dying while dreaming
it sounds like corporate art
break bread with an infidel
and plunge into the dark

do you finally feel good?
feel just the way you wanted?
cause empty wallets and irritated souls
got me feeling haunted
blank stares, over emotional questions
just relax
I can feel your vibe of stressin
not your fault, side effects are ******
when will it be the truth that you're actually quitting?
body mind and soul seamlessly connect
until it fades, and you're hopelessly wrecked
I may be in this mindset forever
the highs are just too good to ever get better

even though you won't remember
I'd thought I'd let you know
that I've loved you since September
and through December snow
even when you're drunk as hell
the way your eyes look at me
believe in something I'll never tell
everything you are, consumes whoever I may be

lost in the forest
i've misplaced my mind
gone for so long
i can't figure out the time
my eyeballs dilate,
the mind becomes twisted
i'm living in hell
at least i'm consistent

I took ecstasy at Decadence
felt the music, heard the colors - hence,
I am the daughter of a God -
popped a pill and heard the call.
the poison in my veins
lets me know I'm the one to blame
for the blood the floods my brain
- can't you see these thick red chains?
I'm a master of emotions
but a servant to the potions
I'll add a tally to the list
what's one more to pure bliss?

I stopped writing because I wasn't sad anymore.
I knew it didn't matter as much as I thought it did -
it never occurred to me that there was more to life than her,
and those hopeless ******* poems

what's one more
to an endless night -
my heart is broken, right down
to the core.
i might end it all, i might
i might i might