our love could be a different kind of beautiful.
one where we don't raise our voices to hear each other.
one where we only want the best for each other.
one where that can make it past a sea of land dividing our hands.
one where we buy a house on the west side,
so we can watch the sun slip into the arms of the sea each night.
one where we miss out on.
one where I never forget you,
and you never forget me.
our love could be the one that is forever.

I wonder what it would be like,
What if you changed all those times you said you would,
What if you kept those promises you made to me,
I guess I shouldn't think so hard,
I shouldn't dwell on the past,
I just can't help but feel like I'm living a lie,
All the dreams you built in my head,
I have so many things I've left unsaid,
Out of fear of hurting you,
I wish I wouldn't of bit my tongue,
You aren't even around,
I wish I could of left just like you,
I thought the same things that kept me here saved you,
It was easy when things got rough,
When the bills were due and problems popped up,
You didn't think twice,
I wish you would of cared,
I guess I should of believed the truth, instead of ignoring the lies.

I used to hate you,
Really hate you, with every fiber of my being,
I spent so much time thinking about you,
And about how you weren't thinking of me,
You'd leave me messages all the time,
Telling me how it's my fault,
How I was the one who needed to change,
Maybe you were right,
I did.
You had me so convinced that without you I was nothing,
You had to be my sun and moon,
Without you I was lost,
I couldn't protect myself,
I couldn't provide,
You created a small, fragile creature that had to depend solely on you,
And that's what you wanted,
You wanted to ******* me,
So I would never leave you,
But you always left me,
And I was always just an after effect,
When you returned I was expected to fall back in place.
You were cruel,
You knew just what to say to hurt,
And that was your purpose,
You'd throw verses from the Bible,
Mixed with your own ******* up theories,
To create a mix that made me unwilling of everything.
I want you to know,
Now that I'm a little older,
A little colder,
That you are right,
I needed to change,
And finally see the disaster in front of me,
You're the monster,
And I will no longer think of you at all,
Because at the end of the day,
When I'm sitting happily,
You'll be in some God forsaken place,
And I won't be thinking of you at all.

I don't think you understand what you're getting into,
You think I'm attractive,
Clever at times,
But you don't know me.
You've heard me converse,
You say I have a cute laugh,
And you say you're ready,
Ready for all the baggage I always seem to bring,
But maybe you should understand,
I've never loved anything,
And you won't change anything..
Maybe you should think twice,
Take the hint and run,
I'm so lost in this world,
That there's no sight of the road,
This is for your own good,
You don't know what I've been through,
So maybe it's best if you take the warning and leave,
You don't know me.

Just a casual conversation,
Between a few friends,
Your name came up,
I don't know how,
I guess I blacked out,
They ask me if that was someone I knew,
Was I suppose to tell the truth?
I couldn't stop my heart from weeping,
I felt the raw pain in my throat,
I replied in a bit if a sob,
and in my last breath I cried,
I used to.

You always have a way of ******* everything up,
I've successfully excluded you from my life for years,
The choice had to be made at the time;
You're not a kind man,
You have no compassion,
And I've always known in my heart,
That you're no good for anyone,
Especially not me.
I've always had to pick up the lose pieces from the damage you left,
You never want to talk about that,
I've been trying so hard to forget all these hard times,
And now I'm better off since your not here.
I don't want to fight, cause I know I'm right,
You don't change,
You just hurt,
I can't have that in my life,
So I'm going onward with my travel,
You can just stay here.

I'm sitting in this empty booth,
Waiting to long for you to come,
I guess I'll just pay for my drink and go,
I'm tired of waiting for a man.
You always said it is what it is,
I shouldn't want it any other way,
And if I do, I should walk away from you,
I don't know why I want you around.