through tear drops and bloodshed, ive said it a million times and ill say it again because when i lost u... a part of my heart, my soul, u took, my friend I look at your pictures, and i really cant help but to smile, sadden i remain, cos i needed to see u before u left, just for a while My days go by, i think about ur mom and dad, how hard its gotta be to remember the wonderful son, just a year ago, they had. tough listenin' to music, i find myself crying, still seems so unreal, the thought of u dieing. catch myself wanting to tell u all the new things in my life, even though since u've been gone, my minds not been right. but then again thats something i absolutley loved abt u, u could make sense out of anything, ur heart was so true. Intelligent as they come with such an interesting perspective, grateful to have learned from u, i was starving for that connection. handsome as can be, those green eyes are embedded in my brain, heart and stomache still flutter anytime i simply hear ur name. sucha shame, u were destined for greatness, the best at so much, always wantin to make it. hard to write with all these memories running through my head, give up anything to see ur warm smile once again. empty, for all along i had a plan, a year ago i wouldnt know this me, if that helps u understand. met a lot of people, but i felt u in so many ways that even mentioning this puts me in dark depressing daze. But i know i always will because u werent just anybody to me, i appreciate the person u were, so brilliantly unique. i fight tears almost as much as i breathe, because when i lost u, i felt like i lost me