Why does it hurt? Why does it hurt so bad, I let you go yesterday like the bird I've never had. I set you free so you could find someone so much better than me. I tried so hard it was like pushing two puzzle pieces that will never fit together so why does it hurt? You will always be the girl I fell head over heels with. I still am so ******* in love with you that my tears are drowning me and I'm gasping for air but I realize I only could breathe when you would kiss me. All our I loves yous are carved into my skin, burned into my memory, HotWired into my brain and god I want to stop loving you so the pain will go away but I can't. I can't unlove the girl I've loved for three years and two months. I'm suppose to be strong but every time I close my eyes I start to dream about you so I started skipping sleep like it was my classes every alarm was the principal calling me in to have a talk. I've never fully been mentally stable but now, now I'm over my head in memories of us I was never good enough, so goodbye or farewell or please come back. No. I can't say that I have to harden my  Heart and dry my eyes. I'll never be able to kiss you goodbye. Its not suppose to hurt this bad I was after all the one parting ways  **but god if only I could wake up with amnesia and forget you were the girl of forever