elegant astonishment is swirling in my brain
the stars are pulling water forming waves against my pain

all along the tower there are armies sating savage moods
the pilgrims grow and sow themselves
the natives understood.

the grease it drips
chemicals form,
digestive undertakings

cornered lips.
the panels loose.
fortune isn't born.

You told me you fell off.
You dug your head into my shoulder,
mouth in your elbow.
It was hiding the cough.

You’ve been lying to your lover
but your lover couldn’t care,
then you trudged through wet cement
because you knew you’d find me here.

Your fingertips started to
re-arrrange
the way you left the bookshelf
in my brain.

Well, I told you that I fell off
thirty miles down the river,
started sleeping in a loft.

The hypnic jerks from
nervous caffeine,
and all your cigarette dreams
drift and jitter in a business park.
Split and separate your seams.

nothing defines me the way that i'd like,
not truth
not beauty
not hate
or it's spite.

im a ravenous creature
alive for the life
inside and out,
try as i might.

my strength dwindles daily
but i keep up routine

for my bills for my parents

forest red sunlit green.

love is like being trapped underwater
with infinite breath
where you tread, swimming outwards.
till you swallow, til you're dead.

the moon shines,
but not half as bright as you do.

and it rises in the sky,
but not half as much as your ideas do.

it lends its light to darkened lands
but no half as much as your smile does.

it was circling the earth
but not half as fast as you can

it stayed its share through the night
alas, eclipsed by morning light.

and all this poem will be a sham,
because a moon cant compare to how,
for as I feel
I am.

walking along in bodies,
feeling your hand start to sweat
we're leading each other to the first time
back at the place where we met.

the blossoms of branches wave hello,
and keep us in beauty surrounded.

the green on the grass felt palpable
we could hold a color in our hand.

your eyes shout excitement, they sing love
and whisper nothing.

Standing together we're stoic.
Appearing as royal as dawn.
But we know in our hearts we are silly
and that lighthearted hearts, love long.

Every time i die, radical face,
I see stars.

Calico system,
a hundred lions.

Houston calls, underneath the gun.

New politics, I killed the prom queen.

Say anything churches,

Have mercy.

man is she one hell of a drug

and once is never enough

so hold hold hold hold on

I'm crying on the sidewalk
and i don't give a ****

and in one hundred days,
maybe by then my head will have finally shut up

im not all right and I'm fine I'm feeling fine

i could feel my heart through my chest
and feel the serrations you've embedded in my neck

and i realized that you are perfect

so i prayed that love would find me
but that won't happen without looking for it.

so i headed to the lobby, to check out of this motel
and i wandered on just as lost
inside a perfect hell.