I am sorry so sorry for the way that i left your heart in the shambles that of my hands that gripped too tightly for so long as the pieces fall around me i try to piece them back together but what i have done cant be forgotten so why do i feel that i shouldn't be the one to beg on my knees and it should be you that looks into the soul  have longing for so long since my steps to you took me farther from myself can i give you this new heart if i can be the one who left the imprint of tears in the deep black void of what i destroyed that had been the beat of life

why am i sad when i hear you speak why do i cry when i feel the touch i long for i hope that i can go beyond these tears for they will last throughout my ages as i gaze upon your hand along my cheek i can see the soft of the words it speaks but as i feel their comfort the shiver and chills run along my spine and i bat away the hand for not to freeze but again these tears flows from which them came and as i realize the mistake that i have made i go to have your touch again i wish upon your comforting hands now that i have them along my body why dont i want to be with the rest of you

Chaos it is like the beauty that I can see when I look through your eyes and when I see the veil of dark that has been cast on my sight I can feel the touch of your madness that I have gone drunk upon and I can finally see the paradise that I have struggled to create and I am enthralled by all of this so why are you so cold

I heard a voice is it you calling my name since when has such a simple thing been such a joyous moment why even when I am happy do I not feel this way when all the ones who love me do is show me my worth as I watch the purse of your lips the honeyed sweet words drip from mouth and I finally can see that you gave me the greatest lie of your life that you love me I can finally see those horns

Look to the sky my child as you look to their you will stars and planets and the heavens they will guide you through this life and keep you in check as I now will be a part of those stars you look up to but worry not for these will also be the angels that hold my hand as my breath escapes me and your tears will be my strength to hold tight to them so I wish for you to give me the power to love you from afar but never away from where I belong at last I will be immortal because forever will now last with you

Why do they cry why do they sing is this my mind leaving me or can I actually your voice from the heavens of your dreams. To the emptiness of my heart as I look to sky and ask you why do you taunt me why do I still weep when I know that you can not be there. My mind knows against what my heart says but your heart believed it so why should the sorrow be in my head each time I close my eyes I can see the world those rose coloured glasses you wore so why can't I connect the tears that roll down my face to that heart that managed to colour me different

I can soar on the wings of the my false hope and I can breathe forever drowning in my lies but when I look to the eyes that gaze into my eyes like burrow that leads to my soul all you will see is the small man that I have become because the point I have reached is where my hope has stunned and paralyzed me to my core why is it that the fear of losing those eyes is the reason I can move and miss your hand to keep you by my side