Why does it matter whether I'm your seed or not?
You tried so hard to get rid of me
As if I was some kind of disease you caught
The way they look at you is not the same person I see

And you should know that not all diseases go away
They may be out of your system but they never leave your head
The thought itself will always be there to stay
Fight it all you want it will still make you sick as it spreads

I guess this is why you look down on me
As if I was some kind of ******* burden
Because I just can't bring myself back
To ever trusting you or anyone else again

I will keep my head up high with or without you
The mistakes you made aren't worth the efforts I've been through
Why do I even try to fight these thoughts that I cross?
I'm still your genetic trait that you know nothing of

Again and again you would continue to fail me
Not only as a role model but as the Father you're suppose to be
You'll always be a failure in my eyes
Your actions have gotten to the point where they come as no surprise

I still cringe at the thought of being your offspring
Because it reminds me of the pain and suffering
That you put me through day after day
If there was anything at all you taught me it was some people never change

So why can't you just stay away from me?
Why can't you just stop coming to me to confess these things
That I already knew you have been hiding
I don't want to hear anything from you if you're going to continue with your false honesty

You will never understand
What it's like to come from someone so full of fear
How can you even call yourself a man?
When after all my cries for guidance you were never here

I would rather see you act out your traits
Than ever have you tell me the ******* you think I want to hear
I just hope we got this one thing straight
That my thoughts my thoughts on this will never be clear

So tell me what is the point in trying to reason with you
When you have no idea what kind of thing you put me through
These thoughts of hatred grow inside me as I continue to live
You left me to fend for myself and that's something I can't forgive

It is just as hard for me as it is for you to explain
But the main difference between you and me Is my mental stability either way we are still connect strain
So tell me which of us is the one who's truly insane

If you are so proud of your dominance then why aren't we alike?
I hope your ego is recessive because my patience can't sit tight
I'll never know what it is like to have such a heart so low
But I know one thing for sure, I will never let this go

I guess I will never know
What it's like to be so cold
As I have portrayed you
But unlike you at least I have values

Because you will never change
You will always be the same
Person that left me when I was too
Young to remember and that's no excuse

You'll never know how much I need you
Because you never cared at all
I wish that I could say I miss you
But I'm not sure of the last time thought was recalled

I have no interest to see
The new man you've come to be
After learning so much on my own
Take this stress off of my heads
I can't hold this much weight in my chest
Then you'll see what it's like to be alone

I don't need you
As much as you don't need me
You'll never see the good things I do
Or how much I succeed

I've already accomplished many things that were great
That were done without any of your help
If there's anything about you I'm grateful for it's that you taught me
To be able to learn things myself