Maximus Tamo

Maximus Tamo Sep 2023

It was all so perfect,
There we went, driving along,
Around a glittering town on a september eve,
The city lights and the starts shine off the lake,

The wind blowing in my face,
As we cut through the country,
Laughing and talking, on and on,
Everything is so natural and soft,

Your hand brushes my arm,
A tickle that I have dearly missed,
Your skin is softer than silk,
And your scent wafts around my head,

There are crickets and frogs,
Singing their choruses of love,
The world around us seems to fade,
And we are alone in our space,

Effortlessly, I spill my soul to you,
You talk sense, and say what I need to hear,
Your words are gold and alabaster,
Soft, smooth, and elegant,

I sigh, as I let go of my stress,
"Finally.." I think to myself,
As I realise the weight I've been carrying,
And on the wind I hear a sound,

My eyes flash open wide,
As I realise whats happening,
I'm helpless to stop it or hang on,
The alarm in the distance grows,

You look at me as paniced as I must be,
"Wait, no, What's happening to me!"
Bits fade, and pieces disappear,
I hang my head but the tears can't come,

As my alarm gets louder and louder,
As I'm dragged back into this hell again,
... I roll over and punch the bed,
I HATE your beautiful memory.

#dreamscape

Maximus Tamo Sep 2023

Sister, please...

I wish I could show you,
To take a carpet ride,
I'd give you the glasses,
That I have only just found,

How can I get through,
All these walls you built,
The fingers stuck in your ears,
I don't want to fight you,

I see the coming catastrophe,
I want to save you,
I'm convinced that I can,
You just have to let me,

Please, go slow,
Drop your guard,
Let go of your hate,
Stop clinging to pain,

If you don't let go,
The pain will continue,
Clinging to the branding iron,
It will keep burning you,

Sometimes the pain feels good,
Sometimes it is convenient,
You use the pain to get you by,
It's your excuse, your justification,

The pain is your reason,
You don't have to do the work,
Deal with the problems or talk,
You hide, and say you're hurt,

You stew on the pain,
Relish the feelings,
Replay the scenes,
Play the broken, skipping vinyl,

Forgivness is not easy,
It is not natural or instinctive,
It hurts more sometimes,
Than the original injury,

But the longer you wait,
The more you refuse,
The more you will miss and regret,
The pain you've now inflicted,

You take the high ground,
Saying you've been hurt,
But now who is hurting,
You know how it feels,

Is love and eye for an eye,
Is payback part of love,
Why do you need a pound of flesh,
If love is how much you give,

If the waring only ends,
When both sides feel even,
The world can never stop the pain,
No one would ever stop fighting,

If you don't see though another's eyes,
You always think you're owed,
That you've been wronged,
That you're justified,

Who do you think you are?
How do you think you're seen?
What do you think you've done?
Who do you think you've hurt?

Find forgiveness for others,
The way you can find it for yourself,
Excuse and let go of others offenses,
The way your flaws are left behind.

Maximus Tamo Aug 2023

Where you want to be

I have a vision of,
A land in blue and green,

Where loss and pain of love,
Have no place to stay,

No power over me,
Or will to make me cry,

My home could never be,
Based in reality,

It's halls are laid in gold,
The arches reach the sky,

Time has no power there,
To wither or to fade,

And everlasting sun,
Keeps gardens full of life,

Across this platinum sea,
Always beyond my reach,

The castle of my dreams,
Silent it watches me,

One day I'll reach the shore,
I'll run up to the doors,

And there I'll stop and breathe,
The air of sweet content,

But none can enter in,
This hallowed place so bright,

Sand through my fingertips,
As dust it blows away.

Maximus Tamo Aug 2023

What can we see.

I stumble on, and through this mist,
I have no light, I know no map,
Cool whisps of fear , about me twist,

A ray of light, a break in cloud,
It's clear ahead, I'm running now,
Until I stand, on higher ground,

I step up high, gaze down a cliff,
O'er all the paths, that I might take,
On falcons wings, my conscience drift.

I'm ripped along, and pulled with haste,
The moments flash, and feelings churn,
My different lives, from here have traced,

How can I see, what can I do,
When I know not, where each will go,
My future is, but senseless clue,

I think I know, but I've just guessed,
What lies ahead, and down each path,
What's right and wrong, its just a test,
Their future none, can 'ere confess.

Maximus Tamo Jul 2022

Within is Yourself

Hear me,
Don't speak,
Be still,

...

Let your vision blur,
Fade out and in,

Our thoughts and feelings flow,
A cool and glassy stream,

There is peace and stillness deep within,
Inner calm manifested by surrender,

A breath, a breeze, a gentle puff of wind,
The light hovering over and endless plain,

Simply content to be,
Without expectation or wants,

Suspended in an ocean of nothing,
Being neither held nor pushed,

A state of relaxation birthed from chaos,
Like a sheet has been pulled back,

The noise carries on, the screaming all around,
But hidden in a chasm beneath is peace,

A field and ideal plain of endless flowers,
Blooming and swaying with each breath,

Each petal is perfect and each one gleaming,
In the warm shining of the sunset,

The kaleidoscope of colors above,
And the reflection from the sea below,

As your senses are lulled with idyllic scenery,
Let your consciousness slip, as into a dream,

Aware of the wild outside,
A torrent rages and beats against your walls,

But safe within you stand and calmly watch,
Anxiety melts like wax and you're left with conscious thought,

Smile to yourself and realize where you are,
Weigh your options and renew your vigor,

Consider your values and morals,
Steel your nerves and steady your hand,

As you emerge from your within,
Hold to your decisions, and to this thought,

What I am beneath, This refined and confident self,
I am not afraid to show to the world around me.

Maximus Tamo Aug 2016

Beast in Flames

A soft breeze from, source unknown,
Swirls within a, room not shown,

Dust of ages, coats the space,
On each surface, but a vase,

Alone it stands, on its shelf,
Glistening light glows, from itself,

A switch a lever, to throw,
Op'ning the gates, red below,

Up from and around, within,
A flame ignites, sent by him,

His minions show, and prepare,
Their master soon, will be there,

With heat and screams, he appears,
All who witness, forced to tears,

But one young boy, not afraid,
Stands up tall, legs are stayed,

The man of flame, swells to fight,
The boy erupts, in whitest light,

Down are thrown, beast and flame,
To live below, in endless shame,

Maximus Tamo Aug 2016

"Come Closer"

Closer closer,
I can't feel you yet,
Please save me,
Come closer,

Sitting alone passing time,
Keeping it all together,
Put on a bright fascia,
Tell myself your almost home,

As minutes to to hours,
And mind running wild,
I cannot connect with you,
What could have happened,

Closer closer,
I can't feel you yet,
Please save me,
Come closer,

The phone rings across the table,
Summons me to the hospital,
Arriving to find you asleep,
Sleeping but alive,

The nurse gives us some space,
Saying you won't last long,
You turn and look,
Broken and forced you whisper,

Closer closer,
I can't feel you yet,
Please save me,
Come closer,

Never will I love again,
The pain cannot subside,
Love can only come once,
All else is hollow,

Life drags on,
Laying on my deathbed,
I can have but one thought,
Looking at you and whispering,

Closer closer,
I can't feel you yet,
Please save me,
Come closer,