" why can't I breath
even though there is air
why do feel suffocated
even though I am free"

at least , at last love me
even though its not the consuming love
i just wanna experience the warmth of it ...

you are that someone i waited for desperatly
so that i will be loved differently

"what should I do with this lonely life
all that left are tears
all I lost are smiles "

while we continued to suffer
we still loved each other

so many words but still not enough
to tell you that
how much it huts to be like this
how much it hurts to let  everything go
how much it hurts to forgive u
u just make me a mute
and the words die at the back of my throat
those form a lump inside
that I try hard to digest to breath again

HOW DOES THAT RUSH FEEL ?
THAT FIRST TOUCH RUSH
THAT FIRST KISS RUSH
THAT GLANCE RUSH

now i can feel the line
" for you a thousand times over"
but also  it feels like even thousand can be less

why do people doesn't care of others
like how do we tell them that it hurts
no matter how many tears go through the eyes
the pain just never fades
how do we tell this to the people

no word hurt me the most
than the word "what if "
in the English literature

"mujhe nahin lagata ki main
aakhiree saans tak jinda rah paoonga,
tumhaare bina unaka kya kaam hai "
I don't think i can live till my last breath ,
what are those without you

The unplanned life is kinda exciting and sad
i never thought i would make it past 18

Why was the world created
without the freedom of love?

i know i have to let you go...
but
if i know i have to let you go this early
then i would have never held your hand at all

how can i say this
if u want u can stay if u don't want then leave
but i do hope u stay!!

the only definition i know of love is "YOU"
how can i ever change it ??

i am running of words to express this feeling!!

Perhaps this explains
why God did not endow hearts with bones
because they break so frequently.

I finally realised that I could breathe,
but while I was drowning,
I realised that you would eventually run out of it.

YOU MAKE ME FEEL ALL THE
"BUTTERFLIES"
BUT SUDDENLY YOU WILL **** THEM ALL

can love be really bittersweet ??
caz all i saw was bitter side of it...
what happened to the sweet side.

WHAT HAPPENDS TO THE POET
when he completes to tell the story ???
does he live eternally through the poetry
he already wrote or does he vanish just like his words

i think i would and will always care for you

i  don't know how long i can take this ...

my tears will confess  you
my smiles will confess  you
my thoughts will confess  you
each and every particle of my existence will confess
"THE STORY OF YOU"

As the day goes by
the breath gets heavier to breath.
the mind gets weighed down.
heart get burned.
with all the things it sees, takes, heard.

can i still hold on to you
can i still hold on to us
just a little longer
this dream feels good
than any other reality !!

You were busy painting our love black
While I was trying for it to be colourful

why do i always get hurt ??
cause u expect the same effort from them
and they don't do that

"IM TIRED " & " IVE TRIED"
how can i explain these two words
to them
how can i make them understand

WHY DO I ALWAYS FEEL THIS EMPTINESS INSIDE ME
EVEN TOUGH I MADE SURE I AM FULL FOR THE OTHERS

god
can i miss him a little less and love him a little long

All the things that were left unsaid.
what does they ****?
the words of free will
just like the tears that
never cross the bridges of the eyes
all the memories of drowning
and never learning never to swim

will it hurt always ??
even though i let go of them !!

do others always define of who i am??

the tears that are rolling down my cheek
and dying at my lips
hold the hot and solitary love
i have for you in my heart

how can i feel the care ..
when i am the one who always cares
and
should always be the one that cares

will anyone ever look at me
like the way you did

all the paths in the world
but i choose the painful one for u

now i just watch them slowly walking away
while killing me a little inside
with every step they take

so how does it feel now?? they asked
i feel myself like
finally after eternity of tears

with tears rolling down my cheek
i understood that
"they may want you be the happiest in your life
but you will neve be their first priority"
and this hit me hard...

where should i show this love that belongs to you
its no one else's but yours
but u don't want it
and i cant take it back

Can love exist without expectation?
Indeed,  you aren't expecting them to bring the water
yet you will die of thirst.

"tum haaree vajah se dard
vah meree pyar ki  kahaanee"
the suffering brought on by you
"That's my story for  LOVE"

how hard should I try.
how many times should I try.
I am tired of everything.
why can't I get a break?
it feels like everything is falling apart.

"fi Dunya Wal akhirah"
"In this world and the last"

i was drowning in you
i wasn't even aware of it...

can you pray for me
save my soul for me
i am so deeply stuck
that i couldn't even breath

"i can finally be happy " i thought
after letting you go
but now u haunt me in my dreams ,my thoughts
and most importantly in my memories