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4.3k · May 2014
Melancholic
Rachel Cloud May 2014
Is that truly so?
I don't know what to say, why,
Congratulations
Haiku - technically
1.9k · Apr 2014
A Seaman's Death
Rachel Cloud Apr 2014
...Then light gives way to shadow ‘neath
and wind doth surge through cold cliff’s teeth
The ship finds doom among those rocks
just as a city o’er come with pox.

How the ****** cry, a riotous swell
without anger, fury, none will tell
The story dies as the pinnace snaps
another secret lost in gaps

‘The skiffs!’ they screamed a’running quick
but salvation dashed, the tides too thick
Each man, a child, cannot swim
their bodies thrown, the ocean’s whim

No remnants left upon the shore
the men aboard were seen no more
Wives and sons a’wept and wept
the sea forever in contempt...
a random snippet I needed for a story.
1.7k · Jan 2014
Misconception
Rachel Cloud Jan 2014
Bravery isn't about foolhardy acts of honor
it's admitting you're afraid
and still having the moral compass
to do what's right.
Rachel Cloud Jul 2013
Sometimes,
an ounce just isn't enough.
Then,
whatever was needing of prevention only spreads faster,
immunized by the pitiful attempts of eradication.
But at this point, a cure comes far too late.
1.6k · Mar 2014
A Notebook
Rachel Cloud Mar 2014
Some days I want a notebook
all covered in pretty things
And I would fill it with sugar
and warmth
and happiness
with swirling silver letters
and poems
and stories I could never write
that could never be right

Some days I want a notebook
to fill with dreams in cursive curls
I'd write love letters and
song lyrics and
sweet dreams that tickled
my thoughts in the night

Some days I want a notebook
in a candy pink room
with flowers on the walls
and romance on the shelf with
knights and princes that
for me would fight

One day I bought a notebook
a diary of dreams,
an empty page for a prince
One day I bought a notebook

And I haven't seen it since
1.5k · Apr 2014
A Seaman's Murder
Rachel Cloud Apr 2014
... An unknown crime towards those, the same
yet none would ever know his name
But once they might have called him brother
so soon he goes to end another

A life, a faith, so pure of heart
was poisoned, dearly, from the start
So truth, it seems, one cannot trust
when those most close hold secret lust

He bade them well, those wives and sons
now soiled, dark, the world soon shuns
He smiled, pleased on death’s behalf
and let go one deep, cold laugh
plot twist
1.4k · May 2016
Hellebore
Rachel Cloud May 2016
There are flowers blooming
bright and brilliant, true
pooling from the vesicles
red and violet blue

Roots ensnare the veins below
a pale and powder skin
the blush of nascent nature’s worth
where bruises might of been

A pulling scrapes the tears from eyes
pink with blossom’s bud
And lips stained dark with dreams long dashed
reek of the color blood

There’re flowers in you, child
but flesh and blood as well
tend your garden carefully
or thorns grow where you dwell
1.3k · Sep 2014
Scarves
Rachel Cloud Sep 2014
one, two
knit the tears
into something warm

dull the fingers
fight the fears
work, distract the mind

loop and loop
around, around
until the fabric, formed

lose the heart
with numb, abound
another scarf to find
I make scarves when I'm sad ~ right now I'm all out of yarn
1.0k · Feb 2014
Sacrifices
Rachel Cloud Feb 2014
Children of the sky
the earth
the sea

Their lives
so short
seemed not to be

So safe
and calm
amongst their peers

Each
a victim
of their fears

Speech
and image spoke
of light

But even
doves can pick
a fight

Drops of sun
released from
heaven

Angels of
death to most
did beckon

A burning
change
took the land

A broken world
was close
at hand

A moment
year
a century
Time
found its
serenity

The sun
is
god

The
people
sod

The new world
no longer
known

Peace and change
have solely
grown

Yet an evil
grows
along

A Darkness
that does
not belong

Invading peace
and safe
and warm

There must
always be
some harm

The sky
once more
will fall

Only not
the sun
at all
Night’s dark
shadows
seep below

For fear
and sorrow
to bestow
I don't write outlines for stories. I write poems and see where they take me.
998 · Mar 2014
Love lasts forever
Rachel Cloud Mar 2014
Love lasts forever
Love never dies
Love is eternal
Love never cries

