I'm in love with feeling down
The feeling stays through towns
I pass along the way
Each more beautiful than the last
All of the emotional nights have found
To be just as therapeutic as the sounds
That abound in my thoughts
As they race towards the past
Back to the future where they all merge
A keyboard circuit surge
An electric strum
A soul being purged
With the words I'll hum, tell, yell
But first let me ask
Do you have a cig I can ***?

So if your reading this.. You can probably tell I'm drunk and lonely
I don't know if you know, but the reason I keep writing was because of you
The reason I kept breathing was because of the way you spoke

You're calming cadence in your voice spoke to my uneasy soul
That has always been shaken but never stirred
Yet you asked me if our kiss wouldn't mean a thing
and I thought that it would not
I was used to people caring
but when someone did not
I released all of my love
... and now I realize that it was my mistake
to live the way I have my entire life
now I'm not sure how to fix it

You're still drowning but now so am I
but perhaps their is a chance for us
to doggie-paddle our way to safety

Nothing will ever love me
The way that I do it
Except for ******(e)
She'll comfort me
with a disappointing face
She'll make me realize
so much but nothing
She'll make me dull
but feel completely alive
Oh how I wish I could find my ******(e)

We're a set of clothes with no bodies
Cause schools brainwashed
           loves trampled us
           six feet under with
           with our hearts and minds
           turned to dust
           parents lied and educators ****
           unable to teach us real-life skills
           like love is tough
           so we're still
Living for paychecks
            for those who feel like us,
A set of clothes with no bodies
Maybe we can remember we have souls  
            and not our remedial schools, undying loves, deceitful parents, and bi-weekly paychecks
Can take that away from us.

The rapid rapping outside
echoes for days on the inside
until it finally resides
and leaves me to lie, lie, lie LIE!

Ever since that ****** up night
Im not sure If I've gotten worse
Or If I've gotten better
But I know that It'll be alright
because i was sworn with a curse
If I will let her in between my sheets
she will stick around in my head
and be the ringing in my ears
that will stick around for years
So that's what I did cause
I needed her here
I guess you could say
She was the best drug
And I've ****** with yay
and I've ****** with H
and you can **** with me
but if you **** my friends
when they say no
I will **** up your nose
sternum, and existence in whole
So just get away and
move back to from where you came
I don't think I can stop shaking in anger
when you walk this way
So when this song will say
*******, **** your family
It speaks for me and you can tell
so keep your head down
and keep on frowning when I look at you
Cause ever since that ****** up night
Im not sure if Ive gotten worse
Or if Im getting better
but you can be ******* sure
if you ever do something like that again
Youll be in severed into peices
and my floor will be wetter with
your blood than it has been with
alcohol
She was the best drug ever
but defending her by killing you
might be the best high Ill never have.... unfortunately

I keep trying to write this letter
but it's too hard to reminisce
about the times we had
that were cloaked in sadness

I was to afraid of the girl
I used to love to tell her I
even liked her so when I moved and
another came around like her
I didnt hesitate to try and keep
her around but instead I pushed her away

Maybe I need to just let it all go?
Maybe this is the time I dont write it all down?
But maybe just leave you with the promise
of a great birthday present and a full heart
because you will get exactly what you wanted
while im downtown at a party
And I can finally leave from where I started when I
first saw her the first day of freshman year.