There’s a reason for love
There’s a way to forever
There's a prideness to swallow
And a trip into never

But the nothing was shallow
As I waded in calm
And the heroes of another time
Came screaming out the law

They were laymans
They laid bricks
The had neutral understandings
Of the way a clock would tick

They wrote down the angles
And charted out the stars
They thought a simple divine message
made the world as ours

Ambitious, overcoming
A look with wild eyes,
These people they believe in
The earth the wind the skies

They never meant a battle
Just retaliated strife
The white man thought a revelation
The red man lived for life

Now it’s a complicated system
Of values vs. belief
A warming of the atmosphere
A grinding of the teeth.

This turned into the Indians
The Europes and conquest,
But it’s all about a girl I love
And the love that I have left

She used to make me do these things
And I assume that she still does
She’s appeared from out of nowhere,
But still settles like it was.

man is she one hell of a drug

and once is never enough

so hold hold hold hold on

I'm crying on the sidewalk
and i don't give a ****

and in one hundred days,
maybe by then my head will have finally shut up

im not all right and I'm fine I'm feeling fine

i could feel my heart through my chest
and feel the serrations you've embedded in my neck

and i realized that you are perfect

so i prayed that love would find me
but that won't happen without looking for it.

so i headed to the lobby, to check out of this motel
and i wandered on just as lost
inside a perfect hell.

better than a thousand,
says the 7" that's lost,

her face pays more for alcohol,

than your seizing motor costs.
so if you feel like drinking,
and finding me your ride,
just AGREE than, with your instincts,
and cast my mood aside.

i wanted to kiss you you,
but my cool-guy just dismissed you,

open your eyes
please just open your eyes and i would
hold you til the morning came.
Left the moon to wax and wane.

This ******* in a v-neck,
this ******* with the muscles,
couldn't understand what loves like,
constant testosterone struggle.


let me love you.



this is why i dislike going to bars.

walking along in bodies,
feeling your hand start to sweat
we're leading each other to the first time
back at the place where we met.

the blossoms of branches wave hello,
and keep us in beauty surrounded.

the green on the grass felt palpable
we could hold a color in our hand.

your eyes shout excitement, they sing love
and whisper nothing.

Standing together we're stoic.
Appearing as royal as dawn.
But we know in our hearts we are silly
and that lighthearted hearts, love long.

the moon shines,
but not half as bright as you do.

and it rises in the sky,
but not half as much as your ideas do.

it lends its light to darkened lands
but no half as much as your smile does.

it was circling the earth
but not half as fast as you can

it stayed its share through the night
alas, eclipsed by morning light.

and all this poem will be a sham,
because a moon cant compare to how,
for as I feel
I am.

Set a fire to the pages.
Burnt a hole into a book
It kept calling me a liar
I was calling it a crook.

Words would float across my eyes
The paper cut my hands
I shouldn't even read this thing
it's from a section "banned".

Now I can go to anywhere,
And see it for myself,
but it's spine just kept on tempting me
to pluck it from the shelf.

I could've chosen any one,
One that aimed to please?
but apparently I'm reading one
that smells like gasoline.

So I sit atop a wall,
reading in the park,
flipping pages through the night
squinting in the dark

I fell asleep on top of bricks
I woke up on a bench
I find it strange I moved myself
I don't find it strange I left.

The book did keep me company,
it didn't even try
but I’m in love with everyone,
And they just keep walking by.

Static electricity
energy confined to a moment.

this reactor needs an electrician.

not enough electrons gettin in.

i don't care about your standard of beauty,

or how the rug isn't vacuumed


i don't care  if your hairs a mess or not,

i want to hug you and smell it.


I'm not sure if i am old and lame

or just not sure if young and wild


but i do know if i couldn't tell you

i want to climb on top of you and yell it.

A plastic bottle of antibodies,

A sliver clamshell of cigarettes

The best suit you could afford

And a car you can’t pay for.


