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Justin Feb 10
Red
My body is stained in blood
Down to the core,
As the poison leaks from my
Nervous System.

My wounded brain is bleeding.
Forming red rashes, red emotions,
And red torment.
All I see is red, and that’s because
it’s the only Way I’ll be able to
identify the pain.

As my lightskin receives damage,
It is covered in an array of colors.
The Scars are my tattoos.

As my broken mind tries to comprehend
What is happening my emotions
Turn to rage.

Emotions soaked in hatred from the depths of the black, memories bleached  in white, only brung down from the oh so sorrowful blues.

I want to see the world in a vibrant green, or yellow, so that I can finally feel alive.

My base is red which leads to black, which leads to white memories, which leads to blue emotions, which then leads to a portrait of a tumultuous life.

My masterpiece will come after I cleanse my palette.
Justin Feb 10
Loving you was my greatest flaw, yet the pain was so beautiful .  

I held myself captive trying to find freedom within your embrace.

I’m glad you’ve released me because i didn’t have the strength to let you go.

I’ll burn this poem, in a fiery pit of celebration that signifies my growth.

I can finally think about  me, and only me.

your love is burnt into my memories and it turned my feelings into ash.
Justin Jul 2023
I hate humans, the most flawed beings that roam.

They consider the victors win as true peace, instead of actual unity.

They lie in the name of love, instead of loyalty and integrity.

They revel in the chaos, instead of actually helping, trying to help.

They are personification of the meaning flawed.

But I have a greater flaw.

I have a mental illness, so if I think a human is flawed.

What does that make me?

I haven’t found the answer yet, but can you handle this struggle?
Justin Jul 2023
Life has clipped my wings, yet you still fear
The day I fly.

My bundles of chirps sound like a masterpiece of a song , yet they signify my cries for help.

No matter what tune I play, others seem to dance to the agony.

Now i know  what it feels like to be a caged bird, to feel Stashed away.

Left wishing for the day that I learn how to fly.

I’ll always harbor harsh feelings to my captors, and The harsh feelings that I harbor are aimed at myself for never leaving my nest.

I am human yet my cages are mental illnesses, psychiatric wards, and pills.

I truly wished I learned how to be strong at a young age.

Now I pray that my body withers away, because it’s destined to be stuck in a cage.
Justin Feb 2023
If I were deaf
I would Still hear
the whispers

Causing me to
become Blind
Making me question?
Will I ever see the light again

So used to
The smell of
Rotting corpses
Even roses
Carry that
Stench

Tastes so horrid
I refuse to
take a bite of
      Life

Showing signs
Of suic……
Ive lost all
touch with reality

I’m senseless
Justin Feb 2023
able to jump 50 feet
        Yet Your 6  
are unreachable

My invisible guardian
        Angels
Ooh how I wish
We could’ve
        met

Thank you for
   Fighting
The battles That
are so phantom
    To me
  
Thank you for
    Gifting me
With your strength
I am now able to
         Live

I am my mothers
     First born
But what about
      The 3

I will always
     Honor
Them as my heavenly
      Angels

This is my love
       Letter
To my unborn
     Siblings

I love you
   Make
Heaven
Home for
     Me
Justin Feb 2023
It is brave to
    Love
Because heroes
Sacrifice their
Lives in the name
     Of it

Love manifests
       Into
Beautiful things
It breeds life
     &peace

Love is truly the
      Best
Emotion to feel
It makes ones
     Heart

It’s addicting once
      You
experience it
You will crave it
      For life  

People will go
   To the
Ends of the
Earth to taste
This magnificent
        Drug

That’s why love
      Has
A caution to it
“Buyers remorse”

Love isn’t perfect
       Like
Humans fantasize
Its dangerous

Love can be the
    Reason
You may no
Longer be living

People **** for
       Love
Wars have started
Because of it

Will one live a
   Storybook
Life full of  fulfillment
    Or will
They be eternally
     Damaged
By love itself
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