Love is a blessing
Love is a song
Love doesn't falter
Love will last long

Love will support you
Love will not fade
Love will reward you
With you, Love is made

Love is protective
Love is a friend
Love has a secret


Love has an end.
996 · Mar 2014
Fault
Rachel Cloud Mar 2014
Perhaps the fault
is not with how I choose to display my soul,
but in how you perceive it
I was sassing my english teacher.
977 · Jul 2014
Trusted
Rachel Cloud Jul 2014
Mother Goose, Mother Goose,
Father Gander
Watch them, watch them, watch them squirm,
Fighting off the slander

Not a gown, and not a cape
Can hide their shameful faults
Corset, tie, nor cane in hand,
Not even Gravesmen’s vaults

Secrets, gossip from once-friends
Spread amongst their loved ones
Thrown like seeds in farmer’s field
Even God does them shun

Mother Goose, Mother goose,
Father Gander
Even though they were so close
Everyone lacks candor
think of it like a child's song
800 · Apr 2014
Molding it All Together
Rachel Cloud Apr 2014
Worthless
They scream,
when it starts,
so it seems

Insignificant
Ignominy,
though you trust,
in your dream

Contemptible
How they cry,
how you act,
don't know why

Abhorrent
You believe,
what they yell,
lets you die

Detestable*
****** by brave,
****** by all,
Watch them watch,
watch you fall.
Pt. 1 - Pt. 5 are related
780 · Jan 2015
Femme
Rachel Cloud Jan 2015
She was soft and filled of fire
with the strength of oceans
behind her eyes
705 · May 2013
Shadows Now Past
Rachel Cloud May 2013
Hush the silence my dear
its cruelty screams loud
your loneliness couldn't
compare to mine

Don't you worry, my dear
The pain won't last long
I won't let you suffer
this night

Memories twirl
throughout my mind
hated reflections of loss that I faced
and the warmth I once felt
In my heart and my soul
I fear it is lost to me now

Oh, the darkness consumes me
as I watch the leaf die
and the hell I've been living
ends abruptly tonight

The shadows are swirling
under the moon's watchful eye
so as the whistling winds
tell me secrets so low
I whisper my quiet goodbye…

Just as the heartbeat of war
tore my love from my arms
so the silence that follows
drives me closer to her

tears fell from their eyes
knowing both of us gone
How could they not notice
my obmutescence of late?

Did they even ever care?

Oh, the darkness consumes me
as I watch the leaf die
and the hell I've been living
ends abruptly tonight

The cold shadows are swirling
under the moon's watchful eye
so as the whistling winds
tell me secrets so low
I whisper my quiet goodbye…
Lyrics for a song a character sings in a story I'm writing, (depressed male, has mild DID)
Criticism welcome/wanted, I've never written lyrics before.
683 · Sep 2013
Words
Rachel Cloud Sep 2013
There are so many words, so many pent up sentences biting in my mind. Some are hurtful, others heartfelt, ones that slip out under the tongue, and those that are far more patient, festering. Excess secrets, a true abundance of dead emotions. And what am I to do? Weave the quiet hate and the screaming loneliness into words of gold no one will ever read. Papers in the hearth. Literary drawings hidden on sheaves of paper in the binding of books, and hidden in the margins. I find them.

And I burn them.

Those fragile, pre-shattered shards of my sanity strewn through my post-shattered being. Those hushed whispering shadow words. Inked in black, with blacker intent. But they make the fire beautiful. They make it glow with life as I burn bits of myself. Burn them away with  malice and fear and cowardice. And the fire dances with joy I can only feel imprinted on my dulled mirror of a soul. But it distorts and snaps. Snaps into shards with the blackest intent.

