Longing, wanting, constant yearning

Hating, loathing, frustration burning

Aching, hurting, forever crying

Suffering, cutting, inside dying

Fighting, trying, almost breaking

Holding, clinging, bodies aching

Twisting, Turning, mind controlling

Spinning breaking, sanity unfolding

Questioning, wanting, no understanding

Breaking, weakening, darkness approaching

Asking, begging, happiness awaiting

Hoping, wishing, forever praying

Feeling empty inside
Like there is nothing there
I don’t know how I feel
How can this be?
How can I not know my own feelings?
Feeling so down
Who cares?
No one cares
Surrounded by selfish people
Only wanting what they want
To hell with how I feel or what I am dealing with
Feeling empty inside
Where is everything?
What do I have left to give?
Nothing.
I have nothing left to give
Love just doesn’t seem to be enough
What am I suppose to do?
What can I do to make this right?
How am I suppose to fix this?
Maybe my expectations are too high
Maybe I should not expect anything at all
Well what about love?
Don’t I at least deserve love?
Am I that bad that I am unworthy to be loved?
What is really going on?
Feeling empty inside
Don’t know what to feel
Don’t know how to feel
What is the point of feeling anything?
You will just end up hurt in the end
I didn’t sign up for pain
I signed up for love
I felt it so strong for a while
What happened? Where is it?
I had it in my grasp
It is not perfect but it is mine
I feel so broken
Broken beyond repair
Wondering will  I be able to bounce back this time
Will take years
I loved as strong as I could this time
Didn’t think I could ever love a woman so strong
But I do
Never felt like I needed anyone
But I feel I need her
She has been all I had
I am simple I don’t ask for much
Just love
Give me love
Feeling so empty inside
Tired of hurting
Tired of crying
When is the good part going to come along
There has to be more than the fighting
More than the hurt
Can I please  get this one right
It has the potential of being the best relationship ever
Why is it so hard?  
Wanting that breath of fresh air but it seems so far away
Why does love have to be so complicated?
I remember when things were different and we use to see each other every day I miss you..
Feeling so empty inside

At times I wish I could treat u like ur mine

I love u far more then any can ever love

At times I know...  as if when we hug I can fall asleep huging you and it be the greatest thing in my life ..

I love when we hug it feels as if I have some one who truely loves me..

At times my thoughts in my head ask why haven't I kissed her and showed her the real love I have for her....

I'm scared that when I do she well leave or hate me...

I'm not scared or the thought  just want her in my life for ever if possible....

At times I want to tell you how beautiful  and dam gorgeous you are

At times I just want to love you and what true love is the same way you have given and more....

I love you unconditionally ....

I love you far from what the eyes can see...

I just want you to be mine my heart beats for you and only you.....

At times I see so many woman but the only one I see and think of even when not in my presence  is you .....

Your the only person I can truely trust love and give my all to without a dought or regret.....

I give you my heart and all of me I love you and I always well words that I won't ever regret......

Lies hurt more than the truth

Lies just accumulates

And as soon as the truth hits
The lies hurt more than the truth

That's all my ****** heart has to say ......

I
   Never
               Stopped
                               Loving
                                             You ,

                                                    I
        ­                                    Just
                        ­    Stopped
           Showing
      It

Sad stories in me

Part of me doesn't even know what's
Life part of me is lost in this dreams

A house a happy life

Pathetic  you may call

Dreams

Dreams that take longs of times
Things you want but can't have

Things you want but yet seem so far to catch

Theirs some things that can't be bought or catched

Theirs things that only can be dreamed things that only would  be an illusions

I wished for so long for the loyalty and love of another person that I never thought  it only be a dream

I wished for so long I pay with my pain my troubles my personality my trust that I never thought  id loose my heart along the way

Wishes and dreams something that we'll always remain and a past that we'll always pain my body that we'll always bring out my personality of how I seen treatment and how it impacted me to not be that person

The past something that made me the person  I am now

The pain something that constantly well grow as I gain strength as I change who I am and my flaws

You mumble on about friendship

You call your self a friend  

Lies after lies and I accept it and trust them

My life filled with lies

Fake people fake thoughts fake friendships

Used people  love the word the way they don't see they do

People  care people love
But the trick is

When your down and have nothing they take and run as far as possible

You bring your self up get your place every one all of a sudden  talk and make you think they are your friends

It's funny how I've noticed I hate humans