Who's that I hear?—It's me—Who?—Your heart
Hanging on by the thinnest thread
I lose all my strength, substance, and fluid
When I see you withdrawn this way all alone
Like a whipped cur sulking in the corner
Is it due to your mad hedonism?—
What's it to you?—I have to suffer for it—
Leave me alone—Why?—I'll think about it—
When will you do that?—When I've grown up—
I've nothing more to tell you—I'll survive without it—

What's your idea?—To be a good man—
You're thirty, for a mule that's a lifetime
You call that childhood?—No—Madness
Must have hold of you—By what, the halter?—
You don't know a thing—Yes I do—What?—Flies in milk
One's white, one's black, they're opposites—
That's all?—How can I say it better?
If that doesn't suit you I'll start over—
You're lost—Well I'll go down fighting—
I've nothing more to tell you—I'll survive without it—

I get the heartache, you the injury and pain
If you were just some poor crazy idiot
I'd be able to make excuses for you
You don't even care, all's one to you, foul or fair
Either your head's harder than a rock
Or you actually prefer misery to honor
Now what do you say to that?—
Once I'm dead I'll rise above it—
God, what comfort—What wise eloquence—
I've nothing more to tell you—I'll survive without it—

Why are you miserable?—Because of my miseries
When Saturn packed my satchel I think
He put in these troubles—That's mad
You're his lord and you talk like his slave
Look what Solomon wrote in his book
"A wise man" he says "has authority
Over the planets and their influence"—
I don't believe it, as they made me I'll be—
What are you saying?—Yes that's what I think—
I've nothing more to tell you—I'll survive without it—

Want to live?—God give me the strength—
It's necessary...—What is?—To feel remorse
Lots of reading—What kind?—Read for knowledge
Leave fools alone—I'll take your advice—
Or will you forget?—I've got it fixed in mind—
Now act before things go from bad to worse
I've nothing more to tell you—I'll survive without it.

"Tout aux tavernes et aux filles."

Suppose you screeve? or go cheap-jack?
    Or fake the broads? or fig a nag?
Or thimble-rig? or knap a yack?
    Or pitch a snide? or smash a rag?
    Suppose you duff? or nose and lag?
Or get the straight, and land your ***?
    How do you melt the multy swag?
***** and the blowens cop the lot.

Fiddle, or fence, or mace, or mack;
    Or moskeneer, or flash the drag;
Dead-lurk a crib, or do a crack;
    Pad with a slang, or chuck a ***;
    Bonnet, or tout, or mump and gag;
Rattle the tats, or mark the spot;
    You can not bank a single stag;
***** and the blowens cop the lot.

Suppose you try a different tack,
    And on the square you flash your flag?
At penny-a-lining make your whack,
    Or with the mummers mug and gag?
    For nix, for nix the dibbs you bag!
At any graft, no matter what,
    Your merry goblins soon stravag:
***** and the blowens cop the lot.

THE MORAL
    It's up the spout and Charley Wag
With wipes and tickers and what not.
    Until the squeezer nips your scrag,
***** and the blowens cop the lot.

From the French of François Villon

Tell me now in what hidden way is
Lady Flora the lovely Roman?
Where’s Hipparchia, and where is Thais,
Neither of them the fairer woman?
Where is Echo, beheld of no man,
Only heard on river and mere—
She whose beauty was more than human?—
But where are the snows of yester-year?

Where’s Heloise, the learned nun,
For whose sake Abeillard, I ween,
Lost manhood and put priesthood on?
(From Love he won such dule and teen!)
And where, I pray you, is the Queen
Who willed that Buridan should steer
Sewed in a sack’s mouth down the Seine?—
But where are the snows of yester-year?

White Queen Blanche, like a queen of lilies,
With a voice like any mermaiden—
Bertha Broadfoot, Beatrice, Alice,
And Ermengarde the lady of Maine—
And that good Joan whom Englishmen
At Rouen doomed and burned her there—
Mother of God, where are they then?—
But where are the snows of yester-year?

