we sat together
in line and in silence
as time becomes tied
a noise errupted of
thoughts and prayers
self-claimed prosephies
but what if this noise is relative

if he scratches his nose,
and i do the same will it be
mimicry or mockery

12/05/23

are my ears popping
as real as the brown boy
peeping and making
his way around my vision
only in broken steps

or as the reflection on my
special metal friend of a friend

12/03/23

your quiet cuts like a knife
and your stares dissolve me
there's nothing behind your eyes
as mine fill with water from
this pathetic pool of pleas

01.06.22

it's like looking at a puddle
except you yourself are water
and the reflection is not only
you but a part of you

it's like two identical puzzle
pieces with different shapes
so that they fit together
effortlessly and perfectly

it's like looking at a mirror
except i'd never wear that
wonderful and ridiculous
bandana on my head

23.07.20

reggae music blasted at outrageous levels,
for her to be hearing it loud and clear
from 20 houses away, though, they do stand
shoulder to shoulder, to be fair.

she snuck out her back door to the roof,
and she didn't mind the tunes that night.
she sipped on fresh mango juice and
watched her ackee tree sway in the moonlight.

she played in her messy, ***** locs
but was soon interrupted by her worst fear.
her aunt had just locked up her way back in
and if she didn't hurry, she'd be stuck out there.

it's hard to rush down a zinc roof quietly,
especially with darkness hindering her sight.
then, of course, a coconut fell with a crash
and her focus was replaced with fright.

she slipped and hit the roof with bang,
then just laughed with dried leaves in her hair.
it was definitely a crash her parents would hear,
so she was probably in trouble but she didn't care.

she layed there in defeat, waiting for angry dad,
the roof would be banned, but that was alright,
as she listened to the reggae, she had no regrets,
because she made a hilarious memory that night.

29.04.20

pause.

do you hear that?
your heartbeat
it's always been there

can you feel it?
it's the most powerful
and gentle feeling

isn't it hard to ignore now?
it's almost silence
but it is deafening

once you hear it.

29.04.20

sitting on old prescriptions
and sleeping in plastic capsules
that float on this vast ocean
i have collected with familiar
waves of tears that once
drowned me, now buffered by

empty bottles

30.05.21

i was looking at the sky for a while
basking in star light
talking to the moon
i almost forgot it was still night

but the clouds served as a cruel reminder
that i never left the darkness
rather, it never left me
and the sun was never coming up
as far as i can see

the sun is never coming up

12.03.20

it's not lasting or 'natural'
this happiness i feel
it leaves scars, but that's okay
'cuz if it hurts...

that means it's real

let the plates below fall at once

why must you race them
between, afront, behind
crashlandings and crushed hopes
shattered glass cut new paths

why cant you just sit atop them
and let us go way down together

09.03.23

peanut butter,
myself,
and worms with lots of legs

13.01.20

I'm not going to lie
and say that everything and everyone in my life
is dark and empty

I have red passion for art
Joyful experiences of yellow with loved ones
Green days of peace, and sweet blue rest

But when you add colour to black paint
It's still black
And I am still sad
Please, understand that

24.01.20

it inhales as i exhale
expanding in my chest
stretching my heart
shifting my lungs
slightly

i feel it
i can't get it out

27.02.23

the gates of my reassuring smile
closed before my words could escape
but it's okay, i'll just let them out
through my tears instead, as usual

02.04.21

can't stop, won't stop
pressing the gas pedal into the floor
with part of me wishing that a pin
would pop one of my tires or a rock
in the road could send the car flying

sometimes the evil thought of crashing
is my only brief relief. my only comfort.

the crash could **** me
the crash will **** you

but the breaks are no longer an option.

02.22.23

shower me in affection
then watch it roll off my slippery skin
a puddle of your wasted love pooling at my feet

15.06.21

i let the horrors dealt to me
roll off my back like water

for years, slowly eroding
the soft surface of my skin

until it begins to just barely
drip through into my body

i let the horrors dealt to me
hollow me out like acid

each atrocity seeping inside
and dissolving my bones

until my heart and my mind
are drenched and drowned

i let the horrors dealt to me
fill me back up like poison

i don't know how to stop
letting it all roll off my back

i don't know how to stop
letting it all ruin me.

30.11.23

pull up a ladder
just a quarter short
and rocky on one side

the wind is strong
but not strong enough

it will put you the rain
but it would never let you fall

03.18.23

we fall asleep
so easily as if
our minds
are making
a mockery of
our hearts
that arguably
fell even faster.

21.10.21

how much of your love
has been lost that you
look for it in empty space
between your own thieves

07.23.23

the hand that clenches the fist
to crush my heart and grips knives
to stab my abdomen is the same hand

that will soak an innocent life in gasoline,
and drop the lighter without hesitation
while using the other hand to hold yours

i will burn myself to death
i will burn the world to nothing

i would do anything for you
i will do anything for you