When you have that feeling so deep that you can feel it in your bones, no not your bones the dark part of your soul, that place you never let anyone see expect the person who you see in the mirror that right there is it that's all you need nothing else.

So if you haven't been able to live that feeling, experience it and if it doesn't scare the living **** out of you then your missing out.

Because that thing, that experience, leads to great things.

I'm bursting at the seams, my naked soul shines through

I want to see the future
For selfish reasons of course
But not for reasons you might think
I don't care if I win the lottery, or if I get the job that I've always dreamt of  

No I don't care about those silly thing
I want to see us in ten years
where we live, and if we do have kids

And if we do, I want to see what they look like, if they have you're hair, your smile, or my eyes

I want to see what personality they have inharted from their parents, to see if they are as manic you once were, or if they have my temper

I want to see us with children, living in a home we love, living a life we so greatly deserve

I don't need to question if we will be together

Because I already know that answer, I will always be with you
I don't see any other outcome other than the two of us, being happy and still so in love

that is, why?
hate, love, death
why?
these things are so important to us, why?
Well I guess  its the things that are such an impact on our lives
I guess that's what were here for to figure it out in our own way
To answer this of life
But hey who knows right?

So you don't like me or love me or very much see me

No you might have I don't know but you don't like me now that much I know

You like the girl, she's young very young.

I know you don't owe me anything

I just have one question if you will take it

Why not me?

I have never been the first choice for anyone, I'm an after thought in your mind

Pretty, but is there something wrong that I did?

yes I have walls one hundred feet tall, but no one even bothered to try?

Just, why?

I'm not asking for your pitty just give me a reason, that's all I ask

So thank you for the year you invaded my mind even when I thought we could be toghter at last

You don't choice me

So have your fun with your little girl, I just ask for her sake give her space

She's not ready for what you ask of her I know I was on her place at one time

Goodbye for good this time.

I am unseen in a room with many eyes

awkward tans, hand stands
a child laughter, memories made forever
these are the best times,
we  laugh, swim, play till dark tucks the light away
family, friends, and lovers
all make these moment in the heat that much better
goals of life are made in these times of heat
  some achieve, some never will succeed
All I know is that this time of the year never fails
not even in the worst times it some how always turns out to be all right

Do you ever catch yourself not writing?
or dreading it?

its scary to think something you love
something you passionate about will be forgotten

that fear of losing that love

the sad thing about life, I doesn't care
if your mom died or your dad
I doesn't care if you cry yourself to sleep
Life just goes on and we have to go along with it
or well be stuck sitting all alone  
so get up and go with it because its going to leave you if you don't

When you look at me with though bright blue eyes what do you think about?

Do you study me, as I do you? Ever muscle you move ever word you speak.

Or want to talk to you ever time your near?

It might just be me, but I hope you see me too.

Kiss me

Kiss me like it's the only thing you thought about all day long

Kiss me and take my breath away

Kiss my head, my neck, my noise

Kiss me, hold me, tell me about your day

Tell me about your childhood, your dreams, and ever more  

Hold me, touch me, even tickle me if you will

Talk movies, art, feminism, life

Your the best boyfriend a girl could ask for

she walks eyes closed
the told her "open your eyes there a world to see"
"not yet" she says
"there are trees,  mountains, and birds, just open up and see"
"I'm not ready" she replied
"there is so much to see my dear, just open your eyes"
"its not time" she cried
"there is  a world to see, a world with everything to see"
"the time isn't now" she told
when she did opened her eyes for the first time, she told them all "sometimes you have to hear the world before you see it, and you have to wait. Because then when you do see it you know the world didn't have to wait but maybe you did."

Life's a storm that never clears but instead gets worse till the skies black, then it rains the tears you hold

Am I going where I want to go, or where I should?

We walk through our lives wondering and hoping for something to come along

And when that thing come, we have to remember to stop and take it in

its time for me to stop telling people I don't know what my future holds.I think I say I don't know what I want to be is because I don't want to hear there comments to say things like, "well don't you think that's a tough business?"
or worst of all "do you really think your cut out for it?"

my answer will be "yes its going to be hard but its my dream."
they will say "why don't you just find another dream?"

"because when you feel something in your soul that makes you smile, cry, and scream all at the same time. that's when you have to follow your dream."

so my friend, do you feel that deep in your soul? that feeling that makes you almost burst what do you do? do you ignore that? if you do, I almost  feel sorry for you. and to you that do, do it and feel it, and follow that feeling. its time to scream your dream from roof tops and mountain tops. dream my friends dream.

