Why does it feel like you never cared
I leave once out of anger
And you don't even seem to have a dent
You move on with life
I just wish that you'd show a bit of emotion

You tell me to go to you if I'm ever feeling lonely
I know you mean well
I know that you're saying this so I'm not close to attempting again
But that won't solve anything
I don't want to leave because I feel lonely
I want to leave because I feel dead
I don't enjoy life
I haven't enjoyed life for the past 6 years
Whats the point of living in an empty shell?
It was never about being by myself
To be quite honest I expect to be by myself
It is about how tired and dull life makes me feel
If I can't live it for myself then what's the point
Please, stop telling me to live for you
Instead teach me how to live for myself
That's the only way you can help
I love you

I thought he was fixing me
My light at the end of dark
My own superhero to help me out
But in reality everything was a lie
He was filling up the cracks in my heart with dynamite
Waiting for the moment to blow it up
Leaving me shattered all over again
He was not fixing me

I just want somebody near me
Someone’s heat to share
Someone that will stay with me
I did everything to try and find that someone
And yet again I’ve failed
When will I ever win at this

*******
That’s all I have left to say now
I don’t know what’s left anymore
Are we even still possible?
You started it yet you won’t end it
You keep me in your little spindle
Spinning and spinning
Not quite letting me go
Just using me as much as you can
Are you even using me anymore though
My texts are left on delivered
This time I have 10 hours and counting
Why can’t you just man up and look at them and reply
Is it my fault or are you the *******
You told me you liked me so I allowed myself to hope that you’d be mine
Yet so shortly after you ignore me
I wonder to myself if it’s on me
Yet I can’t think of a single reason
Maybe this is all I am to you
An easy girl who will let anyone step on her
Little do you know you’re just crushing the empathy I have
I took time to understand you
To understand how you act and why
To understand your situation that was so horrific
To understand how I could best help you
It seems however that I was just a toy for you to play with
Replaceable
I don’t even know how much more I can say to you anymore
I think the only thing I can keep saying is
*******