Nay, never ask this week, fair lord,
Where they are gone, nor yet this year,
Except with this for an overword—
But where are the snows of yester-year?

A middle-northern March, now as always—
gusts from the South broken against cold winds—
but from under, as if a slow hand lifted a tide,
it moves—not into April—into a second March,

the old skin of wind-clear scales dropping
upon the mold: this is the shadow projects the tree
upward causing the sun to shine in his sphere.

So we will put on our pink felt hat—new last year!
—newer this by virtue of brown eyes turning back
the seasons—and let us walk to the orchid-house,
see the flowers will take the prize tomorrow
at the Palace.
                    Stop here, these are our oleanders.
When they are in bloom—
                                       You would waste words
It is clearer to me than if the pink
were on the branch.  It would be a searching in
a colored cloud to reveal that which now, huskless,
shows the very reason for their being.

And these the orange-trees, in blossom—no need
to tell with this weight of perfume in the air.
If it were not so dark in this shed one could better
see the white.
                      It is that very perfume
has drawn the darkness down among the leaves.
Do I speak clearly enough?
It is this darkness reveals that which darkness alone
loosens and sets spinning on waxen wings—
not the touch of a finger-tip, not the motion
of a sigh.  A too heavy sweetness proves
its own caretaker.
And here are the orchids!
                                        Never having seen
such gaiety I will read these flowers for you:
This is an odd January, died—in Villon’s time.
Snow, this is and this the stain of a violet
grew in that place the spring that foresaw its own doom.

And this, a certain July from Iceland:
a young woman of that place
breathed it toward the South.  It took root there.
The color ran true but the plant is small.

This falling spray of snow-flakes is
a handful of dead Februaries
prayed into flower by Rafael Arevalo Martinez
of Guatemala.
                      Here’s that old friend who
went by my side so many years:  this full, fragile
head of veined lavender.  Oh that April
that we first went with our stiff lusts
leaving the city behind, out to the green hill—
May, they said she was.  A hand for all of us:
this branch of blue butterflies tied to this stem.

June is a yellow cup I’ll not name; August
the over-heavy one.  And here are—
russet and shiny, all but March.  And March?
Ah, March—
                   Flowers are a tiresome pastime.
One has a wish to shake them from their pots
root and stem, for the sun to gnaw.

Walk out again into the cold and saunter home
to the fire.  This day has blossomed long enough.
I have wiped out the red night and lit a blaze
instead which will at least warm our hands
and stir up the talk.
                             I think we have kept fair time.
Time is a green orchard.

No man hath dared to write this thing as yet,
And yet I know, how that the souls of all men great
At times pass athrough us,
And we are melted into them, and are not
Save reflexions of their souls.
Thus am I Dante for a space and am
One Francois Villon, ballad-lord and thief,
Or am such holy ones I may not write
Lest blasphemy be writ against my name;
This for an instant and the flame is gone.

’Tis as in midmost us there glows a sphere
Translucent, molten gold, that is the “I”
And into this some form projects itself:
Christus, or John, or eke the Florentine;
And as the clear space is not if a form’s
Imposed thereon,
So cease we from all being for the time,
And these, the Masters of the Soul, live on.

