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hematolagnia

hematolagnia

20/F/pennsylvania nothing special, / making the things i write to channel my melancholy public like the loser i am / if you relate please seek help ily

body spent love will set release memoir eternal life skin thing hopes expiration mortality future reach ruin trouble dealt soil fertilize plants grow anew beautiful finally purpose disgusting resurfaced refined hope chance start spend eternity dark reconsideration avail days inpatient save years treatment failing free dozens medications told bpd hundreds coping mechanisms worn fight post poems online good keep thoughts understood slumber finifugal meet demise brutal numbness mind existence painfully futile rest find consolation seeking miserable putrid face mirror eyes glimpse sight despise wide filthy monster pasty pale sure fail cracked bleeding lips knotted mangled hair adore point care compare observe help stare desire genuinely bare semi recovering nose straight brain chemical drip attempt refrain white snow sparkle ice doubt temporary tracing fingers ribbons engraved opened red vomiting sentences speak teaching discipline confession sins decade releasing scab sink aeipathy consumes state reverie tender flesh preserved cold pining partake finding pleasure