#byl poems on Hello Poetry

L Sep 2018

Oh,

Oh. I am in pain.

Well would ya look at that.

Still walkin an ****.

Thats me.

Walking and breathing and living.

Im stubborn like that.

#byl

L Sep 2018

Quote unquote

"This is your home now."
    Pft, yeah, *******.
Yeah, sure, I live here.
    Lived. I had a key.
It's where I went to sleep
    every night.

"Home."
I have no home.
What a silly joke.
What a cruel fate.
Oh, woe is me, eh?
Oh, god, how pathetic.
    ******* pathetic.
What in the ****.

#byl

L Sep 2018

Part 1

I
Say my name. . Feel it in your mouth. Wrap your lips around the letters. Lightly flick it with your tongue. Know that you are to me as i am to you. Infinite in existance. Presence everlasting. Haunting. I am you. And you are me. And we make one. Two halves of the same ******* broken cookie. Sweet.

#one #byl

L Sep 2018

Part 2

II
Maybe we're a flavor that not most can stomache.
Ive always loved oatmeal raisin.
Even though i have no particular love for raisins generally.

#two #byl

L Sep 2018

Part 3

III
Funny stuff, life.
You are a ******* treat.
I guess i know what you mean.
Considering i want every ******* part of you.
Though not for my own. So its different maybe.
I want you. But only when i need you. And i want to not need you very frequently. So.
Theres that.

#three #byl

L Sep 2018

Part 4

IV
Where was i going? My tendency to ramble. The fact that you make me crazy. Because you do. You do make me crazy.
You make
me crazy.

#four #byl

L Sep 2018

Part 5

V
Christ. Lord. Help me. This is all too much. When you feel too much. What in the **** do you do.
. I am you. I want your essence in myself. Its always been there. But now that i know,
I want you indefinitely. I want to feel you. I want your lettering across my skin. I want your words in my mouth. I want your feelings to drip down my throat. I want the infinity that i feel i have been promised.
Not now, no. I have never been impatient. But i do want it. Eventually. I want it all. I want what is mine.

#five #byl

L Sep 2018

M

You are so *******
Cute. I just want to cuddle,
No, melt into you.

You-- just so fuckkin
Soft. I want to caress you.
Tongue gliding across

Skin. I just want you.
Admit how much you want me.
I could rock your world.

Gey

#gey #gaaaay #stargays #thatsrightisaidit #whatchagunnadoaboutit #byl

L Oct 2018

Nonstarter; rat race

Nonstarter in the rat race

Feels like no matter how many steps im taking,
I always seem to end up in the same place.

Its bewildering, really. Almost like magic.

Like magic could exist.

If i could get this far with this much,
I might as well keep the goal of keeping on.

For my own sake and for the sake of those around me.
I take my stubborn *** personality.
And i polish that ****.
And i put it on a pedestal.

Yeah. Look at me. Doin ****.

Thats right.
Come and get me.

You dont scare me.

Nothing scares me.

#byl

L Oct 2018

Incomplete..?

Im ******* jealous.

Im jealous of someone i love.

Because someone that i want to love me,

It feels like they love everyone else so much more.

And it hurts.
And i feel guilty.
And i dont want this.

I didnt ask for it.
I would never.
I dont want it.

I want to feel better.
I want to be better.

You love so much
So many
Other people.
And. Its pretty ******* clear.

And.
When it comes to me.
Its observable.
But.
It doesnt feel like much
And i love you
And i want to love you
But.
How.
How does any of this even work.
How does any of it really even work.

This is stupid. Pretty stupid.
Often times. I think of just running
I want to run so bad
So ******* bad.
And then i think of other people.

And how much i ******* care.

And it all hurts.
All over again.
And so much moreso than before.

No resolution?

I cant ******* think.
Should this be a new 'poem' of its own or not?

#byl