I get it.  Your life is a challenge but so its mine.
I know what your going through. And friend I just need to let you know I love you.
No matter how mad annoyed or saddened we get with one another
or the distance  we create with one another
I love you
and I hope you always remember

Ask me what you think of the rain that falls on our heads .It's the most beautiful thing there is for what it dose for us.

Ask me what you think of the way you stand.
You look strong with you firm stance.

Ask me about politics, science, the weather, your favorite sport. Republican, fascinating, terriblely cold and wet, I don't quite understand football.

May I ask you?

What
Do
You
Think
Of
Me?

Do you think of me before you fall asleep and what could this be?

What do you look at when your looking at me?

Is it my nose,my hand, or my eyes?

So let me know what is it or is it the worst thing that I could fear?

Not at all.

You worry me darling

Every second of everyday

I just want to make sure your ok

I want him so bad it makes my bones ache,

And my heart breaks,

When I see the long looks he takes towards me, I become unsteady,

Someday,

Someday.

Another year older

A leagal adult

It's funny I thought I'd feel different, but I never change

I'm still the same person, still me

Who ever that may be

Well let's hope this years as good as the last, maybe even better

As the winter blows out side, and I sit here inside this cliché café.
I wonder what happen to me back in thoughts old days that made be laugh and play all day.

Trust me I love the cold.
But everyday it seams harder and harder to go out there in the cold.

It maybe the things I have learned,
or the things I've lost.

What ever it  may be I hope the cold winter days will still love me,
and will wait for me to love them the way I did when I was young once again.

love is a fickle thing to hold, ever present ever silent it stand in the back of one's heart
If you think it's gone you're wrong, it is there sitting still in the back of your mind waiting for a memento to spark that quickened  heartbeat  
Love betrays you
Because it is honest, it cannot lie
Because love is the only truth we have no matter how much you might fight it
So be true to it, and with that you will be true to yourself

I feel like a lion in a dog cage

Love cant be solved,  we all know it makes  insane.

I have many fears some are grand are some petty
I always fear what lays beyond, when it all ends
my life is one what will I do, will I be proud or will I regret?
I wish I knew but I also don't , I don't want to know when its going to happen.

also my fear of standing up, for my dreams
will I follow these or will I push out like all the rest?
will I see all, or will I never leave, if I do stay I will scream

I wish I knew if I will fail or conquer
but I will just have to live a life of fear.
but these fears are not bad they remind me
to push on and do what needs to be done
to life this wonderful life, to take these fears and laugh,
and ask why I feared them?

Don't take thecalling
The comments of hate
Don't let men control you r body's
Don't be afraid to presue your passion
Feminism is nothing to fear it means that any man is your equal and you should be ashamed to shout it out

I can't even tell you how I fell about you in my dreams

Its 3:30 on a Wednesday and here I am yet again sitting in a coffee shop questioning my existence and wishing you were here

Thank you for your stare with thoughts stunning killer blues

Sometimes we have to let parts of ourselfs die to keep living

I feel a bit lost
a bit small

Young and confused
To who I am

Just finding my place
In this vast space

Alone
Surrounded by a crowd

In this fast pace life
So much to change in so little time

its not a special day
just a day like ever other
but today we decide our fait
today we burn the bridges
today we fight
today we dance
today.
today was certainly a wonderful day

Take me to a place where I might get lost in other people's thoughts instead of my own

When the he sits next to you when your drunk and nothing happens, heart break happens

Why dose my heart get faster when we get so close and sometimes our legs touch

Or when you say some rude comment under your breath and I catch it and you smile a bit when I asked you "what was that?" And I smile back just a little bit

I wish you would tell me more about how you can sleep at night or why you get so flustered oh so quickly

I wish just for once it could just be you and me and we'd sit there and talk about everything we think and feel and you would tell me about your scars and I about mine and we would be together and that was all that would matter just you and me.

Cause really what more do we need?

Art is not beauty, but beauty is art

If you knew you were to die?
The exact time.
What would you change?
How would you tell people, or would you?
Would you totally change your life?
How would you take if  you knew you were going to die?
Would you tell people things you swore to take to the grave?
So my friends, act like you do know when it going to be your time.
Do every crazy stupid thing you ever wanted to do.
Because you don't know when your going to die, and that to me is the scary thing.