But my little secret

But as the king
With the ***'s ears
I whispered it
So noone could hear

I know you are mine
And I am yours
Little kisses are devine
.... and I will steal more.


I ❤ L

You let go, you promised you would'nt
You let go, and I fell when I should'nt
I broke, shattered into a million pieces
Nobody heard my heartbroken wishes
My inner pain screaming without a
Our parting was a difficult choice
But you are gone, and I am too
Too exhausted to fight for you
So, I let go, with bleeding nails
One day, you will realise why we failed.

I will always love you.

Step back and breath

It may be your last one

Step back and live

Tomorrow may never come

Little flower, little flower
So delicate and slight
Your petals so perfect
As they look to the light

Little flower, little flower
You stand your own ground
Graceful and bold
Your colours astound

Little flower, little flower
The bees kiss you gently
Memorised by your scent
They reprint you perfectly

Little flower, little flower
The beauty that you are
Those who want you captured
Plucked and put in a jar

Live, don't just exist

Let us chase the sunset
Before the sun disapears
Sit by the beach on the bench
Your hand in mine my dear

Let us watch the moon rise
Bright in the sky so dark
Stars twinkling like diamonds
Flickering on waters black

Our moments together are brief
Precious time keeps running away
Soon you will have to leave
Till we meet another day

This parting is so hard my love
And patience is a virtue
Unlike the moon and sun above
We will be together soon

❤ I love you L. ❤

I kissed your forehead as you slept
Rested my head upon your chest
Listening to your heart beat

I watched you breath so softy
Touched your face gently
All whilst you were asleep

Love made from honestly and purity
Will last for an eternity
Forever to keep

In loving you

.... I lost myself.

Today my life stopped
... yet the world moved on regardless

She brought me into this world
Now I'm not ready for her to walk out

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.. and now and again something will trigger a memory whether bad or good

... and then the tears flow

But that's ok.

My tears are endless for you. ❤

Drops of rain that forms a puddle
Watching them drop in a splish splash muddle
Or feeling sun against your face
And amber dusks after hazy days

Soft kitten purrs, cuddles and love
Laying on grass, looking at clouds above
The taste of summer still on your lips
Paddling in the sea, as water reached your hips

Watching the sunset and the skies go black
The moon appears and lights up the dark
The sweet kisses of your beloveds mouth
Scent of skin in which you can drown

All memories of our yester years
Remembering with smiles and some with tears
Some small some fully blown
But every one our very own.

The glass broke
Into shards of a zillion pieces
Like memories spread in front of me
Sunlight glistened
I watched them sparkling
Dancing colourful lights
I was memorised
Like watching stars in daylight
My own private moment
There I stood
And the room became still
As the sun disappeared
I got the broom
And swept the memories away

Memories of you will fade
Like an oil painting in the rain
Colours bleeding with pain
All forgotten

How do you mend a broken heart?
Stick it with a band aid when pulled apart?  
How about glue?
Will that do?
How about sewing it with red thread?
Will it come away again?
Lets put it in a box of glass
Look but not touch, as we pass

How do you mend a broken heart?
Maybe stop hurting me,  could be a start!

... and if my tears cried a million oceans
Each would whisper your name
My heart is broken
I will never be the same




❤I love and miss you Mum ❤

You cower under the bedding
Darkness all round
Your restless rapid breathing
Is the only sound

Your eyes are wide open
Though you cannot see a thing
Pupils dialated and your hoping
A light the morning will bring

Sharp intake of breath
What was that you hear?
Is that death?
Who may suddenly appear

Oh morning bring your light
Bring birds and morning dew
The only monster that comes at night
Is the monster who lives within you.

Tears roll down my face
As card and flowers are on display
In readiness for mothers day
I turn and walk away

Memories of you come to me
I close my eyes and all I see
Is my wonderful mummy
Taken away so suddenly

You were always so very brave
But you  I could not save
So while the world celebrates
I bring flowers to your grave

I love and miss you mum! ❤

I wonder what she thinks about
Confined to her bed
A life long gone with only memories in her head

I wonder what she thinks about
Carefree as a child?
When she could be playful, free and wild

I wonder what she thinks about
The man she took as her husband
The happily ever after that was never bound

I wonder what she thinks about
When she had her kids at home
To love and care and nurture us, as we were her own

I wonder what she thinks about
Was she sad when we moved away?
Did she feel alone and abandoned as we went about our day?

I wonder what she thinks about
Laying motionless in her hell
A life that has now passed with only memories in an empty shell

My angel looked at me
With tearful eyes
Big and brown and lonely
Hurt personified

She cannot soothe the pain
She cannot stop the bleeding
This heart has broken again
So begins the healing

She touches my cheek for comfort
But I have no reaction
At that moment I look up
And see my own reflection

We are our own angels
Our destiny is in our own right
Be strong and you'll get tho this
Let nobody steal you light

My angel looked at me
With tearful eyes
Big and brown and lonely
Hurt personified

She cannot soothe the pain
She cannot stop the bleeding
This heart has broken again
So begins the healing

She touches my cheek for comfort
But I have no reaction
At that moment I look up
And see my own reflection

We are our own angels
Our destiny is our own right
Be strong and you'll get tho this
Let nobody steal you light

Every tear I shed is like million drops of rain
Every painful sigh, screams only your name
Every memory of you, I relive again and again
Every second without you is unbareable pain

❤Mum❤

It was beautiful and delicate
Precious and scented
I held it carefully in my hand
Its petals lifted and grand

This flower was mine
Simply devine
I would care for it forever
My ambition wasn't clever

For it was not to be
As it stated to decay
Became shriveled and old
Everyone told me to let it go

But to the end I must protect
Its integrity to respect
So in the ground I put to rest
My flower was the best

Till we meet again.
Mum my flower ❤

My memories were placed in the palms of  your hands

But you let them slip through, like pure white sands

Along with all the hopes and dreams we had planned

To be blown away to Never Never land

Mary had a little lamb
It's fleece was white as snow
But Mary was a greedy maam
And killed the lamb for doe
She took the money she now had
Awash with blinded insanity
Oh! Mary you didn't just **** a lamb
You killed the whole of humanity
Fool!