Every time I shut my eyes
I see you
Right there
In front of me
Where you shouldn’t be

Fight or flight-
That’s what they say, right?
Say what you like
While the skin is pale
Throughout the day and night
Like a fresh clean sheet -
Crispy and white
Yes, you have guessed-
Anxiety and stress,
Adhd and my Aspergers
Smothers me tightly
Never gently or lightly
I hear the wind
In the leaves
As darkness
Covers my eyes
The most caressing breeze
Takes me down to the floor
Straight to my knees

She loves me
she loves me not,
She breaks my heart
she knows the spot

I still hold on despite the hurt
scared that one day I might forget

It’s easier to stay lost in a memory
Rather than to face reality

Pour another glass
Another whiskey chaser
For the drinker
Mr bartender
On this late week day afternoon
One more no more
He shouts!
Banging his head against the bar
In a dying thirsty rage
Can somebody
Anybody
Phone his poor wife
Just to hear her breakdown again