What’re we here for, for the quiet adoration of all the beautiful things?

Or for the collecting of wealth so we can **** up what was natural in the first place?

**** **** ****

Get her pregnant and raise that child,

If you do than don’t father haphazardly, don’t regret what came naturally.

Deal with those things, those problems that you just happening to be alive, brings.

Hold fast and **** courage, all you need is that moment to shine in glory.

Do it for me, and for you and for all those who brought you to this cross roads, neglect, and happenstance. A combination of what life looks like at a glance.

Whether big or small, little or tall.

The harder you are, the more difficult it will be to break you when you’re on the cusp of the greatest thing your cramped hands have led you too thus far,

And I’m driving on a wet highway, covered in rain, and I can’t understand why I can’t slip past the pain,

The fog in the air clouds my decisive decisions to keep this battle drudging on or whether just to give in.

GIVING IN.

a bear calms himself quietly in his cave
a firefly lights the night

I watch you like an eagle
you are always in your flight

I've let you go like a fisherman
everytime the catch too grande

you mean to me more than the ocean's water
or the desert's grains of sand.

it all seems to drift,
whether in hiding or motion
it flows like the wind
or ebbs with the ocean

addicted to words, that
seem to have movement
but stuck to a page
in reading, you do it.

come off of the script, while
you're sitting there reading
each color, emotion
addicted to fleeting.

I try to shake you like a plague

or a title I could not erase

just set the standard

the damage done

why would we ever regret what we did,
have done for love

advance toward the marches and sing a battle cry this is lovely, a symphony by which we head for the skies

this morphing plain this shattered shame
cant compete with my feet

they move mind and relax in time to the sound of your voice

just train for safety and live for the love
Concretize now all your homestead
and refuel the light
cause the morning breaks over the hills
but tonight baby we ride.

All the kings horses and all the kings men couldn't repair the hole in the wall
and since that gape stood open and wide,

Titans let in
and terror began.

a mouthful of human, a sling of a wire.
a slice to the nape overtook human desire.

the fear in her eyes, a cadet in 3D,
I stood at death's door and she swooped to save me.

We stood on the wall, fifty meter's high
while our comrades were claimed,
gripped from out the sky.

If Trost were to fall,
we'd have seen the same for man,
but the Titan within,
Came out to withstand.

glass clouds swell the dimly lit amphitheater

all we wanted was for the curtain to rise

I'm adjacent to wonder

sit next to horizons

and the orchestra pit has gone deaf


we're alone on the stage with a bird in it's cage

and we open the door for song.

we counted on fingers

and tipped on our toes

but the silence and quiet were wrong.

Focus comes in clearly, the clearing of a fog.
The limbs of trees amalgamate, and stretch in all directions, letting out an oxygen yawn.

The wind will stretch out through our American lawns and bend leaves of grass like lesser men.

I just want to sing to her, and I'm making highways out of brainwaves to by pass those dirt roads and reach you.

I think of those jokes you tell me and the all crazy things I've come to know you are,
and, I promise I'm not doing it,
but a smile creeps onto this broad face of mine
and it takes me in the utmost of ways to dispel the fears the warbler sitting in the branches sings about,
and I hope my songs are carried on those gusts of wind,
over topiary and across ponds,
and hope the notes knock on the bedroom window of your cabin,
and you let them in
and through the canopy above your bed
you listen and are dancing with me in your dreams.

She sings, she sings

Classically tangled, smooth like the sound of vinyl.
Her notes touch an ear
and in a musical dispelling I am dismissed from small fears.

I am in-between hammer swings of building something beautiful,
I hope I haven't set this nail too close to window's glass.

Welcome to Dunkin Donuts

they are so good

devil.choclate all choclate

what's your favorite dozen?

She's eating that many?

they don't have straight up powdered.

Who's this now?

Can we smoke cigarettes in hear?

tell me more about something you really like...

I work in the gun section and like powdered donuts.

They don't have them

Blueberry we'll get that out of the way.

