Murky waters
Running deep
Solemn memories
You'd rather not keep
Pain and sorrow
Loss and dispair
Life's a *****
Does no one care
Broken promises
Shattered dreams
I'm on my own
Or so it seems
A downward spiral
Consuming me
Draining my life
I long to be free
From out of the darkness
As I adjust my sight
I see glimpses of you
Giving me courage to fight
Your hands stretch to reach me
My heart leaps with shock
I felt I was drowning
But you are my rock
My harbour in life
The anchor of lifes sea
From out of the darkness
You rescued me

I stand there at your grave side
Underneath me your asleep
I tell you all my wishes
And silently I weep
I tell you all the gossip
As I bend down on one knee
Happy memories of years gone by
As upon your grave I place a tree
A mini tree of christmas
Dusted with some snow
I talk about my children
And tell you how they grow
I can feel you all around me
Can picture you with a smile
You wicked sense of humour
Fills me for a while
As I turn to leave you
My silent tears do fall
Cause to have you here this christmas
Would be the greatest gift of all

You burn me with your poisoned tongue
Your vicious bile you spill
The hatred pours from every spore
Hating people at your will
Who gives you the right to stand so tall
Who gave the right to judge
What made you such a bitter cow
The right to hold a grudge
What makes you think I give a ****
About the thing's you say
I'll just hold my head up high
And simply walk away

Lying in a manger
His bed a bail of hay
A special gift sent to our earth
Our very first Christmas day
King's travelled to his stable
On camel's from afar
Bringing with them lavish gifts
And guided by a star
Angel's sang a heavenly chorus
Telling us of his birth
A very special baby
A saviour of this earth
He came to spread god's message
To save us from our sin
This world would be a duller place
If god never sent us him
So as we open up our presents
Say a silent prayer
Thank god for the world we have
And for that baby he sent with care

Loving and loyal my own paradise on earth
So full of fun laughter and myrth
I love you completely who are they to judge
I found true love and they sit there with grudge
Your arms are my sanctuary
Your heart beats through mine
I feel so complete when are bodies combine
My gentle giant so strong and so bold
Who's love does consume me from his heart of gold
Without you I'm nothing but pure misery
You released me from sorrow only you held the key
Jake you complete me so here what I say
I will love you completely till my dying day

He struts through the street
With an arrogant stride
A staffy at his feet
Fills him with pride
Baseball cap on his head
Peak points in the air
Yea blood I'm hard
And I don't seem to care
Trackies and hoodies
Are the code of his dress
Big golden chains
Hang low on his chest
Sock's pulled up high
Above his designer boots
I'm a council house chav
So proud of me roots
I'm hard and I know it
And I'll rob ya of bread
Don't mess with me
Or you'll end up dead
His attitude stinks
Filth falls from his gob
With a chip on his shoulder
He don't want a job
But under the bravado
He's as quiet as a mouse
Living his life
From his council house
His mum is on drugs
His dad is long gone
No wonder this bloke
Turned out to be wrong
So show him some kindness
Just a friendly word
Might just be the the thing
That stops him doing bird
I somehow much doubt it
But its worth a try
Cause deep underneath
He's a friendly guy

Alone she sits in her chair
Watching the world pass her by
A cigarette at her mouth
A weariness in her eye
Her face lined and gaunt
Her body a small frame
Every line tells a story
But who is to blame
Her children never visit
No one seems to care
For this poor lonely woman
Sat alone in her chair
Her story unknown
Was she a wife
Did she get her knowledge
From its a hard knock life
Was she a beauty
Or a woman of the night
Did she lie down and die
Or put up a fight
No one seems bothered
They don't seem to care
For this poor lonely woman
Alone in her chair
It is such a pity
Would be a surprise
To learn that this woman
Is worldily wise
But she's simply forgotten
Now she's seen better day's
Social abandonment
Instead of pure praise
Her body now fraile
Greyness in her hair
This poor lonely lady
Alone in her chair

Wandering along the shoreline
A lonely figure on the sand
A woman silently thinking
With a notebook in her hand
Dreams and aspirations
Floating round her head
Trying desperately to reconnect
To parts of her long since dead
So many tales of sadness
A heart so full of woe
It really is a tragedy
To see her silent tears flow
Her shoulder's hunched in sadness
Her broken heart a love does seek
If she can find the strength once more
To forget the man that made her meek
Such beauty all around her
But does she even see
There's chains of steal around her heart
Longing to be free
She turns and walks so boldly
Her footprints in the sand
That woman silently thinking
With a notebook in her hand

Silently she comes,
In the depth of the night,
Devouring your soul,
Taking your sight,
Leaving you breathless,
******* you in,
Her body all woman,
An angel of sin,
She'll never love you,
She'll never stay,
She eat's soul's all night,
And sleeps through the day,
All raven haired,
Tempestous eye's,
Bright blood red lips,
The devil in disguise,
You'll never keep her,
Or make her your wife,
So just enjoy this,
The time of your life!!!!!!!!

Sleep little angel
Dry your sad eyes
I'm here to watch over you
Love never dies
No one will hurt you
Or take you away
I'm here to protect you
My love stronger each day
So sleep precious angel
There's nothing to fear
I am here gently holding you
Keeping you near
My scent is your comfort
Your warmth from my heart
I'm right here beside you
We'll never part
Now sleep beautiful angel
I never saw your eye's
I felt you move inside me
But never heard your cries
I sit and silently hold you
My heart full of pain
My angel born sleeping
Till we meet again

Blue sky, yellow sun
Makes me feel a sense of fun
Happy faces, laughter too
Accompained by a splendid view
Children paddling, deep blue sea
Contentment now surrounding me
Sea **** drying on the sand
Lover's walking hand in hand
Dolphin's jumping in the air
Playing, basking without a care
Picnic's and barbeques on the beach
Boat's on the horizon, just out of reach
Cliff path, coastal walks, splendid views
Old fisher wives gossiping spreading news
Fishermen setting sail, off out to sea,
Going to catch some fresh fish for our tea
Myth's, legends, local history
About this place full of mystery
Everything fits, just like a glove
In Cornwall, the land I love.

