Beauty and beast how can I hope to have you in this life that I call my own I see in the mirror the chaos I bestow my shoulders weighing them down as I think to myself can the beauty feel sorrow I can so easily taste I look up to my ceiling to see the blank space as the chaos lifts from my shoulders I feel hands lifting it away I can finally see a reflection of my smile so why isn't my beauty with my smile as I fall to nothingness not even by her guiding hand of dream do I have her

I stare across the sea to the sunset cascading down the horizon and feel the ocean tide brushing its hands to my feet as i step further into the the waters i can feel its arms starting to embrace me as the sun begins to become nothing but a shade of its former self as i take the plunge into the depths of the water i can the ringing of the chains that ties my fate i struggle to break of them and as i finally fall i am released of the chains and released of the embrace as i wait for my dreams to stand over the nightmare of the fate that i had broken

As my skin lay rotting on the ground beside my feet I can see my heart beating in my chest within the beat of my heart can restore that which is lost among the remnants of the past and as I lay my head to rest I feel the cool dark embrace of the winds of change that envelope my soul to see the beauty that you see in me I find a future dripping among my veins

I hear the voices in my head warring to be free “**** him” “take her away from the pain” “no you must help them” “burn their obsessions ” why do these voices continue to persist I reach into my heart to see if I can find the calm that I seek but when I look deep in there all I can hear is the voices “take your pitiful soul away from this place” “the people who love you matter” “why do I hurt why can’t I stop the hurt” “I love her why won’t she love me back” oh god SHUT UP as I wail in the agony of the struggle inside I slide my nails along my leg and come across the padding these pills do nothing to curb the voices they just make the voice become more like me

the crimson sky begins to fall I see the stars beginning to shine I look up to see them smiling down on me and I hear the voices of those who have past to bring the stars  I look to see the whispering willows spreading the darkness of the night beyond their reach to take away the brilliance of the sky and as the night becomes true to the dark the sky begins blacken as I cry to those who have fallen for their light to bring my eyes to the path I must take I see the lady in black carrying the lantern that seals the fate  of those who wish and once I feel my soul become cold and ashen I finally saw my light so why can’t I put a star into the sky that now becomes the dawn

as i look up into the sky i can see the carrion's circling overhead readying for the buffet that awaits i wonder if my life will see why i deserve these birds that are so of a flock with me and realize to myself that it was all your fault for you led me astray with your eyes and kept me coming back for more and you drove me to insanity with your love but am i truly crazy for this mistake I have made or am I just now learning what it means to be with my own mind

I give away my heart to you only to watch you pierce it with your gaze watching the blood drip down your chest and see it begin to melt the ice that surrounds your heart as i have hope i can melt such tundra of blank dead cold i watch as you proceed closer to me and as you go to begin speaking the tear falls from my eyes and the heart stops beating i have lost what i thought was treasure and as my tear finally ripples on the ground your back is already turned and you are leaving jewels of eyes and you walk beyond the horizon to be never seen i pick up the remnants of what you left behind to watch as they begin to beat once more