You've got two more its your perfect dozen don't **** it up

you're favorites!


inner angel donut.

Welcome to Davis street.

Drive-thru Jam.

elegant astonishment is swirling in my brain
the stars are pulling water forming waves against my pain

all along the tower there are armies sating savage moods
the pilgrims grow and sow themselves
the natives understood.

the grease it drips
chemicals form,
digestive undertakings

cornered lips.
the panels loose.
fortune isn't born.

tie me in knots
strap me to a ship
i’d brave upwards of the seven seas
to sail across those lips

keep our secrets safe on shore
fill the hull on up with *****
even for a gypsy or a *****
the love is their’s to choose

who's anyway now
to say nay
that love ain’t touched them
in a softer way

creatures call
and birds do fall
on out the bluest skies

but a lover’s list
upon this ship
rocks between
my live and die.

like my heart beats on
between the times
not knowing life
but truth and lie.

Sovereign station,
sober soothes.

Carolina came and went,
readjusting my mood and
carelessly swinging a fist to my chest.

I won't forget the skin on your face or the way the bottom of your ear tastes.
I'll pass by in mind suggesting that someday we'll grow up and maybe make this serious.

But we are young, and the restless parts stay restless
unless your caress the beating heart back into my chest.

if i had to treat you like an object

i didnt want to be your friend

you never wanted a beginning

just a means to an end


well you had me in bed

you had me in heart

you ****** with my head

from the very start


just stay away

the circles are spinning

they start in the bar and end in the bed

i could never find time with you

we didn't spend sinning.

i want to stay awake so i can think about you

if i see you in my head long enough,
than maybe my dreams will too.

cant go on alone again

need to see your face again.

i'm gone and its hurting.

i didn't mean to feel this way but i woke up this morning in a considerable amount of pain.

i didn't wake up on your couch, you didn't greet me from the kitchen.

i know i know i know that i can survive,
but I'd rather keep you warm with all the heat I've got inside.

“I don’t think you’re ready for this”

Sweetheart, let me get at you with a

“I’m a little more than prepared”

The chlorine pool-air
This one girl with gorgeous curled hair,

All natural too.

That’s one sweetheart I’m prepared to do.

And not like you’re thinking either.

Tonight’s like a beginning

I know you want me, you know I wantcha

Again, that doesnt impose those kinds of ideas this generations prone to.

I awoke and arose to a cleaner air
And I’ve degraded to a pool side chair.

It’s probably time to mingle

Time to get my “party” on.

Yeah right, my idea of that is sitting at home.
Alone in my room.

you haunt me in my dreams
you taunt me in my sleep

hold notices of shutting down and running off to hide

i was scared to know your body
i was scared to be your friend
all i wanted was a lover
but December wouldn’t end

now you’ve gone a year and left me here
forever and a day
and if i saw you once you came back home
i would not know what to say.

show me, grey eyes, why i’ll always be alone
why i’d never stop a ticking clock
give a thousand sighs to clear my lungs for you


i am not nice i am not perfect
i will always be a fool

but could you tell me would you tell me
what it takes to be with you

no I’m not done i am not finished
you have left a burning mark
that hits the water turns to steam
and pulses with my beating heart

nows the time, and i have wondered
the bravest, deep inside
must a have a safe place to retreat
but i’ve no place to run and hide.

Crush it up and blow it up your nose.
Straight to the brain cells.
Or through your cellular phone.

Leave it alone. Let it ring.
Your ringtones an artist,
Female, she sings.

If you pictured a zoey, a taylor
or faith, unlucky I call you
and put you in place,

for I only breathed,
and pictured her face.

She calls from a plain, while I can’t eat dinner,
My love keeps on growing, my bones getting thinner.

When she comes through the terminal,
I’ll want to say clear,
and embrace her with
hug and say to her ear,

“It doesn’t matter how many times  or when I see you,
you always take me by surprise”

It might be her style, or loving of fun,
how she keeps me awake after a day is done.

