No matter how much I wash, I am not clean. I need to say the truth but I am not living in truth. I know the right thing to do to cleanse my soul but I am not doing it I am too ***** and don't want to be saved. I am full of lies and owe people money. I use my charm to deceive people I am torn inside and what to be clean. I know what to do but I am not doing it. Don't know why I am scared or feeling like I have time. Time is going and I am tired of trying to escape or always run away. I want to face my battles now. Stand trough it to the end. I owe my kids and the kids around me this change. I want to be leader. I want to preach and change people postively with my words and money and actions. I want
Do you really want to know? Or you are just asking cos you bored? Well, it depends. I have a lot on my mind, just don't know where to start from. I wish i was unconscious to say it all so I hide anything, or feel shameless. I am thinking of how to change and be a better person. Don't want to be a selfish person anymore...stop being manipulative and opportunistic. I want to practice what i preach. I want to walk freely without hiding or passing other routes. Love truly and be a good friend. I want to feel free wild and young. Living my life. I want to travel to somewhere new so that i can feel like new. Be different.... More eccentric. I will do the right things this time because nobody knows me here. Be a new person, start afresh. Preach possibility and be positive anywhere that i go and with whom i come in contact with. This is whats on my mind.