I fear I have more words to burn.
634 · May 2014
Offer and Promise
Rachel Cloud May 2014
An eye for an eye
a tooth for a tooth
for all of me
I'd only accept
all of you
632 · Nov 2014
Curtains
Rachel Cloud Nov 2014
Bars can't silence the voice in a throat
As night can't **** off the dawn
Wishing can never be smothered or choked
Even when losing the song

And though ice slows the dream in mind
And memory blurs the path
Lyrics, music, all flow in kind
Each bird forgets the world's wrath
618 · Jul 2013
Apparition
Rachel Cloud Jul 2013
Kiss of ice
and kiss of frost,
who remembers what was lost?
Fading light,
fading sight,
who ran off
into the night?

Whispers,
mutters,
something gone
who will live
when comes the dawn?

With,
without,
live,
or die
How can such variables
to this apply?

Can one live
without the other?
Or must one leave
with fear to smother

Words
no one
will ever hear,
But if they had
would they endear?

Quiet, quiet
no more words
With them
emotion comes in herds

Mocking,
haunting,
ghostly face,
weaving love
and thoughts like lace

Cold as frost
and cold as ice
And yet your lips
will still entice...
Opening of a story of a similar name.
615 · Jun 2014
A Nursery Rhyme
Rachel Cloud Jun 2014
Little Laura Laingsbury,
Once a friend,
Twice a threat,

She sang a song of blueberry
And blackberry
And dead

For her there was a hung jury
For she, a woman free

Take her,
Take her,
Take her there,
Down to the lynching tree
607 · Mar 2014
Sugar-Coated
Rachel Cloud Mar 2014
Sugar-coated sovereignty
This leadership of ours
I look at times
so long before
And look at how they fought
Freedom they screamed and
Freedom they cried
Freedom they called in
Rebellion and right
Ordered war on injustice
and royalty
and wrong
Gave up homes
and protection
and family

They gave up their lives

For this

And what do I see?

I see 'freedom' lounging in luxury
Within walls of safety
and secrets
and lies
I see sheep chasing promises of those,
Leaving freedom to those,
That
No
One
Likes
I see wars on ideas
and words
and thoughts

Where is our freedom now?
Our freedom of speech
Our freedom of thought
Where is the honesty
That brought us thus far?

I do not see
The effort that freedom deserves
I do not see
The honor those before us earned

They gave up their lives

For this Sugar-Coated Sovereignty
I was feeling historic today. Also entering this to try and win a scholarship.
592 · Jan 2015
Roses
Rachel Cloud Jan 2015
Why are we meant to look through
Rose-colored glasses

When roses are the color
of blood
590 · Feb 2015
Depression
Rachel Cloud Feb 2015
Not a cloud,
a cloud is too kind a description for the feeling.
An ocean, perhaps.
Endless.
Smothering.
Inescapable.

"Smile!" They say.
"And happiness will come with it!"

That's how they show they care.

If only they wouldn't lie.
There will always be days when smiling could never be enough.
579 · Sep 2014
Look to the Trees
Rachel Cloud Sep 2014
Who do you admire, child?

I admire the trees.

The trees are a* what not a who, my dear.

That's only what you see...

I see the strength
Of the wood through the sorrow
Of the storm, how it rips them apart

I see them give
What the creatures would borrow,
While pain is all that's returned.

I see them cry
From the young man's knife,
Tears for the love it has learned

I see them fade
At the end of their life
As winter seeds ice in their heart

The trees soldier on, and the trees do endure, though life beats on for its way

They lose bits of themselves, and yet they march on

Ever in the light of day.
Funny, how trees live on as they lose limbs and bark and everything that makes them what they are - they grow stronger, and they move on.
575 · Aug 2013
Hiding
Rachel Cloud Aug 2013
I write of pain
and suffering
and loss
but why?

I place myself
in the shoes
of my thoughts
my secrets
my friends
I'm cruel to them
but why?

