and just like that
it all came back
but it didn't hurt-
I was smiling, in fact

naivety
wishes and dreams

longing and lust
blind faith and trust

nature bleeding colors
incredible warmth

and still that
warmth of another

sent shivers
in sorts

though troubled
mind hardened

though heart
now near stone

sometimes I smile
when I am alone

it all sometimes
floods

avalanches
fall

mudslides &
quicksand

perilous waters
& all

just like that it
comes back

sometimes
I'm alone

but now I'm more
grounded

than I've ever known