I wish I could be the Jude to your Lucy still
But I can't think of my love without feeling ill
I promise I'll stay safe, stay away from these pills
I promise as a lover, who's felt loves cold chill
You meant the world to me
I lived for you, you know
Now that you're gone, a hole is left
Gaping bigger than a black one
Stretching out forever
Leaving me scarred, unable to function
The end

I miss you so much
I couldn't help but kiss you
Though I don't think it will help us along
I couldn't help my leaning
I couldn't fight it again
I just don't know if together's where we belong
It kills me to say that
Please don't think it don't
For both of us, I'm trying to be strong
I just don't know if
I just don't know when
I just don't think this can last too long

Shh my baby, please don't cry
I'm here to help you out tonight
Things may not seem alright
But now you have my by your side

I know this change is confusing you
And it's confusing for me too
I'm just content in doing what we do
Not trying to end, nor begin anew

I know you know how I feel
I know you know my Love is real
I know you'll be okay; you're made of steel
I know this seems like a turning wheel

Give me this chance, and nothing more
I hope there's more of Us in store
And like you said, when it rains, it pours
But I've not forgotten the oath I swore

I told you always, and that's what I mean
You'll always on me be able to lean
I'll take you to sunny skies, and pastures green
I'll be your king if you'll be my Queen

I know this may not be what you want to hear
But it's come from my heart, so take note my dear

I thought we could figure things out
I thought this could work
But the second you told me
That forever wasn't possible yet
I knew it would end like it did
I knew it would hurt us
I knew it wouldn't be happy.
I knew it had to happen
Because I can't stay in something that's draining my life
My soul and my vitality, my livelihood's turned it's back on me
The person I live for, lives for something else
Someone else
Somewhere else
Eyes open, but not processing
Ears hearing, but not listening
Nose, dripping, but it doesn't matter anymore
Your tears are yours again
They're no longer mine
No longer will I be trying to find
an answer to the questions that seemed simple at first
Where are you?
Who are you with?
Why are you ignoring me?
The progression goes on
The I'm sorry's come out
The promises of change
I've heard all about
The lies and deceit
That fills up those words
I'll be better now,
Without you
I'm determined to hit big
I want to do everything I wanted
But didn't because of you
I want the girls
I want all of them
I want to love each one
To remember what we had
Living a low life
Becoming a low life
Degraded from the pure love we had
Into this tainted, despicable mucus
with the guise of love
You don't love me
Don't lie
You don't care about me
Don't lie
You wanted this to be over
Don't lie
You wanted me to hurt
Tell the truth
As the words from my pen
write themselves on this page
I find that I'm struggling to find something to say
You meant everything to me
And you took that away
That your life works out well for you
I can only pray.

Is she *******
Or
Shaking from the cold

Clasped cigarette
In
The night as she feels alone

Tears stream down
Our
Faces and onto our sleeves

Quiet 'I love you's
But
It's seems loves not enough anymore

I want to try
Please
If you let me pick up the pieces

Trust me, don't ask
Why
I want to be with you

I love you
And
I never will or have another

You are special to me
You
Make my days shining bright

And though
It seems we're far apart

I know
I can't repair a broken heart

Who am I?

I often thought
I knew who I was
What it meant to be me
Why I do what I do
But now,
After you,
I'm beyond broken
I'm a blind man in a room full of mirrors
Confused, with no hope
I prided myself,
Well, maybe that was the mistake,
I tried to help
But in the end, you made my heart ache
I'm going through the motions
The key to life is simple:
Give up
Let in
Find a shepherd
Follow
Repeat
The sheep may be ignorant
But they're content eating weeds
Even when luscious pastures are close
They'll follow their shepherd
Forever,
Or
Until
He
Changes
Political
Parties

Obscene
Yet doable
Unwanted
But required
Vast
But unrequited

Maybe it's a bad idea
But this sheep
Has had a taste of real grass
And the more he chews
Reluctantly
On his dandelion
The more he realizes
Slowly
He needs the grass to live
But as he arrives at the pasture
The grass is burnt
The trees are cut
And he turns,
And he weeps
Because he knows what he has lost.