Everyone,
real people,
ask me what's wrong
"What happened"
"Why so sad?"
but it's never that simple

Nothing happened
I haven't let it
I'm too busy
Hiding.
566 · Aug 2014
A Mockery of He
Rachel Cloud Aug 2014
A single star in a pool of black
Who’d ever think they’d need such slack?
Another word, another song
Truly life is not so long

Hear them whisper, hear them yell
Each word, another one they sell
Isn’t it funny, quite absurd?
That anyone could miss a bird

Sing song, sing song, sing song, sing
Who’d imagine such a thing
A madman, dreams of stars and brides
a man with nothing that he prides
from a novel
548 · Sep 2014
Written Words
Rachel Cloud Sep 2014
Half are for me
Half are for you
Half for the voice
In my stories too

A few for the cardinals,
The swallows and doves
A dash for the stones,
The moss and the bluffs

If you listen real close
There's one for the land
Of beauty and splendor
And Nature's wise hand

But try to ignore it
And try if I can
To block out my words
For dear, murderous man
540 · May 2014
Empowerment (10 words)
Rachel Cloud May 2014
i am nothing
and everything

and you can't stop me
Rachel Cloud Jul 2013
What does it make you?
When misery is relief?
Maybe it's just me
Who finds joy
when they know
someone hates them.
One less person to love
One less person to ruin
to cry for
to apologize to
to ****.

I don't search out hate, though
I have loved,
perhaps more purely than
you could imagine.
When one fears love,
has never known it
... Well,
Who can deny
ignorance breeds
the purest of emotion?

And yet,
there comes a time
when purity runs dry
once a bubbling brook
becomes a struggling trickle
weariness replaces what
once was feeling
fleeting.

But do not weep for me
no second thoughts
no regrets
Whilst my sentiments fade
and a slumber nears
know I lived,
And how very sorry
I am
for the things
I have done
519 · Mar 2014
Storybook
Rachel Cloud Mar 2014
There are days life feels like a story
And I'm not the main character
Just support
The one with the ideal life,
but who is,
for no reason,
just as ******* up as she.
But I'm not important here.
This is hers.
I've watched her parents ignore her, and
I've watched her fall in love.
I've watched her cry and laugh and scream.
I've seen her at her best
and worst.
I saw her love leave her,
and she smiled.
And that hurt.
Because I'm the support,
and I can't solve her problems.
All I can do is watch her pain
with a look of concern,
and hope
That
She
Finds
Her
Happy
Ending.
I think this would make her happy. But I can't even make myself give it to her.
519 · Dec 2012
Look in the Mirror
Rachel Cloud Dec 2012
When you look in the mirror
And sorrow looks back
The sobs of unworthy
Your body will rack
As tears of regret
Fall through the air
Weight of consequence
More than you can bear
The hate inside you
Ripping out
The distress that blinds you
Fills you with doubt
Doubt in the world
that left you to rot
Doubt in the people
Who love you or not

Tragedy turns you
Cold as stone
And tragedies plural
Will leave you alone
As dark overshadows
All light in your soul
It makes you abandon
Your greatest goal
All hope that you find
Will seem dark and demeaning
Life, in itself
Will lose all its meaning
It'll mock you today
And will mock you tomorrow
The mirror that showed you
All of your sorrow...
515 · Oct 2014
Whisper Winds
Rachel Cloud Oct 2014
And in the winter months,

the sky,
grey with clouds
and smog

tears well in the eyes
of the children of dust.


For the sun has forsaken us
Deep thoughts in cursive
488 · Sep 2014
A Shard
Rachel Cloud Sep 2014
And the world fell in around him -
infinite shards raining down
leaving garish wounds of red blood
and
bone
and
thick masses of being
neither him
nor not him.

He was alone.
486 · May 2016
In Resistance
Rachel Cloud May 2016
With swishing, swaying somnolence, in eve
So slow and sound, a thought begins to stir.
A battle brews beneath the throat, but breathe
Past beating baubles, under flesh and fur

Concealed by waves and waves of reticence
The sun a blot on the horizon grey
In splendor faces glow with innocence
Though silently they scream in their dismay

Away, away, away they fall to dark
And disarray while children dream alone
They dream for shattered selves of gold, and hark!
The hammer falls upon them as t’would stone

Yet broken souls shan’t glimmer bright as whole
However well the storied tales extoll.
Sonnet 01
485 · Apr 2015
Minstrel's Song
Rachel Cloud Apr 2015
There once was a lovely young maiden
Who had but admirers three
The first one had said
"Let me into your bed!"
And she thought
"Oh how awful you be!"