Para el asombro de las greyes planas
suelo zurcir abstrusas cantilenas.
Para la injuria del coplero ganso
torno mis brumas cada vez más densas.
Para el mohín de los leyente docto
marco mis versos de bizarro rictus,
(leyente docto: abléptico pedante)
tizno mis versos de macabros untos.
Para mí... no hago nada, nada, nada,
A qué contar a la olvidosa gente
si el amor en mi pecho llora o canta?
(a la olvidosa gente, es a saber:
al aire, al viento, al sol, al río, al mar...)
o a qué decir si el alma poesía,
-gruña así o grazne la trivial raleaa
qué decir si el alma poesía
huésped es de mi torre o de mi rúa?
Y que (como Villon el su tabardo,
su buitre prometeiico Atlas el Sordo,
como Nerón la púrpura, y la toga
César el Calvo, y ponzoñosa daga
el Valentino de mirar buido,
y, de la Tour de Nesle precipitado,
el saco Buridán, oh Margarita!)
yo porto, a más del tirso y la careta,
yo porto, en mí, la sombra del fastidio,
signo fatal, exilio sin remedio?
(como Nerón la púrpura, o la toga
César el Calvo, o la siniestra daga
el Valentino César, cuando arruga
su ceño ante las turbas enemigas!)
Un ignorado ritmo, dócil, terso,
donde el absurdo corazón esparzo,
¡eso será la impertinente estrofa
en que de todo mi desdén se befa,
y más de mí!: desdén, sobrio estilete
y el más seguro amigo en el combate
contra la tribu inulta! ¡Oh Muchedumbre!:
qué vales tú, si topas con el Hombre?
(y el Hombre, dí, si topa con el Hambre?
y Muchedumbre y Hombre con la Hembra?).
Para mí no hago nada, nada, nada,
¡sino soñar, sólo vivir la vida!
Para mí no hago nada... ¿acaso humo
cuando en la pipa blondo aroma quemo,
-si en el magín devano las ideas
humo también, color de fantasía...-?
Para mí no hago nada, nada, sólo
soñar, vivir la vida a contrapelo.
Sin un sueño de Amor más que divino
-por tener de ideal y ser humano que
da objeto y razón a mi durar...
sin ése Amor, mejor fuérame ser
una Sombra en la Sombra: quieto Buda
dormitando en la Muerte o en la Vida.
Para el asombro de las greyes planas
suelo zurcir abstrusas cantilenas.
Para ofender la mesocracia ambiente
mi risa hago sonar de monte a monte;
tizno mis versos de bizarro rictus
para el mohín de lo leyente docto;
para divertimento de mí mismo
trovas pergeño: absurdos y sarcasmos!
Y busco algo de ensueño y de aventura
dentro la noche...! y doy la vida entera
por el Amor, oh tú, sola Mujer!
mientras viene el morir!

it begins with a decanter of Rimbard
add 2 parts Villon
and 1 part Catullus
throw a jigger of Whitman
and a pony shot of D. Thomas
put in 3 dashes of Kerouac,
Ginsberg and Burroughs
add a splash of Cummings
for flavor and a float of Rumi,
shake well and pour into the
Nebauchadnezzar of D.H Lawrence
while intermixing Hemingway with
a kick of Yeats and Keats from the
oar stirrers of Celine and Pound,
drop in a few ice cubes of Thompson,
cold and solid and a bendy straw of
Carruth with garnish from Li Po and a
cocktail umbrella of Fante to decorate
and call this mixology a Bukowski
and raise the drink high
and pour it down fast
to honor the dying light
from the struggles of
writers before us and
to help us get through
the moil and toil that
holds us back from
what we truly want
within our guts because
I find living, drinking,
smoking, *******, reading
and writing to be difficult
as it is but breathing
should be the hardest
thing you'll have to do
under this dead moon night

An honest man's statement was torted the other day
Just for its implications
If honesty is against the law
The Cronies must be laughing

Isn't it odd that when young we're taught lies
Then forced to believe them
You know the sun does not set nor does rise
It is all just an old illusion

If Villon was crying in sventn cntry
Hear ye all God save the Queen
And Ezra got pounded for what he was shouting
Over the airwaves in old Italy

Truth be illegal now tell me all lies
I'm stupid, I just might believe them

I see figures
But they're not really there
It feels like im talking to someone or something
But everyone just thinks it's in my head
Im falling apart from the inside out
But there's a part of me that is saying someone is there
Helping me
He watches me as I lay in bed and turn and toss at night
Then I feel a warm touch on my skin
Nothing is there
I close my eyes and think of what he would look like
He could be my super hero or maybe my villon

Ami, tu me dis : « Joie extrême !
Donc, ce matin, comblant ton voeu,
Rougissante, elle a dit : Je t'aime !
Devant l'aube, cet autre aveu.

