i hate feeling like i am the one who wants this when there should be two.
i hate being the one who is on this side when at least some of the time it should be you.
and so i guess what im trying to say is i hate this anymore
that i keep having instincts that i keep having to ignore
those instincts that tell me that im just imagining what we had
to run and disappear because all im going to ever do
is dream about yesterday and you
the instincts to seperate myself from you and just forget it all
but do you want to know what the worst thing about this is?
it isnt that i hate this feeling
it isnt that i ignore my instincs because i love you
its that i have no idea
if you will ever care for me the way i care for you
and knowing that if you dont
if you wont
which is likely
that i will be crushed and empty
still stuck
with this feeling

To death in love!
The eye of ones heart closes for their beloved, their most precious treasure of them all clouded by emotions stored for them deep within
Unanswered love leads to a stinging mind of the subscocious, caught and rose by a burning ember of feelings, turning into an inferno,
Blinded by it, they will not acknowledge the falsities of their partner, nor their mistakes or even their treaciousness, as for them he is perfect, conciously imaged as the ideal and the best they ever had,
But no! God forbids, they learn about the art of blinding love while they sink to the bottom of a sea of passion and affection, in a last remote of a courtain call to simple yet manifest carelessness,
Small lies lead to grand falsities overlooked by a noncaring closed eye
Rekindled in a dream they rather follow their instincs than the truth,
Illusions cast by embers of love deep within the unconcious, like a courtain to be blocked from all light, holding on to dear of what is loved and cherished, praised and adored, an emotion leading stray,
The philosophy of a hated person, would be to never close the open eye of ones heart, so you fall not too hard when you begin to love,
But when all falls apart, realisation is like the thorns of countless roses
It is the heart sign of selfless love.

~ Umi

She lines up, a lamb to the slaughter!

This girl, is someones daughter!

I cant help, the thoughts in my head!

My needs win! They wipe out the Dread!

I kiss deep, Her flesh is my feast!

Instincs reap, As man Becomes Beast!

Clothes rip, She begs me for more!

I breathe deep, The scent of a *****!

Who sins worse? The lion or the lamb!

The beast knows that the lambs roamed the lands!

My thoughts scream,"this is not what you wanted!"

Its too late! The Beast has been taunted!

You know this story! You've lived it before!

You always wanted to settle the score!

She hurt you first but now you hear laughter!

You just destroyed! Your last EVER AFTER!

Did you ever stop and wonder why? Just think for a moment, dear.. That life was filled with agony, to strike us down with fear. To crush us down, and peck our souls, till no bone can be found..

It's to make us happy..

.. Happy when we meet someone special, the one, as some say. This one, they become.. More than a friend.. Hearts collide, lips mingle, and fingers intertwine..

This must be love..

Love like the most sweetest of white roses, her glistening petals flowing vibrantly along an oceanic view of pure wonder.. Tears are shed over emotions, none happier.. Or sadder, than those shed for love.

So why do we try..?

Because, as beings.. Our primal instincs lead us on, to find.. That one.. To make us happy, and share our love.

But.. Something's missing..

You may have kissed, you may have hugged.. But something feels, just not-so-right.. What could it be? Will we ever know? It's for the sands of time show us when, softly falling, ticking, to our inevitable end.. The hands of fate, to pull us through, into what we would never have done..

The inevitable.. Can be avoided..

You see the light, at the end of this perilous tunnel.. Turn back, now is not your time.. The sands keep falling, the hands keep pulling..

.. You must stay with the one you love

Don't lose sight, of what your heart tells you.. Your mind says left, your gut says turn around.. Your heart soars you into the sky..

It is that obvious I miss you, my love..
Your sparkling skin
Volputuous eyes
Wondrous smile

.. I cannot lie

.. This is love