There once was a lovely young maiden
Who had but admirers three
The second one offers
"Let me into your coffers!"
"I'd ne'er let you have the key!"

There once was a lovely young maiden
Who had but admirers three
The third asked so kind
"Let me into your mind,
and I'll foster what you hold in thee."

There once was a lovely young maiden
Who loved the admirer three
Who did as he promised
and taught her in honest
but could not stay bound to she
bittersweet
480 · Sep 2015
Clawing and Candor
Rachel Cloud Sep 2015
There's something a'shifting
With tooth and claw bared
Something a'hungering
Where no one has stared

A monster's a'climbing
from out of your throat
Digging deep into
you, keeping afloat

There's something a'wishing
A'wanting like mad
Alive in all living
things, risk to be had

A creature a'waiting
it's eager escape
The beast lies a'muttering
as the mouth gives it shape
truth isn't always kind
476 · Oct 2014
What was left
Rachel Cloud Oct 2014
How does the mountain thank the breeze?
How does the ocean sway,
A changed direction switched to thee
A wave who could not stay

Two mere creatures of the dust,
And one, by far, the better
Deep below the world's thick crust
With dreams matched to the letter

The icy breeze may hold the truth
Which one, unwisely, held
The other, so,  had thought, 'forsooth!'
The one, too far, compelled

A ring, a wrap, of roses neat
All thorns and vines and taint
Around, around, to near defeat
One never was a saint

And so one leaves with fear and hate
After layers of mistake
Some will think it comes too late
The other one might break

But this was not to spite from one
And not in fault of thee
Nor in rashness, careless done
Mayhap one day you'll see

How in this truth, so taught by act
The withering may start
The found are far more lost, in fact
Without a place in heart

And so one says goodbye at last
To her friend, the other
Though space between their lives is vast
They'll meet in yet another
473 · May 2014
A Little Drop of Joy
Rachel Cloud May 2014
A tiny stream of darkness
Cannot ruin light,
Nor can muttered rumors,
Taint the truth in sight
A tear can not discourage,
And a lie can not dissuade,
In the end it proves so true,
The only one who ruins life,
Is truly only you.
466 · Jan 2014
Madness
Rachel Cloud Jan 2014
Mirrors, mirrors,
left and right
and I can't see a thing

The clicking clock
goes tick tick tick
so I can't hear you sing

All I see is
me me me
but can't bear the sight

I'll rip it open,
let the red
block out all the light
458 · Oct 2013
Wondering
Rachel Cloud Oct 2013
I always fancied myself unafraid
of loss
and death

Maybe
It was the lack of people
close
and caring

People I loved or knew
or even
wanted
to know

Now, here I stand
at the precipice
of a revision
a simple one at that

A death
not harsh
or cruel
but one that was calm,
wished for
even

And you know what?
I am scared

Now that I finally have
People
that I love
and know
and care about

It's they who seek a bullet
or a knife
or perhaps the "peace"
of drowning

And I don't know
what to do
how to stop them
how to help

But I don't want to
be alone
and all I can think
to do
is to follow
452 · Aug 2014
Dispair or Disrepair
Rachel Cloud Aug 2014
Am I lost or broken?
To be fixed or be forgotten?
Perhaps it's just the same to me,
My mind was misbegotten

Is the ice outside or in?
Has the rot seeped through?
Is my heart shattered or bruised?
Is it all the same to you?

