I have not found peace for a while
Even when it rains
My hands still shake
I am not scared of the world
I am scared of myself
And the complexities my mind faces
Dreams are no longer my solitude
They are horrors that leave me no escape
I can find chaos anywhere
Even beyond your brightest smile
Below my feet from where I tread
The soil grounds me and consumes my  voice
Sometimes thoughts feel so close
Yet words feel so far away
And so silence becomes my misery
Freedom seems too abstract to be true
Maybe I am just too harsh on myself
Or too selfish to this world
There is beauty here
Beneath the stars
We do not have to look so far away
When my heart beats out of my chest
I must remember that everything will be okay

I saw your eyes wander out the window
Watching the daisies dancing in the breeze
Autumn came too soon
Now all I see are fallen leaves

Bourbon mixed with sweet decay
Empty sheets
A hollow day
Tell me things you should not say
Our dreams can take us far away
Along the river
Under the stars
Past the meadow where nothing lasts
Far away
Let us disappear
Until we wake up and repeat it all again

See you on another day
I lost my way in the lonely grey
Decay said the stars
They would not stay
Alone became the moon
She loomed above where we used to play
June approached and went away
I see the chaos where we once lay
Swooning as midnight approached
With not one single thought that we would lose our way

I am mayhem
Trapped beneath the stars