I have absolutely nothing to do this summer,
I feel like dying because my mom is driving me up the wall,
My boyfriend never texts me anymore,
I have many insecurities I can't handle,
Mono ruined my whole **** summer,
Now it's impossible to find a job apparently,
I haven't played tennis in over six months,
Though I enjoy track because I have a few friends,
I HATE my ****,
I break everything,
I shy and I don't even realize it,
I fake a smile every day,
I'm going to fail my impossible US History and Government regents,
Not being melodramatic because it's so difficult,
Nothing ever works out for me,
Maybe if I **** myself,
My boyfriend will realize how much pain I'm in,
And how much I need him,
Maybe then,
I can finally get him to open up to me.
This is the first summer I have NOTHING to do,
After a stressful year,
I feel I'm not good enough for my boyfriend,
And I'm all alone when I need to express my feelings.