she smells like sunflowers
tastes like fresh mint
the jungles in her eyes go on for miles

he looks like thunder
a storm that never quits
his voice puts goosebumps on your neck

her God gives her courage
puts the light in her eyes
He smiles and laughs as she sings
songs of praise
glorifying His beauty
He reigns over her world

his courage dwindles
his dark world absent of light
he cries as his mother screams
his father hurts her
hitting and drinking
is this the love of a father?

he sees her dancing
his heart cries out
for the love of a child of The Holy One

she sees him crying
her God has given her compassion
her heart cries out
for the boy who yearns

she goes to him
to show him the love she has been shown
all along
the love her God gave for her to give

he looks up
sees all the love in her eyes
hope rushes in
and he cries

she holds out her hand for him
He holds out His hand for him too
and he knows He will make everything alright

I had this story in my head
I had this story on my heart
Where you were with me
Even when it all fell apart

I couldn't picture you with anyone else
But Satan is sweet
Giving me memories that never happened
Like the remains of your kiss on my cheek

I told myself I didn't care anymore
Oh a long time ago
But whether this is real
Or a joke
I'm not laughing
I can't get you out of my head

See I had this image
Where we ruled the world
We were just, brave, and true
You were compassionate too
We raised the heirs to the throne
To be as such

One time I had a nightmare
The kind where you wake in a cold sweat
You were asking people to help however they could
You were getting married
To the loveliest of girls

You wouldn't look me in the eye
Not even when I cried
I woke to tears and shaking hands
I prayed that it would never happen again

I tell myself that all I want is your happiness
But then I turn and think that I'm the only one who will make you so content
I want to only think of you when I see you
But I can't get you out of my **** head

GET OUT

I want to sleep
I'm tired but now that I've opened these floodgates I don't know if I'll shut my eyes until dawn

I have pains in my stomach
I feel knives in my ribs

I want you to love me
But you can't if you never did

Take these thoughts from my head
Give them to her
She's done something to deserve them
She's not just a convenience
Like a mat on which mud is scraped from boots
She's in the right place at the right time to love you and to have you love her too

So now again I feel empty
When I told myself I never should
I feel like I've been used
Though you never touched me like the other boys would

My thoughts are muddled
Like the feelings in my chest
As I lay trying to sleep
One day may I find rest

Now I'll stop rhyming like an idiot
Climb out of the valley in my heart
Find a boy one day
Who has the guts to tell me whether or not he loved me from the start

Compliment everyone that walks past you in the lonely hallways
2. Smile at everyone you pass in the crowded ones
3. Sit cross-legged even though you're wearing a skirt
4. Dance when you find yourself alone in class and you're waiting for the computer to load
5. Greet people you don't know
6. Wear that shirt that you love that everyone says makes you look fat
7. Wear converse with your dress
8. Wear your hair down no matter how bad you think it looks
9. Skip your homework and re-watch your favorite movie
10. Laugh it off when it stresses you out tomorrow
11. Cry at that sad part where you always try not to
12. Eat a bowl of ice cream even though it hurts your stomach
13. Go get an application at the place you never think would hire you
14. Sing in your car as loud as you can to that song you can hit all the notes on

15. Thank God for everyone you know whether or not you love them

16. Pray for their hearts
17. Pray they find Jesus if they haven't just yet
18. Pray that everything you did today brought glory to The King

19. Love everyone you meet every hour of every day
20. DON'T waste your time here
It's a gift that someone died to give you

I heard rumors and stories
but I thought that's all they were

I heard it from her

My stomach is in my feet
I can't breathe
My hands won't stop shaking
I feel sick

I swear someone must have socked me in the gut

Pouring salt on old wounds
On top of nostalgia of you

It's all so ridiculous
I'm going to give myself an ulcer
Merry Christmas

Tonight she said,
"Love doesn't die, but people do."

Then I realized
That nothing under the sun
Could take you from me

If the grave took you
I'd never stop loving you
Even if the grave

Took me

"How great it would be,
If we knew everything."
Then there goes all of our splendid curiosity.
"How marvelous a thought,
That we could make things easier,
Have less work for our aching bodies to complete."

If I had a wish
I wish I never did need to sleep.
So that I may pleasure myself on this reality.

Furiously dig through my Bible with a shovel and a pick,
Looking for answers,
Information,
Signs,
Love and instruction.
For hours upon hours until I cannot tell what the month may be.

I long to paint as a dancer dances,
With the control of the mind,
The grace of the limbs,
The soul of the spirit.
To paint the creation my Creator has created.
To stare at scenes for days upon days in hopes that I might create something that resembles such beauty.

To sing as though the river of my voice will never run dry,
To sing until the world stops turning.

For now I'll study until I must stop,
Paint until I bore,
And sing until I fall asleep.