I only got so much
So much ain't
So much nothing
So much I can't take with me
Make it hard for me to breathe
Impossible
Believe

Maybe my left eye closes
When they find me
When I'm lost
When I am hiding
Make it difficult to live
Impossible
To die

I only have a particle
To hold onto
And dreary eyes
Set focus on a sunrise
As sure nobody understands
As sure I can
That this is real

Impossible
Believe

Blisters and the sunset
Run if you can
Worlds and art and words and heart
I am what I believe
And me
And I

Roses on the hillside
Rest if there's peace
Pain and joy and loss and love
I am what I believe
And I
And me

And I see suns catching fire to the meadows
Fire without light
Rage on into the darkness
And burn
And me
Completely in the mire
Still holding palms skywards
Feel because you are alive
Love is not lost
Even if its gone

Love
And I

I am what I believe

We have so much
We have eyes to see
The beauty of the world surrounds us
We have pain
We can't explain
The emptiness of being connected

And throw away worlds
Age
Or any reason
Anything at all
Is never enough

We have forgotten
We have hands to hold
And fingers to rip apart most everything
We have our hopes
And fears
We have no reason to be this way

Its a world
To throw away
Disposal of the highest order
No more changes
Only endings
No more
Only

And we may sleep
Without dreams
Tonight

Knowing all that is
Is all
That is
Never much worth having anyways

Just a throw away life
Tried to live
On a throw away world

life

Our death does not crawl
it chases mercilessly
fountain of youth lied

posessions

my fields, my mountains
mine mine mine  See all touch nothing
my souless kingdom

lust

taste won't quench desire
heat stains ***** like red cedar
blood stains innocence

Longing

A rose kissed by dew
Unless living in love's eyes
no life has meaning

Pinnacle

to be the best rose
one must smooth the thorns,stand tall
bloom and block the sun


demented

Dark lips and eyes shine
dark thoughts meld with needs afire
ever in death held.

Obsession

Love spins tangled webs
Truth sets free the unwilling
Trapping the blind ones


Psychosis

Voices unwelcome;
Torture rings through delusion-
Comfortably numb.


Helpless

The dark of sky falls
Stars struggle to shine through it
As hope does when lost


Envy

To find a sweet bird
To sing the sweetest soul song
But not to your soul

Depravity

A passion called forth
So clawed in and smothering
The light left her eyes


Apathy

Grim thoughts pull tightly
Red lines flow in a river  
The last cut, deepest.


Loss

Petals of thought fall
The wind scatters emotions
To the ends of earth

Die
Into my
             Arms again
And be never the same
Im sorry
I am
Sorry
I am
Not

You are not before
I am not the same

I am nothing
That you decided I would be
Because
Be
Cause

Days can only end
And night
Weeks
So many gone
But time can never take away
How much I love you

I never quit loving you
I quit the fight
I am sorry
That you decided I should be
Be
Cause
Because

Die
Into my
        Dreams again
Be perfect
That never could be real

Last Christmas
45 mph
Straight into a tree
A stabwound on my palm
Meant for my heart
And a miles long sojourn
Through the darkest of night
Last Christmas
The last thought on my mind
Was this
Christmas

I would know
When her voice comes wailing through these bitter broken streets
The street lights are bleeding
Pleading forgiveness
May I never have another fear of the banshee
I may never
I only
When my lonely heart finds salvation in some bitter broken blue
Beating all the broken dreams to bed
I only go as far as my heart allows
And I dream it
When all questions go answered
Still I do
Even so much long and longer than my hopes gave up on you
Give no reservations
Give everything
And watch my fingers break
In some perilous forsaken dawn
The sun may always rise