I’ll perch on this branch, while she soars the skies,
to meet her in mountains,
and look in those eyes.

That little powdered line went up fast and sharp,
but not to my brain, love goes straight to the heart.

All that happened in peripheral
all the steps towards cathedrals
everything you love is on the table
as is everything that you will be

it’s okay he’s been unfaithful
dismiss the lies as just half truths
but they’re halfway keeping distance
and halfway tearing at you.

can’t get around the gorges and basins
can’t traverse through the turbulent mountains
stuck in your cabin, stuck in your mind
but you chose to stick with hardship instead of making up your mind.

It’s the time for luggage, and time for goodbyes
and like the water spilled
from half a glass
the amount of tears you’ll cry.

Relax and handle all the heart ache
let slip what you’ve been through
because a new girl is waiting to be
if you could let her come on through.

i work late nights,
and sometimes,
she comes into the store, scratching her eyebrows, searching for some item we may or may not have in stock

she wanders

aisle by aisle

waiting for it to jump out at her.

so i went, and said

"Hey there, something i could help you find?"

now,

she was just a customer, i was just doing my job

but the way those eyes met mine, i died.

on the inside
just a small amount,

but i could feel part of my frozen over heart
break off
and hit the pit of my stomach.

she was looking for a string of holiday lights,
i knew just where they were.

i pictured her hanging them from the molding over her living room window.

standing on a step stool on her tip toes.

i don't know about the holidays
or decorations
or muddling through a crawl space to find the last box of ornaments,

but i think it snows this time of year for people like her.

highly strung capital of cool ridge
street

longboardin roads
I'm just cruisin the beat

i'm a radio playa head forth
with long shots

that rip joint mind
shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

be quiet
listen to it.

i woke and arose to the sound of your voice
singing through the chandelier as if it didn't have a choice

i pulled on my clothes while you started the car
and you asked me to drive because the drives too far

the road kept on turning and the fog was thick
as we sang along new songs that we didn't really know

but we listed as eager as a canine in a storm
and we watched for the sky for when the lighting is born

it struck in three places, started fires in each
i grabbed for your hand, you were too afraid to reach

i pulled the the hair from my head
you picked the skin from your fingers

and the haze from before came back just to linger
to drown us or suffocate, i bit for your lips

and just then the lighting found another place to hit
as the guitar kept strumming

and alarms went off, it would've kept striking
if we could of held back the cough

but  we reached our destination
and the sun finally broke

we kept the cold in the past
and you finally spoke

of how you're holding out for something much colder than that
like a wolf bleeding out for the good of the pack.

and I get it, I understand, I howl at the moon.
but I decided you're someone I could howl with at noon.

You told me you fell off.
You dug your head into my shoulder,
mouth in your elbow.
It was hiding the cough.

You’ve been lying to your lover
but your lover couldn’t care,
then you trudged through wet cement
because you knew you’d find me here.

Your fingertips started to
re-arrrange
the way you left the bookshelf
in my brain.

Well, I told you that I fell off
thirty miles down the river,
started sleeping in a loft.

The hypnic jerks from
nervous caffeine,
and all your cigarette dreams
drift and jitter in a business park.
Split and separate your seams.

Putting on handwarmers,
writing with a stick
on the cusp of  keyboard
lit screen point and click

More about this with some
glasses on your face.

Acid by stevejobs
Windows by the Gates
the Wizard here, The Woz
you see
while IBM moves weight.

The sleeping swinging telephone
is answered on the side,
a man spits out some pottery
a pterodactyl cries

Horses rode in Hyrule,
Metroids out in Space.
[Snake was inside
of the box]
While E.T's buried waste?

Basketball, a bird set Flight, across the river Jordan.

Slam Dunkin on my gameboy,
yeah that big red clunking thing,
i lost it in a Pizza Hut
but catching Pokemon

I took a water turtle
the kind that brings the noise,
an olympic sized now swimming pool,
filled just by my Blastoise.