Ta victoire, tu la dévoiles.
On t'aime, ô Léandre, ô Saint-Preux,
Et te voilà dans les étoiles,
Sans parachute, malheureux ! »

Et tu souris. Mais que m'importe !
Ton sourire est un envieux.
Sois *** ; moi, ma tristesse est morte.
Rire c'est bien, aimer c'est mieux.

Tu me croyais plus fort en thème,
N'est-ce pas ? tu te figurais
Que je te dirais : Elle m'aime,
Défions-nous, et buvons frais.

Point. J'ai des manières étranges ;
On fait mon bonheur, j'y consens ;
Je vois là-haut passer des anges
Et je me mêle à ces passants.

Je suis ingénu comme Homère,
Quand cet aveugle aux chants bénis
Adorait la mouche éphémère
Qui sort des joncs de l'Hypanis.

J'ai la foi. Mon esprit facile
Dès le premier jour constata
Dans la Sologne une Sicile,
Une Aréthuse en Rosita.

Je ne vois point dans une femme
Un filou, par l'ombre enhardi.
Je ne crois pas qu'on prenne une âme
Comme on vole un maravedi.

La supposer fausse, et plâtrée,
Non, justes dieux ! je suis épris.
Je ne commence point l'entrée
Au paradis, par le mépris.

Je lui donne un coeur sans lui dire :
Rends-moi la monnaie ! - Et je crois
À sa pudeur, à mon délire,
Au bleu du ciel, aux fleurs des bois.

J'entre en des sphères idéales
Sans fredonner le vieux pont-neuf
De Villon aux piliers des Halles
Et de Fronsac à l'Oeil-de-Boeuf.

Je m'enivre des harmonies
Qui, de l'azur, à chaque pas,
M'arrivent, claires, infinies,
Joyeuses, et je ne crois pas

Que l'amour trompe nos attentes,
Qu'un bien-aimé soit un martyr,
Et que toutes ces voix chantantes
Descendent du ciel pour mentir.

Je suis rempli d'une musique ;
Je ne sens point, dans mes halliers,
La désillusion classique
Des vieillards et des écoliers.

J'écoute en moi l'hymne suprême
De mille instruments triomphaux
Qui tous répètent qu'elle m'aime,
Et dont pas un ne chante faux.

Oui, je t'adore ! oui, tu m'adores !
C'est à ces mots-là que sont dus
Tous ces vagues clairons sonores
Dans un bruit de songe entendus.

Et, dans les grands bois qui m'entourent,
Je vois danser, d'un air vainqueur,
Les cupidons, gamins qui courent
Dans la fanfare du coeur.

Mon vers, s'il faut te le redire,
On veut te griser dans les bois.
Les faunes ont caché ta lyre
Et mis à sa place un hautbois.

Va donc. La fête est commencée ;
L'oiseau mange en herbe le blé ;
L'abeille est ivre de rosée ;
Mai rit, dans les fleurs attablé.

Emmène tes deux camarades,
L'esprit gaulois, l'esprit latin ;
Ne crois pas que tu te dégrades
Dans la lavande et dans le thym.

Sans être effronté, sois agile ;
Entre gaiement dans le vallon ;
Presse un peu le pas de Virgile,
Retiens par la manche Villon.

Tu devras boire à coupe pleine,
Et de ce soin Pan a chargé
La Jeanneton de La Fontaine
Qu'Horace appelait Lalagé.

On t'attend. La fleur est penchée
Dans les antres diluviens ;
Et Silène, à chaque bouchée,
S'interrompt pour voir si tu viens.