Zaina R

Zaina R Sep 2012

Goodbyes

"Never Touched you"
Why?
Maybe things would be different?

I walked away, i let you go.
Fingers slowly slipping away from yours.
I saw you for the last time.
Never will i forget your warm embrace,
Never will you forget my attachment and passion.

Its not about anger or betrayal.
Its about you and me.
What i had for you was so beautiful.
You were so beautiful.

Zaina R Sep 2012

His Gorgeous Face

A breathless face.
i forget everyone, the whole world.
The only thing i know and feel at the moment is my desperation to have you all of you.
My eyes fixated.
My body motionless.
Now moving on doesn't seem so hard.

Zaina R Sep 2012

Smiles :)

I smiled a lot today.
One day you ruin my night,
Then the next day you make my day.
Always finding reasons and ways to talk to you.
You make me feel content.
Now i know i was thinking to much into it.
All those times you wished me good night, You really meant them.
Sometimes its seems like you can't be with out me.
But i really want it from you.
Are you this attached too?

Zaina R Sep 2012

OMSB

I sit in silence.
Waiting for the sound.
That indication.
A thousand nights of thoughts filled with guilt regret and confusion.
The feel of lose of dignity.
A selfish heart.
One to take advantage of love and attachment.
Wrong decisions were made.
How can change occur now how can control be achieved?

Zaina R Sep 2012

Its True Its All Because of You

Why is it that no matter how big my problems are or my problems get,
nothing gives me more sadness or difficulty than not hearing from you,
not speaking to you, not being able to look at you?
From all the worries in the world why is your worry the greatest?
My world does revolve around you no matter how much i say it does't or no matter how much i pretend. During the long summer when i though i was fighting everyday and then when you came back and cared for me i thought my struggle was over.
But why do i feel that ever since our feeling came in the open it was not the end, just the beginning.
I guess that's what they mean when they say life is hard.
Just have to find the good in each day
the smile in each day,
that even sorrows and difficulties should be embraced with happiness, contentedness.

Zaina R Sep 2012

On, Off

I miss you.
Do i have a right to say that?

I hate when you do this.
Why all those messages all of a sudden?
Do you think i will forget you.

No contact for days, Then i'm fine
But then when you come back and then suddenly disappear.
I have to start the processes again.

On, off, On off, Missing you, loving you
And then forgetting you, except but never,
Just learning how to live with out you.

On, Off

Zaina R Aug 2012

Color Me Up

It doesn't matter where you go, but who you go with.
If He is not with me then even in paradise something would be missing.
I don't want paradise.
I want the worlds beauty.
The worlds true wealth.
Not the wealth of money and power,
But the wealth of Nature and Spirituality.
Every sweetness, every grace that has been showered down,
Fall upon me.

In the deepest corners and endless alleys i want to find the different faces of the world.
Every cities lights reflect something.
Every person, their life and living add color.
I want to experience those colors,
loose my self in the crowds of those people.
Some say this world is difficult, dangerous, people ******* and that the sad truths are buried underneath the earths soil.
I say the world is very beautiful.
That this very soil could be a persons first steps,
Of wars fought for freedom,
Or or two lovers coming together.

It's just a matter of searching.
Every place has a story.
Every creation has an essence, an emotion.
This is what i long for.
This is what i dream of.