she is the girl that is stuck within her thoughts
day and night
she never seems to find an escape
the only escape that has ever been there for her
is sleep, sleep; the unknown dream, the escape from reality.
how does she do it?
how does she manage to get up every ******* morning
and but a smile on her face that doesn't exist?
No one knows her real pain that is inside,
she is forced to deal with demons that no one can see
but how can she deal with the demons?
if the demons captivate every ******* ounce of your brain?
Who is she?
who is the girl that fakes a grin,
but on the inside she dying the girl that would rather die
than live in the hell she is living?
The girl named She,
is me..

How long has it been?
Weeks?
Months?
Years?
All the pain you cause me
I hope you feel the way I feel
Have you ever been real?
Or have you always been full of lies
Oh Dad,
How I disrespect you
I hope you enjoyed
that last ******* high
because it made you die
And to think that you were clean
How many more ******* lies did you scheme?
Maybe if you didn't lie,
You wouldn't have to leave me behind.

We all have demons
big or small
we hear them in the silence of the night
we try to do whats right
starting off with a whisper,
you start to quiver
dragging you deeper and deeper into the abyss
no way out
searching for the light
thats not in sight
we feel them mostly at night
searching for the light
that will never ignite
who are they?
I'm sorry to say sir
but, the demons are you