i told myself i wouldn't think
so that led to dreams instead

strip away rationality, succumb
to true desire mentally and then
maybe, somehow, manage to be
happily abstaining from asking
any questions pertaining to the
things your heart knows are out of place

i felt my arms around your waist
& your cheek slightly graze my neck
i felt it
i don't know how you feel

the unrecognized pathway,
potential energy set to explode in sure
romance, was cut down in its war stance
it never had a chance

but the spirit of it lives on and
it is a very haunting thing
to see those wants and needs
crystalize in dreams

i told myself i wouldn't think
i've done too much, i confess

& i convinced myself i didn't love
which now has led me to obsess