I used to love it when it rained
Inspiration sang to me
Cloudy days were brain movies
Now I hate to see the days when
Nothing's going right 
And everybody on spite
And I turn to ***** sprite
Because its been a tough night
And I would go and smoke
But I never been the one to spark lights
The fight within me has me slain 
These whack decisions have me shamed
Truth be told I feel insane
I swear I stay outside the box 
But my emotions have me framed 
The games the same 
My people changed 
The ones I trusted most are now the ones that I push away
But, I really wanted you to stay 
I wish you'd come back just to say
That "I'm sorry man I've been so stupid"
And id accept you cuz I'm going through it
Say your opinions have changed
And our friendship is saved
Cuz I can't live another day
In these heartbreak chains 
That I wear here today 
Cuz these poems I make
No longer heal the pain now
And I don't think they ever did
It was just a way out
A way to go and vent
And a way to bring my doubts, and regrets
And upsets
And my frets
And the pains within my chest
On to paper to suppress 
All the reasons I'm depressed
And I would hide them in those sheets of paper 
Until I wrote what happened next
But I'm running out of notepads
And depressions turned to stress
My broken heart is now a crest
That I wear not so proudly 
It's like a scarlet letter
That won't move without me
Removal is impossible
The more that I embrace it
The more my tears turn to rocket fuel