In a city filled by marred betray

Gangs now run the streets,

but it's Okay Sirus would say

Warriors come out to play

how does it get to this point?

the kind where jer name was Amy

and if so than don't regret me.

I take keyboard mistrokes and as a sign of self repentance

like, hey man, fix that mistake, or you're going to ******* regret it.
but as sure as ****

as i'm typin right now

im a bukowski kind of drunkard

who drinks the way he feels.

so you;re getting.

the incandescent light

that refracts into rainbows, and chases off the night.

the clitter clatter of a her zebra heels, onto a drunken dance floor.

then stumbles into the booth seat next to me.
complete.

an irish pub, a drinking hub.
eddie pours my drinks for free,

on a tab he rose for thee, theres a shalonf and a kindsness to the orough that ui ssicuss

I hate having to pretend to be on my phone.

its fine.

leave me alone.

I'll talk to the internet, and drop down a thought.

who's got money for beer or for honey shots...

anyway?

playing against a team of know each other alls.

I am still not a fan of this ******* MC's trivia.

I'm am still not a fan of going to bars.

It doesn't hurt to bleed,
it isn't bad to hurt.
whether we ascend into the sky,
our bodies buried dirt.

the stitching and the staples,
reunion of the skin,
the pain you suffer
doesn't matter,
til the wounds will bleed again.

the mouth of every river, continuous aflow
only break the rushing rapid water
when dams direct them where to go.

flow the water freely,
whip the wind about the air.
fire burn and earth stand solid.
transpose yourself with care.

as solid as a statue,
as crumbled as our state,
to truly build,
united strong,
a heart will find it's mate.

so take the chances, joy is free,
the question is
does it return to thee?

on eagles wings, or bleeding dove,
like birds do soar, so does love.

I've fought through the **** ups
I've been through the breakdowns

I've danced like an *******
I've joked like a clown

I've flown like a kite
in the dead of the night
where the moon and its glow sets stage

I've climbed higher mountains
I've hiked deadlong trails

I've killed myself trying
I've killed you in lying
and found that my life
was absurd

I lived in the moment
and loved every minute
I've believed what I've seen
and I've heard

but as the bird keeps on soaring
so does the wintered bear sleep
but I'm awake while it snows
while perennials grow

I sit here awake
and I think
bring myself back
bring me back
from the brink.

Every time i die, radical face,
I see stars.

Calico system,
a hundred lions.

Houston calls, underneath the gun.

New politics, I killed the prom queen.

Say anything churches,

Have mercy.

SHUT UPPPPPPPPP.

oh gosh c'mon man, let me enjoy myself already.

the inner light shines but the  black veil around my body won't let it through. What's this all about?
any time I try to say it softly it only comes in shouts.

oh but words do mesmerize ,
and the pan flute dangling from her soft rigid throat demands a harmony.

harm me.

I don't want to find myself cruising alone on the free way
heading for California

and I don't want to hear Phantom Planet drawing me to the west coast unless I know that you're there with me, because, though there's something about the open road,
its you who i want to be with the most.

So,

so long loneliness,

we had a great run,

but i've been feeling sort of,

better.

Better, like you and I ARE DONE.

please, let's just make it a clean break,

you know, kind of cauterize the loose ends.

go our separate ways and try and begin again.

you know,
it doesn't have to be like a spirtual thing,
you don't have to reinvent your self or anything.

just get to getting used to your life without me in it.

nothing died,

it's not THAT fragile.

just,
i guess,
remember that you can't ungrow a plant,

it sort of just,

withers.

out of existence.

we are astronauts

code breaking analysts

swimming through bananafish

sleeping in the sea

crack the safe at the bottom of the ocean

unlock your deep sea devotion

let it boil bubble to the surface,
dissipate
join the air
the wind is whipping towards the horizon

some where on this sea lists a ship
warranted in unsteady sailing
by the wild waves
of the seas hidden secrets.

regret, expedition.
rest, on mission.