These cigarettes
Are keeping me alive
Without them, I'd cry
All the time
With them I'm broken
Needing a fix
Where packs turn to cartons
And ash piles high
I sit on my throne of ashtrays and ****
Wondering how I became King
My loyal subjects:
Marlboro, L&M;, Camel
Ready to let me die
Helping me to die
Without blowing my head off
Just smoke more cigarettes
Lung cancer at 25
When I was living, I was alive
Live fast, die young
That's the plan
I just didn't know
I'd die this young

The only person I want to talk to
Has left me, alone
I sit, mired in love
Aside from my sobs, I sit like a stone
My shirt's soaked wet
From my tears, and blood
I never thought it would end.
I never thought it would come like this
I never thought this gun would be in my hand
I never thought I'd think this again
I never thought this love would be over
Or my life.
BANG

With tears in my eyes
I think of you
I think of what was
I think of what could have been
I think of everything you brought me
And cry harder because it's gone.
I have no one to depend on anymore
I have no comforting figure
You can't make me feel better
When you're why I'm sad
I hate this life, and what I've become
Sullen, despondent, distant
My emotions kept hidden
You look at me now and you say this man's diseased
Well I am.
Or at least it feels like it
What's it called when your heart feels like it's dying?
What's it called when someone talking about you makes me sad? What's it called, where I wither away, a dead flower, lost in a sunlight world without life giving water and gently slip into the night?
This disease is called love, and it's more dangerous than greed
Because what love is
Is a need
A need for somebody
Somebody to be there
Somebody forever to hold you and cradle you gently while you weep
Somebody to grasp firmly in your arms like only time can break you apart
Someone to kiss so passionately that the 'cute couples' are jealous of that love
Someone worth dying for
And when love first grabs you
It treats you like a king
It pampers you
It spoils you
And then it spoils
Then it becomes sour
3 month old milk
You're an old plaything Woody,
Don't you know there's so much else?
There's the parties
The drinking
The drugs
The hot guys
Don't you see, Woody, you helped me one time
To get through the tough times
But that doesn't matter now
My new friends are calling
Good bye Woody
And just like that
You cast me aside
Threw me in the trash
And went along with your life
You may be broken
But not as broken as me
You crashed your car at 20
You crashed mine at 80
I desperately seek the only one that can comfort me
But you're too far away
Too busy.

Though we're not as close now
I'm still in love with you
We've grown apart
We've made mistakes
We hold each other tight.
I stroke your gentle hair as I whisper in your ear
You listen this time, comforted
We leave our bubble of love and compassion
I walk you back home
And kiss you goodnight again
Like I used to before
It made me smile, it made me laugh
I love you, from the bottom of my heart.

Now that I've seen you
Things don't seem as bad
We've seemed to figure it out
Trying to embrace the new
And block out the sad
Never farther from you than a shout

I wish we could be
Together right now
But we have to go through this trial
And someday maybe
Somewhere and somehow
We can be with each other a while

And if that's not
What's supposed to happen
There's nothing I can say in retort
I can say that I fought
That I was fully wrapped in
Our love like the best pillow fort

I'm not letting go
Of my love just yet
Though there may be I time I must
I still want to show
I'm glad that we met
And in our combined strength, I trust

It's hard to believe
We're in this position
I've really never been here before
I will not just leave
I've made it my mission
To give all I can and more

So take heart in this poem
Don't let it distract
Keep your head held high in the sky
Let's together show them
That we are on track
To make it out of this all right

I saw a text message from my friend
I thought it was you
My heart leapt
Then it wasn't.
Sorrow...

Even now
A click of your send button
Has the power
To break my heart

Every day I hope for rain
Just to match my pain
6 years in a daze
Go to work in a haze
Get drunk every night
Sometimes I don't even put up a fight
Feel like I'm in over my head
Wonder if I'm better off dead

Trying to convince myself there's a tomorrow
While my eyes are telling me I'm feeling nothing but sorrow
Don't know much, but I know I'm alive though
I hope that's enough when I wake up tomorrow

Every day I hope for rain
To match my daily strain
Fickle memories lecture me
"open your eyes and finally see"
And though I hear their lesson true
I can't stop thinking about me and you

Trying to convince myself there's a tomorrow
Though I'm feeling nothing but sorrow
Feel like I'm in over my head
Wonder if I'm better off dead

Every day I hope for rain
But I hope so in vain
Bright sunny skies, temperate degees
Make me want to go inside and flee
Live vicariously through my Playstation
So I don't have to feel that pain again.