Leave me here or leave me there
One way or another
Whisper quiet in your ear
"You always did so smother."
439 · Mar 2015
Varied Sleep
Rachel Cloud Mar 2015
Though baying, though so onerous
your dreams so sound to me
I feel their weight acutely for
to you, they are to be

A fell and silent darkness lies
between my times of wake
And you hear stories spun of silk,
a smothering to slake

Demons lie behind my eyes
if angels do with yours
But don’t begrudge me what I know
or what my nighttime stores

For demons, shadows, twisting words
bring me solace, deep
Though you feel light and glory bright
I long for different sleep
A thought on dreams
433 · Mar 2014
Drowning Petals
Rachel Cloud Mar 2014
Oh
These tears I dearly cry
A bit of my soul flows away with them

Oh
Take me  with them
Lead me away from the sorrow
To the new
Lead  me to where
the flowers grow
Lead me to where the light
Shines

However deep the anchor goes
I do tread
My hands are tied and pull me
Down
How the pressure grabs my chest
Let's watch the bubbles rise

Oh
The surface of the waters glisten
And lightly shows the sun
I would love to
Float
Up
There

Oh me?
Oh my,
Oh no
Not me
I will not float
I am a rock
I will see the bottom
Long before I rise

The cold
The dark
It is my home
I'll breathe in the water
To let me drown
I will close my eyes


And be with
The flower



~ Mya
A friend of mine wanted this out there. She gets all the credit for the words. I just typed it out.

She has an account now - http://hellopoetry.com/Mya13/
432 · Jan 2014
S's
Rachel Cloud Jan 2014
S's
A
shuddering
shivering
sniveling heart

shattered and
shunned and
scorned from the start

It
screams and it
sobs and it
shrieks in its pain

yet it
sings with its
sorrow
and
soars with its
shame

The
safety of
sadness
so
strong in its
start

Slid into a
seething and
self-killing
heart
431 · Sep 2015
Sleeves
Rachel Cloud Sep 2015
Too-long sleeves which cover the hands
and the blood to be found upon them
Thick words in the ears, a'flutter with fears
as darkness drips from the hem

Whispered secrets, shared regrets
and words to never be spoken
Life was a trifle, not meant to be stifled
as it, on the ground, lies broken

Not a secret nor word could undo the hurt
and unspill the blood that was spilled
Pull down the cloth, to cover the froth
and forget what must be forgotten
412 · Jun 2014
Coo Coo
Rachel Cloud Jun 2014
Doors, both ways,
and a journey, each
and yet so far,
you’ll never reach!
Like a mad bird
408 · Jan 2015
Doubt
Rachel Cloud Jan 2015
What was true? What was false? Had he ever had a pulse?
Was he real? Was he not? Would he even be distraught?
Rachel Cloud Jul 2014
Tick tock, tick tock. When do spirits break?

Spirits break when truths are false

But how long does madness take?

Madness takes ‘till death has pulse

Till death has pulse?
Oh, good, oh grand,
like a click, like a clock,
like the hourglass sand

Like the horse, and the house, like the hound, and the hand
A bite out of you and a bite from the land
A snigger a smack
A serpent’s attack
With wreath and wrath
To each their own path

With a flutter of wings
And nobody sings
With wings or without
One’s heart must be stout

Hear me now, now hear me then
Look back, look back, back where you’ve been
With wings, without, watch where you tread
Or soon, so soon, you will be *dead
Part of a novel.
395 · Aug 2013
A Shifting
Rachel Cloud Aug 2013
The cold
and the ice
and the snow
and the frost
fades
from the air
and the trees
without cost

The grass
soon creeps
through the dirt
and the dead
indulging
itself
in what
the sun bled

And green
soon devours
all clean
and all white
a change
and a shift
with love
without spite
Something not quite so dark as normal. :)
392 · Mar 2014
Don't
Rachel Cloud Mar 2014
Don't ask me why I have sad days
Don't ask me why I cry
Or why I leave the rock in
my shoe
Or tell you that I'm fine

Don't ask me for opinions
when you know that I don't care
Don't question every negative thought
when I don't think you're near

Don't look at me like that
and say you sympathize
Don't treat me any different
just because you think I'm sad
Or fidget with discomfort when
you see the bags under my eyes

Because if I want help, I'll tell you
If there's something you can do, I'll tell you
But oftentimes, I just want to pretend
for a moment

that I'm not so sad
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