If the water were the forest
we'd walk steady with oaths of oak.
lumbered knowledge swirled in circles,
but the bark still lets we breathe.

Why won't either of them speak clearly about anything?

Our mouths only move when we command them to,
and it's him who's just throwing words into the "Say" pile,
hoping that she'll pick through his garbage.

shut up and take out your own trash man.

I tried but I couldn't
I survived but I wouldn't
get over the promise I made
to die trying

everyday another empty shell shaped
promise.
holding her hand and trusting the compass.
praying so loudly to keep all our demons from coming to get us
I trust what I see and I know what I hear
but my sense and sensibility compares not to my fear.

we'll be buried as our bodies.
in a six foot hole of home
but because in life we loved each other
we never died alone.

Moods swing
and when we are happy we sing
and in love we bring to each other all we have
and when we succeed we are glad and defeated we are mad
when we get angry we are sad
and it is volatile.

We try to fake the smile, we try to dig down deep,
but the center of ourselves is under this great big heap
of societal illusion.
Get pregnant at 16 be on tv
make all this money to buy things you don't need
big screen tv, man you've got kids to feed.

The government is people too,
filling pockets with gold coins
equaling in the millions, I would too.
Not bad people, just people in the public eye with
an obvious economic advantage.
Small business small people left ravaged.

Big business is oversold
and the citizens drown in the undertow
of economic waters too shallow to splash us in the face and wake us up.
Give up and get moving, away from that beach and start climbing the trees
of infinite ability inside your self and succeed.

Decide what to see and go see it.

Decide what to be and go be it.

Holding you back only are the coming rains and inclement weather of your mind,
but pack a jacket and a water bottle,
able legs, and you'll be fine.

Have faith in your mistakes, and the knots you have tied.
Twist life all together,
What we are is who is left after it all unwinds.

in my head all i am thinking

i need to talk to you
i need to talk to you
i need to talk to you



but i’m talking to you now.

my fantasies are becoming reality

and it lets slip the bleed

from my open heart.

while i am living i am dying.

and i am happy you are here to

witness who i am.

nothing defines me the way that i'd like,
not truth
not beauty
not hate
or it's spite.

im a ravenous creature
alive for the life
inside and out,
try as i might.

my strength dwindles daily
but i keep up routine

for my bills for my parents

forest red sunlit green.

love is like being trapped underwater
with infinite breath
where you tread, swimming outwards.
till you swallow, til you're dead.

****** girl, nice woman
***** boy tough guy.
slathered butter toast of rye
i swear that i may die tonight.

Explosions!
pure and simple,
I seriously can't handle her.

I've never fidgeted so much in my seat from a thought.
But thinking of her is like fist-fighting a bear.

the most exciting parts of life,
distilled into a swooping haircut
and a smile that swallows the sun.

I've never seen clear, nor heard sharp or smelled distinct,
but and so,
I know what feelings should or may be like
and I'll tell you,
my failing senses weigh this heart in at heavy and dense.

so much so to make my mouth clench and hold back the words.

Stop living at the edge of everything.

You're a needle of morphine in  my forearm,
my last cigarette on the trail.

my beauty my bird
what's said and what's heard

response to the lowlight
What's that?

I'm new here.

A kiss is for to say to her
I'm thinking of you now
bout how I'm hiding in my heart
just waiting to be loud

I don't know how I've got so scared
it it comes so easily
but like the sea the birds and trees
I like it naturally

so stand up and dance here next to me.

holding hands and feeling sand
smooth the bottoms of our feet
a lucky strike of thunder struck
out there on the sea

and when its light returned
into the sky
I turned to you and saw
that you were looking at me.

so stand up and dance here next to me.

they say its worth the lifetime
forever and a day
to reach up for the stars at night and hear what they have to say.

but I won't mind just take your time.

Long as

you're dancing

with me.