Between my dreams and reality
Between wanting to remember and struggling with forgetting
And forgiving
The past versions of myself
Wanting to grow
But not wanting to shed the best parts of me
It’s overwhelming
Not knowing what is waiting around the corner
Not knowing if I want to stick around for it
All this changing that is forever happening around me
It’s difficult to know what version of myself I will be
Or who I want to be
Succumbing to the feeling that I might not have the choice
That sometimes its merely just living with decisions that I’m making
And breathing through it