this was written 10/20/16 I wasn't very stable in my own mind and I was going through a lot, please don't read if you get triggered easily, please don't read if it gives you memories. if you still choose to read it will be in your hands.


its cold outside
I'm inside  thinking
that's not good
the voices are speaking
telling me to give up
I yell at the to STOP!
they yell for me to JUMP!
I cant do this
"no one will miss you" they said
"no one will care" they said
I stand up
I go downstairs
"grab the rope"
"grab the chair"
I did it, I never thought twice
I stood on the chair
tied the rope
"put it on"
I did
"jump"
its cold outside
and so is my body