You know that I'm drowning
In a river of lies
Pretending I'm fine
But I can't find the courage to face my fears
But all I see is tears
Running of my face like an ever lasting river of sadness
I see you from afar
But you go past like a speeding car
Never taking your time to even look at me
You have better things to do
You have more important things than me
I'm a moth in your web waiting to die
Like the spider you feed off my pain
I cry in pain and you don't care
You just stare
And its loving you that I can't bare
I can never fly
I can never feel free
I can never move
I just sit there in fear
Fear that youll come back
To feed off my pain
You don't care about how I feel
You just want to get close to me
To destroy me from the inside
You watch me bleed and scream
But you caused all the pain
You couldn't let me free
Yet I lay in your web
Waiting for my day to come
Waiting to finally be free
Waiting to fly with my now wilted wings
But I'm no longer bleeding
I'm not longer screaming
And I'm no longer breathing
I'm dead
But that's okay
You'll still live on
Waiting to catch your next moth
One that will last longer
So goodbye spider
May we meet again...

The emptiness
It swallows me whole
I'm left in the darkness
With nothing except my soul

All alone with my sorrow
Sinking deeper and deeper
But wait for tomorrow
I'll be much weaker

My demons will haunt me
With my horrible past
Leaving me with nobody
How long will I last?

Will I just cry
Or finally give in and cut?
Hoping I die
And get out of this rut

I can't stay any longer
It gets harder everyday
I'll never get stronger
Suicide is the best way.

Drowning in the water
Losing my breath
Losing my vision
Losing my mind
Seeing the dark
Knowing im going to die
I accept it
Love didnt keep me alive
But hate is what ended it

Strength is  not my ability to fight
it is my ability to keep standing tall
Strength keeps me going but its not long before I fall
I may fall back to you but when I reach you I stand tall
Seeing your eyes makes me feel like I am flying through the sky...but then I fall back to you again and again until your gone...Then I must stand tall for myself and keep picking myself up because your not here forever and I need you forever...your name I will never forget and your joy and willingness to help anyone makes us all have faith.....We call you Hope and Hope will be known forever. Hope will live on in our hearts, mind and body. Never give up, always try and remember hope is right next to you when you need to hold on and get back up....

My Muscle Does Not Determine My True Strength
My Appearance Does Not Determine My True Beauty
My Mind Does Not Determine My Personality
My Heart Does Not Determine My Care
My Body Does Not Determine My Figure
My Family Does Not Determine Who I Am
My Friends Do Not Determine My Attitude
My Flag Does Not Determine My True Colors
My Standards Do Not Determine My Morals
And My Life Does Not Determine Yours I Am My Own Kind Of Person And I Am Proud To Be Who I Am, I Am Beautiful And Amazingly Unique In My Own Way....Don't Let People Take That Away From You...

The Days Grow Shorter And The Nights Grow More Weary
As The Days Pass My Love For You Is Dire
And As You Walk Passed Me I Feel As If I Fell Into An Abyss Of Love
And If You Knew My Feelings Would You Get More Weary Of Me,
If Only You Knew I Was Here For Your Warm Embrace And You Mine
If Only You Knew That I Was Dying For You
If Only You Knew I Am Waiting For You
If Only You Knew I Feel Safe With You
If Only You Knew.....I Love You....

Days Are Getting Colder
The Days Are Getting Colder
My Feelings Are Dying out
My Pain Is The First Step Of My Sorrow
My Despair Brings The Happiness To Others
As The Days Get Colder So Does My Heart In The Frozen Snow Of Winter
The Days Are Cold And My Fingers Get More Numb With No End In Sight
My Body Going Numb And Freezing Over Into The Nothing People Always Wanted From Me
The Days Get Colder And So Are You