I don't want to live,
But I don't want to die.

Here I remain
Alone:
A hole in my chest
Because I gave you my bleeding heart.
No longer beating
You robbed me of everything
What more do I have?

I am nothing without my love
And my love, how could you?
You stole my heart
You stole my breath
You stole my mind
And now you take my words.

What did the Roman servants say
At the backs of the victorious generals?
After a victory, during a parade...
‘Memento mori’ -
Meaning: remember you are mortal.
May you as well feel pride,
But never forget to be humbled.

Deep in love,
Buried 6 feet under,
You’ll find me crying.

Black dirt in my mouth,
In my heart,
I remain dying.

The weight is unbearable
And I’m left suffocating.

Lover,
I can’t hold my breath forever.

Help me up,
Hold me,
And let go never.

Choking on what-ifs
And suffocating on memories
You left me buried in a shallow grave
Suffering.

No one to hear my cry for help,
No one to see me,
My screams remain stifled in my throat
Unable to pass my barely parted lips.
No air in my lungs
I remain silent.
Silent and forgotten.

I was starving until I met you.
Feasting on your words
Of 'I love you' and promises,
My love grew.

Not knowing the only one
I cared about in the world
That I’d do anything for
Was the one that left me all alone
In misery - dying.