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Pineapples Oct 2018
1001 thoughts at 04:46
I sit here and listen to my children sleep
Makes my madness worth it
Pineapples Oct 2018
Line them up, say a few truths.
one by one the Less I regret.
I cannot remember how to forgive.
#regret #lostlove #heartbrake
Pineapples Aug 2018
Euphanized from my mind everything we were...........I cannot take the physical elements of what you have done to me........I am weak window pain and frost bitten razor blades.
Chalk laced mirrors of the forgetful, empty bottles of remembrance.............paraplegic I must be as I have not stopped bleeding for you.
Searching for cures from the ones your parents warned you from...........doorman’s elbows sharp, sinking and fracturing the sockets I see you through..........that ******* blue dress you parade in still sits exquisitely with your smile.........emergency rooms become natural habitat to the patchwork of fabricated lies and deceit I tell the trainee nurse..........at that moment my only friend......please just something to take the edge off, sleep for my sanity.
That demons got me good this time.........content to keep my mince pies closed for good........that warmth of morphine in the pit of your stomach......want that to last........but here comes lucifer again with the usuall......draw out those tear ducts that sting so frighteningly of what’s to come.........sink that stoker white hot trident deep into the cavity of Love.............will never relapse as it does not stop...........worms and wild flowers can feed.
Deep and sad..........I will write something nice one day! I promise
Pineapples Jul 2018
Choose this life?
Never!
Why would I want to argue with myself constantly?
Making simple decisions is a heartbreaking task.
To everyone else it is easy.........for me to get out of bed feels like a mistake.
You know it’s tough when you do not want to wake up!
All I want is to find the happiness or joy out of everything.........but all I can find is bleakness and grey!
I just want to smile, but all I do is make everyone else happy..........then I have forgotten about me!
Not really a poem I’m just spilling insides
Pineapples Jul 2018
look at me when I talk to you........
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I am scared that you will see me!
Pineapples Jul 2018
I do not want to be hear anymore.
  Apr 2018 Pineapples
Dori
When I realized that I didn’t want to love you anymore, I realized that I probably never did.
Stop looking for me. You’ll never find me again.
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