efni - Hello Poetry

efni Mar 10

i'm so disappointed that
i can't even find the words
but are there any to find
in the first place?

because I have this familiar feeling

a feeling that comes around
when there really isn't
anything left to say but
"goodbye."

03.09.24

you really let me down this time, it's time for me to let you go.
thank you for the memories.

efni Mar 6

even if it's a lie, i'll believe you

when you slashed my skin
your sorry excuses held me together
like ***** tangled stitches
killing me slowly with infections
only to continue bleeding

endlessly bleeding

06.03.24

this is a poem about my abusive ex-boyfriend. i left him around 6 months ago now.

i'm healing from the scars.
i'm not bleeding anymore.

efni Mar 6

glue

we're just friends with memories now but

my heart remains stuck to you
even after my mind abandoned you
even after i said goodbye

i'll let you go someday
but I'll let my love stick around
for a little while longer

06.03.24

inspired by my persevering love for you and our song, "Glue Song" by beabadoobee ft. clairo.

im glad you're still in my life.

efni Mar 6

spring to summer

as soon as i climbed onto my roof
the sun hid nervously behind the clouds

its rays of heat were
replaced by the cool breeze,
a musician,
which rustled the trees,
its instruments.

slowly the sun began to shine between
the shadows of the leaves that watched
the wind wrestle with the returning heat

06.03.24

bright and windy days are one of my favourite kinds

efni Feb 22

the weight

is there any chance you know of a place that
i could rest my pain, for just a second?

i know i can hold it but it is dreadfully heavy
and i am more exhausted than
words can describe

is there any chance you could show me
somewhere i do not have to be strong?

21.02.24

i have died from exhaustion several times over in my life. have you ever known such a death? i pray you never will.

and i pray, one day, i can start to forget what it feels like.

efni Feb 22

fighter

i think if i stopped fighting
my joints would give way
rendering me a small pile
of bones, flesh and blood

i think if i stopped fighting
to keep it all together
i would crumble for good.

21.02.24

as long as i can remember, to live meant to fight. so, unknowingly, I understood that to die meant to rest.

maybe one day i can learn to live without fighting. i am awfully tired.

efni Jan 23

the sunset

out of the endless darkness,
the day i begged for
finally happened

the sun came
…
the sun left

i never considered that the day
i see my first sunrise
is the day i see my first sunset

01.23.24

a continuation of a poem i published years ago: ‘the sun’

i was looking at the sky for a while
basking in star light
talking to the moon
i almost forgot it was still night

but the clouds served as a cruel reminder
that i never left the darkness
rather, it never left me
and the sun was never coming up
as far as i can see

the sun is never coming up

12.03.20

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for the first time in five years, i experienced happiness. true happiness that lasted 4 weeks. and for the first time in five years, i experienced the loss of happiness. the return to the dark. the sunset.