i)

i thought
i sought
to find

a mind
should be
here

somewhere..
no past-
no future-

perhaps
a
n

illusive
elimination
or imitation

even
or odd
but now

anyhow
ah, the
present

was *****..
where
to go?

what to
do
how to

think
how to
be

ego
hello?
dostoyevski

ii)

however
now
i´m far

cleverer
than trevor!
or fyodor

for that matter
or antimatter
an anteater

ah, sausage in
batter..
hark

laughter
to the devil
a daughter

i ought not
to
feel so blue

her eyes
everywhere
do or dare

little nina
orbs shone
like the

sun
silence in
a bun

crossed
and eternal
falling

old and young
beautiful
lost

but round
tossed out
a window

landing on
my
***..