Broken, shattered, tattered dreams,
Tears ran down my face as rapid as streams,
No way forward, can't see how,
Blinded by sadness, thats furrowed my brow,
But tides are turning, the sun starts to shine,
I start on my journey, one step at a time,
The smile returning, the heart beats once more,
As this one closes, I'm opening a new door,
My confidence returning, I'm a beauty you see,
He might of done damage, but he never broke me,
Anxiety so disabling, was blinding my view,
But now I'm not worried, I'm better then you,
With head held high, and a tilt of my chin,
I'm embracing my future, with the love from within,
I'm strong, independant, with nothing to fear,
I'm so much better, now you are not here,
Take a good look, sit back take a rest,
Then realise that you lost the best,
I'm reclaiming my life, my harvest I reap,
Look at me now, just sit there and weep,
My journey continues through the rest of my life,
But I'll be ok, I'm no longer your wife!!!!!!!!

Drifting
Floating
Longing
To blind to see

Wanting
Needing
Hoping
One day I'll be

Happy
Smiling
Contented
Need to be free

Future
Fulfillment
Ambitions
Finally me

He is my anchor in stormy seas,
He fills my heart with joy,
He is my rock when I feel weak,
He gives me strength when I am coy,
He is the name upon my lips,
When passion builds inside,
He makes me feel ten foot tall,
When I see in his eyes sheer pride,
He is the one that makes me strong,
His foot prints in my sand,
I could do most anything,
When he takes hold my hand,
He calms my fears and makes me see,
I have no reason to feel afraid,
It's his calming ways and his belief,
That makes me feel so brave ,
I long to see him all the time,
I speak to him each day,
I close my eyes and then I see,
He's never far away,
He is my friend who picks me up,
The one that I adore,
I only wish I had the strength,
For him to be much more,
He is the one that fills my heart,
The love inside does swell,
When he looks into my eyes,
And says, " I love you Shell."

I remember the moment I first felt you,
Moving silently in my womb,
The sudden wash of emotion,
As into my world you did cocoon,
9 long months I carried you,
Hour's of labour pain,
It was worth every minute,
As my tear drops fell like rain,
I immediately fell in love with you,
So proud of what I'd done,
My greatest life achievement,
I had produced you son,
I now had responsibility,
Far greater then any other,
The most important job of all,
Now I was a mother,
I made a silent pledge to you,
One I'd always keep,
I would keep you safe from harm,
I said as I watched you sleep,
Now I sit and watch you grow,
Can pick you out in any crowd,
And the only thing you'll hear me say,
You did your mummy proud!!!!!!!!!

He come's to me in the depths of night,
Angry and twisted and full of fight,
I wish and wish and try as I might,
Nothing removes this ghastly sight,
Panic and terror fills my head,
My body contorted and full of dread,
Recollection and memories fed,
So broken and lonely and frightened in bed,
A man I once loved and adored,
Has broken my mind and my emotions floored,
With sheer abandon the tears poured,
When will it stop, oh help me Lord,
A woman of courage, sincerity and grace,
Lie's her tormented in a very dark place,
Grief and loss etched on her face,
Oh what a crime of passion.

Who really bother's
Why do we care
Who really knows
Why we're even there
Does anything matter
What do you think
When the **** hits the fan
Do we swim or we sink
Is anyone happy
Do you really know why
We struggle through life
Only to die
So many questions
Go round in my head
Is life for the living
Or just time till we're dead

Here I am
This is me
What you get
Is what you see
Standing here
Wasting time
Thinking of
Another rhyme
Words go round
In my head
I lie awake
In my bed
Anecdotes
Similies
Use them wisely
If you please
A blank pad
A dried up pen
Please don't give me
Block again
I need my words
They have to flow
And to the world
They're put on show
Excitement flows
I've reached a peak
Nah can't be arsed
I'll save it for another week

Cowering in the corner,
Anguish on my face,
Being shown a lesson,
So I always know my place,
Longing for my freedom,
Being shown for my good,
Dare not question my husband,
Like every good wife should,
Spirit and body broken,
The bruises that you see,
Symbol's of a marriage,
Now I'm his property.
He selects my clothing,
Never let's me from his sight,
I often pray in silence,
Can't someone see my plight,
When I was a little girl,
I'd often dream you see,
One day someone would love me,
This wasn't how it's ment to be,
The darkness envelopes me,
The blood thunders in my ears,
I'm praying for a miracle,
I scream but no one hears,
Inside I'm slowly dying,
He's so horrible, cruel and mean,
To some this may be torture,
To me it's just routine.

Looking in the mirror,
Who's that I can see,
She look's vaguely familiar,
But seem's a stranger to me.
A scar above her eyelid,
Sorrow written in her eye's,
Memories etched across her face
That she often tries to hide.
Grey flecks in her hair line,
Slight wrinkles on her face,
A smile to light a thousand stars,
But sadness, just a trace.
A woman of worldly wisdom,
The school of hard knock's wise,
This heart was made to be broken,
Even a glass eye cries.
So what has really happened,
My reflection is all I see,
So many thing's have gone before,
Now I see the real me.
Inside my heart is screaming,
My soul it longs to soar,
It hunger's for some reason,
To have a purpose to adore.
Need's to understand the secret's,
That's trappped down deep inside,
Wash away the million tears,
That I often wished I cried.
Now looking in this mirror,
For the first time I know see,
I may once of been a prisoner,
But finally I'm free