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Jun 2013 SexySloth

Sometimes

Jun 2013 SexySloth

invinsible

Sometimes I love you and it's just
Painful
Too painful for me to continue
For me to fathom what's wrong
For me to discern reality from illusions
For me to comprehend your lies.

Sometimes I hate you and it just
*****
Yeah, I said it. Hating you
*****.
Because life is a lie, love is a lie,
My hate for you is a lie-
Or is it the truth?
I don't know anymore.

Sometimes I ignore you and it's just
Pure
Bliss
I close my eyes and ignore you
I clap my hands over my ears
Pretend I don't hear you
Pretend I don't see you
Pretend I don't feel you
Like I did that night
Which was sprinkled with stars like
Icing
Icing on a cupcake.

Sometimes I remember you and it's just
Horrifying
Two conflicting emotions of deep within battle
Fight to seek dominance and reassurance
Your love nauseates me and excites me
Because I remember drunken words full of poisoned love
And I recall your touch that used to heal
But now it burns and forever it will hurt
It burns and flares greater than any cursed fire.

Sometimes I love you, and hate you
Sometimes I ignore you, and remember you
And life isn't what it used to be
It's no longer a fairytale
It holds no dram of mercy
And love for you is so conflicting
So contradicting, so confusing
Like yin and yang or something more
Faded lines, blurred lies and tear-streaked whispers...

Sometimes, I think that
Me
Loving
You
Isn't that worthwhile anymore.

I honestly don't know how I was inspired to write this... Too many sad stories on fanfiction gone to my head I suppose. Hope you enjoy :) This is the first time I've written a poem with this kind of style. I might be submitting it for a competition :)

Jun 2013 SexySloth

Fish Wishes and Proud Clouds

Jun 2013 SexySloth

AJ

Fish Wishes and Proud Clouds

I went for a run,
And listened to the sweet stylings of Eminem and Pink.
I enjoy the puns while my lungs are giving out due to my exertion of energy.
After an hour I jumped into the pond,
And I watched the fish swim around me.
And they looked to peaceful,
And they wished their fish wishes.
And it reminded me of an effortless cloud.
And that reminded me of my favorite childhood poem.
It was from Winnie The Pooh.
"How sweet to be a Cloud
Floating in the Blue!
It makes him very proud
To be a little cloud."
And I thought about how much has changed since I first heard that poem.
Now I love poems about suicide, ***, and self deprivation,
But I still wish I was a cloud,
And I do not love that poem any less.

Jun 2013 SexySloth

Trading Places

Jun 2013 SexySloth

AJ

Trading Places

I feel very cute.
With my hello kitty **** shorts,
And my big grey hoodie,
Hiding under my generic snuggie.
My hair smells like an expensive french wine,
And my black painted fingernails have been
Chipped by injustice and carelessness.
But it makes no difference.
I only know how to play the victim,
Or a sad, scared little girl.
This is a new role for me.
And I find it ironic,
That your method of comforting me,
When I am distraught and distressed,
Is to rest your head on my shoulder.
Do I follow your examples?
It doesn't feel raw enough.
So now what do I do?

Jun 2013 SexySloth

Plastic Anatomy

Jun 2013 SexySloth

AJ

Plastic Anatomy

When I was younger I was very girly,
I wore dresses and leggings,
But never jeans.
I loved pink and purple,
And I loved sparkles and bows.
I was very girly,
But I hated dolls.
I drew on my sister's baby dolls with ballpoint pens,
Covering their foreheads with my cryptic squiggles.
I would strip my Polly Pockets,
And let them lay naked and ashamed on my bedroom floor.
I would take all the limbs off of my Barbies,
And rearrange them into disfigured beauty queens.
Fake people have always bothered me.

Jun 2013 SexySloth

Coldstone.

Jun 2013 SexySloth

Roni Shelley

Coldstone.

Tonight I was face to face with a boy who used to ask me out
Constantly
Years ago
Today I ordered a scoop of chocolate ice cream from him
as if it were some usual encounter with a Coldstone employee
No acknowledgements
Just him, me, and the held out ice cream between our distance
It's funny how things change
It's funny how things have changed
And it's quite hilarious how I've changed.
I tend to always search for a group to "fit" in to
But on the contrary I do not.
And just because he forgot who I was
I, along with him, did too.

Jun 2013 SexySloth

Even If

Jun 2013 SexySloth

invinsible

Even If

I lie alone in the darkness
I close my eyes
Calling you from a place forsaken
A place full of hate and despise.

With your help
A phoenix from ashes I rise
An eagle with an unmatching shadow
A story that makes no sense shall flow.

You are my bridge
You are my lifeline
You are what that will lead me out of these lies.

You are my weapon
You are my guard dog
No matter what happens
You shall stay by my side.

Even if my throne were to fall
Even if my crown turns to rust
Even if the endless corpses with eyes accusing
Turn to glare at the two of us
By my side you must stay.

This is an order!
You can never leave me!
You must never lie to me.
I will do anything in my power
To keep you serving me.

Hey~ So I'm 13 and yeah, this isn't one of my better poems but I hope you enjoy it! This is actually based on an anime. So leave me your thoughts so I can improve? Thanks :)