I am holding the universe
Grasping it
Digging my fingers into its very core
I feel the passion building up within me
Stronger and stronger
Until finally I feel it alive and growing inside of me
Running across my bones
Pumping through my veins
Fluttering around in my stomach
I feel all of the secrets that lie within the earth
And my emptiness has seemingly been filled up
And I feel new and whole and blissful

The waiting and the aching have subsided
And I feel bright inside
Illuminated and full of a soaring luster
Like the moonlight is splashing around inside of me
The dark desire and the sadness that once existed and thrived outside of my dreams is now absent
And I realize that I hold a myriad of universes within me
That I always have
But I am universes coexisting within a Great Universe
I am nature, I am energy, I am light
I am the sun and the moon
The stars
I am compiled of stardust and the cosmos
I am a secret soothing sea of soft reflections
And golden comfort
Tingling magnitude
I feel the wind quietly caress my young and forgotten face
As I lay in the green of the grass and the trees with their fluttering leaves
In the comfort of the sun beating down
Warm and strong
On my flesh
I am a blessing to the Great Universe
As it is a blessing to me

My heart doesn't ache that certain ache
I have learned to accept the darkness within me as something beautiful
As a symbol of my strength and all that I have endured
My deepest, darkest secret is quiet and rests easier within me
It no longer pokes and prods at me
A pressure has been lifted from my chest and I am tingling from the inside out
The idea of being forgotten no longer hurts
And my heart beats harder, with more fervor
It feels strong and smooth
Like the ocean's waves
So strong and powerful but so warm and inviting
Soothing
I can breathe again
Almost effortlessly
And it is easy to smile
The calmly spoken conversations of the universe with the earth and its sun and moon echo lovingly within me
I imagine they are touching me gently
Constantly aware of my presence
Running their fingers through my hair
Instilling hope and emitting deserving rays of insight and beauty and knowledge
I feel small but I feel safe
And there is now an ease with tolerating reality
For instead, I live in the stars, my lifetime companions
And the branches of the trees
The whisper of the wind
The warmth of the sun
The wisdom of the moon
The nourishment of the soil

I can feel within my stomach the beaming phrases
Igniting my mind gracefully as I embrace every single sound
I breathe in deeply as the universe kisses me gently
Possessing warm company
Emitting newborn intervals of flare, vigor, and understanding
I have found rapture and euphoria
And all the while it was residing within me
I was just searching for it in all the wrong places

I have been presented with a new perspective
And I now exist within a dimension
I have only ever been able to dream about